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Originally Posted by cyberwraith
sshenry,
Maybe I'm reading what you wrote incorrectly. The first time that I read your post, I read it as "What if you reach a point where you CAN'T simply let go," and then I re-read it.
Either way, can you give an example, if you have one in mind?
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Okay, I am going to use an experience that just happened to me recently. I was immersed in a very nasty case of business politics here at my job. A mistake that I made (and I admit that I made it - it was a relatively simple error that could have been corrected quickly and quietly if my attention had been drawn to it, but instead it made its way up the food chain and the mistake was missed by THREE levels of supervisors after I had submitted it.
Of course when push comes to shove each supervisor passed the buck back down a level until it came back to me, low man on the totem pole, and by this point it had escalated into a major issue involving the highest levels in our department and even a congressman. I was called in on the carpet and there was talk of removing me from my position.
Amazingly enough, I found that I was relatively detached from the outcome of the whole scenario. I sat there, listening to them discuss my future, and was amused by the whole scene! They finally asked me if I had anything to say for myself - and normally I would have jumped all over an opening like that, explaining how it could have been corrected if it had been brought to my attention earlier etc. I would have justified my actions, documented my decisions etc. But instead I simply found myself shrugging, and saying yes, I had made the mistake and that I was sorry it had turned into such a mess.
It crossed my mind to worry about how I'd pay my my bills if they laid me off, but at the same time I wasn't worried, not really.
This is just an example. This has been happening more and more lately. I find myself stepping back from the outcome of issues instead of getting emotionally wrapped up in what is going on.