I'm sorry. It sucks that you are drained all the time and have very little inner resources left to even be mildly happy and full of energy. It really does. I know what that feels like. Here is my simple guide to help.

Indigo Dog's List for Empath Recovery-

1. Heal and seal your aura. Pray, meditate, walk in nature or just take a very committed nap with the intention of healing the energetic bubble that surrounds you. Use your imagination or if you are advanced observe the aura that surrounds your physical body and check for leaks and tear and send healing light to repair it. Once you feel satisfied that the aura is healed and sealed fill it with healing light. ( ask god, your angels, source energy, unconditional love of the universe, whatever your faith to do this with you.)

2. Scrape off the energetic vampires in your life. Avoid, deflect or just learn to say, "hey, I'm tired today and need some Me time." It is not your job to save, soothe or rescue them from their personal lessons. Sometimes they need pain in order to be motivated to evolve spiritually and become mature people.

3. Embrace the understanding that you do not need to be useful to others in order to be loved. Just because you can help does not obligate you to do it. You are worthy and perfect without doing anything for anybody. Your job is to develop personal confidence and self esteem without need others to approve of you.

4. Give yourself more of what you need. If you want to feel happy then do things that give you joy (other than helping people.) If you don't know what makes you happy then try new things till you find some. I think it might be time for you to branch out and discover some things about yourself that you have been too distracted to notice.

5. Say no. Avoid vampire types that never get better but always need attention. Set up an energetic filter or shield that repels people who are not harmonious. Ask that God draw only people into your life that are positive and life affirming to you at this time. When you feel bored and want a challenge again the negative people will return to offer you new opportunities to grow and be challenged, but for now... ask for a break.

When people avoid you-

Don't be alarmed when people deliberately look away or seem to shy away from you. They are probably just not resonating at the same vibration that you are. In the same way that someone who is depressed and bitter hates to be around a happy bouncy personality, some people just don't share your energy. It is not bad or good, just a different vibe.

Crabby attitude people hate me unless I am really in a bad mood then they want to hang around me.

Don't worry so much about those you feel may wish to do you harm. Anyone who would seek to do "curses" or spiritual harm to you cannot really. It is only what you allow in your life that can. It may be that as you have been raising your spiritual awareness you have begun to notice the stark contrast of light and dark more than ever.

It can feel like suddenly coming out of a dark cave into the light. At first the light is dazzling and then as you adjust to this new view the shadows seem so much darker. When you were in the cave it all looked alike in grey and black and you were used to it. ( I hope this makes sense.)

You seem to be on the right path. Worry less and enjoy your journey more. Worry is rent you pay on property that you don't live on.

Why I cover my eyes-

I cover my eyes to manage my intake of vibrational energy. I believe that what you focus on the most is what you spend your energy on; what you create and draw to you.

I am selective on what I give my attention to because I believe that humans are powerful creators and that every thought is a prayer. A Universe that hears vibration surrounds me and everything in it. It hears what is dominant and reflects it back as a physical manifestation.

If I look at some unwanted thing, like violence or corruption and say in my mind " I do not like this violence and corruption!" over and over. If I push against it and I hold the vibration of resistance and intense emotion of it in my head, I lend it energy to grow bigger.

All the Universe hears is "violence, corruption..".endlessly. So it manifests more of it.

I choose to hold vibrational energy that is focused on harmony, abundance, well being and balance. This is a very difficult discipline to do. Most people only react to what has already occurred and is presently manifested. It is so in your face and often repeated for dramatic effect on TV and other media. It is easy to get upset at what you do not like to see.

It takes mastery and willingness to retrain yourself to hold positive thoughts and images when the evidence of them is still un manifested.

Basically, she said, there is nothing 'new' in new age.

I disagree with her view.

First, many people are relabeling old religious patterns
with the new name 'new age'. And if this is what you
think of as 'new age', then, she is right, there is nothing
new in new age.

All religions are mind control agencies. It goes like this,
if I cannot be happy and fulfilled, then getting others to
believe in my (self) limitations will make me feel better.
Then we can all be trapped together.
Furthermore, many people want someone to tell them
what to believe. Then they do not have to be responsible
for what they create.


The new age is about taking responsibility (not control)
for what you create. Responsibility: the ability to respond
(and if you like it, ask for more, and if you do not like it,
change your focus to something else)

There is no mind control in new age, except in learning to
control your own mind. A true student of the new age
cannot be mind controlled, because they know their mind
and can sense when others are mucking around with it.


New age is the next step of spirituality.
New age is not psychic abilities, although you will often
learn much about your innate psychic abilities as you learn
about yourself.

Enjoy

BuilderOfCastles