I started this post to get a feel for how I feel. I love seeing things from everyone's perspective it helps me understand my own thoughts and feelings so much better.

Here is where I am at now. I feel that when I truely love someone that love overpowers lust though they can dig it up if they like.

I think my real issue is not between love and lust, but in the 'relationship box'

I know here on IS many people have a different level in their relationships but my idea of the real world relationship disgusts me
it is a box
they put your love in a box
and that breaks my heart

I can't stand the thought of someone trying to limit my love to purely romantic and lustful
when so much of true love to me is a free thing that knows no bounds
I do not understand jealousy when it comes to love
I would not be able to have a relationship with a normal person because I could not limit myself to loving them most, or first, or only
and my love would vary depending on the situation

perhaps that is where the problem is I can't stand having this fixed idea of love when it is always changing and I love so many people in so many ways and everytime I have been in a relationship I always feel that it is limiting my freedom to love everyone

the expectations and the ideas of I'm more important to you and you're more important that me
and we're more important than everyone
that just doesn't work for me

I can't contain my love to the relationship box

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