*~i GlOw 0F iNdIgO~*

Hey guys!!

it's been a while! I don't have internet at my house, but i'm sick with a cold at my mom's house, so i'm using her internet!! Well.. I am 21 years old now!!? I joined IS when i was 16, almost 17.. and i've done a lot of growing up since then. I am growing and learning everyday. My life has changed so much, i'm not sure where to begin. I've had to be a lot of different characters in my life and right now i'm searching for my perfect role while i'm in transitional mode. Life ...

a poem i wrote several months ago.. it has been written under my name and has been copyrighted onto a poetry website, so no stealing- please. Haven't shared any of my poetry in a while, hope you enjoy!!

The Untouchables

We are the ones you hear about, the forgotten,
untouched by the human hand.
Never felt the warmth of a soul,
Never understood the concept of sand.
We walk down sidewalks, kicking our dreams,
bottles in our hands,
Hungry ...

so here i am again..
i'm just gonna write what i feel, so sorry if it's hard to follow.

Me. Just me. all alone. i have so many friends, but not many that i can truly talk to. boys. so many boys want me, but they don't want ME. Sometimes i feel so unappreciated. is that selfish? i don't care. i feel like a part of me is lost, like i've changed somehow over the last few months. i wont let it get to my head. all i want is for someone to understand me, someone to genuinely care for ...

On life in general.

i cant shake this feeling that I have.. it always returns. I feel so lonely inside. I get sick of people.. sometimes I wish I didn't even have to associate with anyone, but then I would feel even more lonely. I always feel so uncared for, so unloved.. but why? People tell me they care about me, they love me.. but is it genuine? Why do I always feel this way? Why can't I believe people when they say that..? Is it because I don't feel the same about myself? Do I not love myself? I don't know.. ...