AngelDeLaNote

So i had the scariest dream I have had in a very long time....I dont know what to make of it...

First of all R.I.P nana 12/25/2008 -5am


Well last night or actually a few hours ago i was in a deep sleep...dreaming nothing but blackness when all of the sudden I was in the middle of all of my family....we were all standing in somewhat of a circle....and across the way from me was my grandmother! but she had already passed but I saw her standing there...but she ...

here is an IM convo with my mom...well her description of me. I had asked her how I was when i was younger because I do not remember.


"me and daddy thought you were not paying attention to your surroundings, but, every time we asked you a question about anything, you answered accordingly, and it always seemed like you weren't paying attention. You were very timid, quiet, observative, and curious,
you were like a little sponge. you were very critical of minds. And ...

And I woke up still feeling bored but I guess a little more uplifted because I had some sleep haha....


Well I wonder what today will bring...I hope something different rather than my computer or my backyard

Well that is all for now


Bye!

alone yet again....

no one home....nothing to do but listen to my depressing thoughts. It is really hard to be positive when there is no one around.....all you hear is either the tv....or an annoying fly buzzing around....


I hate feeling so sad and alone....but at the moment I am....No one answers calls or texts.....or even emails.....-sigh-....I hate to cry....


ugh......I hate being by myself....it is the worst

Hmmm


This is kind of cool to have a blog on the IS website haha so I thought I may just write a few things.


I wonder about a lot of things....I wonder why I cannot recall anything before the age of 12...it bothers me yes but I have no idea how to recall those memories. -sigh-

I often wonder why i have nightmares that feel real and that I am awake experiencing them....I often get deja vu about 3 to 4 times a day from a dream i had many ...