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The Day I Thought I Died
This is a very strange story, one I have shared very few times. Here's a reason I love this forum, we can just honestly share. Again this is a very odd story. This is one is true.
I was in the military and had just been stationed at Elmendorf, AFB in Alaska. It was a time of change for me, a season of growth. Here I was for the first time, away from my home. I went to a private Catholic school my whole life, grew up in a town where my family has been since the 1800s. I lived in and grew up in a peaceful shell. Happily naive. I found myself living in a condemned dorm, a 3 story building surrounded by people from many different cultures, backgrounds, upbringings etc., I was excited, overwhelmed and hopefully optimistic to learn about all my new found friends. I had never seen or met people like this, they were to me odd as this was not my shell, these were not my friends Ive known my whole life. I was happy!
One night I had gotten back home after a long day and found a party going on in the dorm room across from mine. People I did not know were milling about, laughing, drinking and the music was loud. I went to my room saying hello to a few I didn't know, took a shower and was planning on going and introducing myself to my dorm buddy across the hall. I thought he seemed like a lot of fun having a party like this and at least we would have a thirst for a little fun in common. So when I arrived saying hello I was welcomed like never before, I felt at ease right away and the fun began.
I found myself quickly in charge of the music selections, my new buddy had a killer stereo system and a music selection that was out of this world. I was like a kid in a candy shop skipping from the songs I knew to playing stuff I have never heard of. While I was scanning all the records and tapes (did I date myself here, hehehehe), yes I did say records and tapes. I found this tape that said Astral projection/Self Hypnosis/Guided Imagery, I had no idea what this was. I started to read the tape case and it had some very interesting things to say on it and about it. I called my new buddy over to ask him what this was.
My new buddy very bluntly asked me if I have ever heard of out of body experiences, I said "what the hell you talking about"?. He started telling me matter of factly how he can separate his soul from his body, walk through walls, fly and a litany of other abilities that I just found outright ridiculous and preposterous. I thought this guy is out of his mind and oddly I loved it. I told him matter of factly he was loon and what ever he was on please share. He went on to tell me some more stories of what he had done and in rapt attention I listened, because me and my shell were welcoming a new nut. After all the nonsense subsided, I told him he had a extremely off the wall imagination and a great story teller he was. He told me to take the tape and listen to it and tell me what I thought. I took the tape.
For a month straight I listened to this tape every night. Not at all because of what I thought I might be able to do, but because it was filled with beautiful music and wonderful story telling with some guided meditation that quickly put me to sleep every-night. It was awesome. Well here it was over a month into this nightly tape session when I found myself awakening during the playing of the tape. I seemed to be highly energized as I lay there in my bed and I was desperately wanting to go back to sleep but I quickly realized that would be impossible. I had this strange feeling about me, one I have never felt before and I thought I should maybe get up get dressed and go work out cuz I was buzzing with energy.
As I got out of my bed, my surroundings had a different aire about it, I had a different aire about me. Everything was happening quite naturally, I just felt a little odd and all seemed a little odd.
I had a red light on in the room so there was a red glow about the place to add to the strangeness of it all. I had my stereo on some shelving next to my bed. I was going to turn off the tape and get ready, as I went to hit the off button on my stereo it was at this point my life would never be the same. My hand went into the stereo and I was frozen, there i stood in shock with my hand in the stereo and I was staring at all this kind of in a shock if you will. It was also as if I could feel all the components and wires and such inside the stereo and I yanked my hand back.
In a semi panicked state I Iooked around the room. As I glanced in the direction of my bed There I Was, what appeared to be me laying in my bed. I was standing there looking at myself, I honestly and truly thought I had died. Keeping in mind everything was happening what I'm sure was very quickly although seeming like slo mo. So there I stood all alone, in my strange little world, scared, thoughts racing, there was nothing peaceful about this. As the panic started to heighten I uncontrollably and without thought started to move towards my bed and I was what seemed to be sucked back into my body. I went to jump up to make sure I was alive but I couldn't move. It was now if I was half in my body and half out. I was very cognizant of my body but me, the real I was trying to get back in and I couldn't quite do it. I could quickly start to feel as if I was slowly but surely shifting back in. So I relaxed as best I could. Soon there I was laying in my bed, eyes wide shut, wondering and pondering all that had happened. I arose, I was alive, all was well but nothing would ever be quit the same!
My Catholic upbringing kicked in rapidly and I said to myself, that it being such a traumatic experience I had to label it evil. Something not to be trifled with. I took the tape back to my friend and told him to burn this tape. He started to laugh, probing me for what I had experienced, I told him this was not right, he wanted to know what happened. I never told him anything, I never told anybody anything for many years to come. But this would prove not to be the end. What in the world was that? More experiences to come, but I would have to shake the drama and trauma of what I had seen, it would be years down the road before I decided to come to terms with that menacing tape. Astral Projection/OBEs?
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