LoveIsOurWeapon

So, as most indigo children I've been diagnosed with ADD. For awhile, I didn't want to be put on medication but having this problem has really made school and social situations a lot harder. Whenever I'm in a social event I feel tension building up inside me because I have to pay attention to the conversation and what we're doing in order to have friends, basically. Usually, by the end of it I'm wound so tight that if I don't have time alone with my thoughts I will lash out on people. I always promise my little sister that I will do something with her after I hangout with my friends but by the end of the day I want to be alone so badly that I bail on her. I hate that I keep getting her excited to do something with me only to flake out the last second. I'm starting to think I should be medicated because it's really starting to take a toll on me. My kind of thinking isn't suitable for this world. I'm intelligent, yes but my knowledge can't be used in a job or at school.. it's used in life, in living. That's the world we live in. Medicate yourself so you can become "a functioning citizen of society". It sickens me. Nevertheless.. my mind needs to be made up sooner or later.