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*Disclaimer: This thread is in response to all those who have followed me "Down the Rabbit Hole" thread and want to know "what happened next?" It is also difficult to write, for while I have no problem sharing with the class - there are some things that I am still - or rather was - very reserved about sharing. So be kind.
Alice has left the building - by way of the looking glass (and you thought the Rabbit hole was weird?) This is beyond weird, this is...breathtaking.But I digress.
For those who are joining us for the first time, welcome to my world. Let me give you a very brief introduction.
It began simply enough, as an adult Indigo transitioning to Crystal, the changes in perception, and sensory input, in taste in foods, were disturbing, but not unmanageable.http://indigosociety.com/indigo-tran...ine-t2389.html
But then things began to get strange - the increased perception actually began to go wonky - there's no other word for it, - as I fell down the rabbit hole. http://indigosociety.com/down-rabbit-hole-t4661.html To be perfectly honest, I thought that there might be something wrong with me - with reality things seemed so skewed, so twisted- but then it happened. I stepped through the looking glass.
Like Alice, playing with her kittens in the drawing room, I wasn't doing anything very exciting. I was listening to my oldest daughter go on about her boyfriend and trying to figure out what to make for supper and it just happened - suddenly it all made sense I was standing there, looking into the open refrigerator and my entire perception just - shifted.
Blame it on the diet and sensory changes that came with the begining of the transition to Crystal, blame it on having practiced meditation for eleven years, blame it on ULF waves or anything else you wish, but the fact remains, I stood there, orange juice all over my feet (I'd dropped the carton in my astonishment) laughing at the simplicity of it all. I had stepped through the looking glass and found not the Red Queen's kingdom, but a world where I was connected to everything - where I WAS everything.
I'd found love.
Yes, I know it sounds tacky - trite even, but there it is. I'd found love. And no, Lavella, I hadn't fallen in love, though the intensity of the emotions could very well be mistaken for such.
No, I'd stepped into love; like stepping off the edge of a pool and finding yourself immersed not in water, but wrapped instead in a cosmic cuddle (sorry Patryc, hope you don't mind me borrowing your trademark line - it's a perfect description) that fills your heart with wonder and goes on forever.
The energy rush that came with the realization put me in mind of my initial Kundalini awakening http://www.reiki-for-holistic-health...awakening.html but while previous dealings with Kundalini energy had lasted for minutes, hours or even on a few memorable occasions, several days - this has been going on for nearly seven weeks.
Now, there may be those of you who dismiss what I'm telling you as the ramblings of a demented mind, wishful thinking, or the result of the work of dark energies or entities, but I know what I felt. I know what I feel. And it's anything but dark. Who I was seven weeks ago before I opened that refrigerator door and who I am today are two completely different people. The woman who was going to the refrigerator to get the juice was a spiritual seeker. She was looking for answers, looking for something to fill the empty spaces inside. The woman who stood there ankle deep in orange juice and laughing like a loon was complete, whole, and in love with life.
It is my belief that the adjustments my senses and perception have gone through during the last few months were to prepare me for this sudden shift of perception and surge of energy, for if I'd experienced this dramatic of a shift even six months ago I don't think my body or mind could have handled it. But purging myself of meat, of caffine, of refined foods; by dealing on a daily basis with super-heightened senses, I think I was being prepared for this perception shift, and while it may have been a rough ride getting here - I wouldn't trade it for anything!
Is this a permanent state? There is no way to know. There are those who say I'll come down eventually, perhaps to a new level of awareness but that this inital energy surge will wear off. Or maybe not. Regardless, I'm definitely enjoying the ride. I'm seeing clearly for the first time in 39 years - and the view is breathtaking.
And thanks for those who expressed concern, but I haven't lost my self. I may be immersed in love, but "I'm" still there - going to work, taking care of my girls, slugging it out with the commuters on the metro rail. It's just that there is so much more to me now than there was and I find that I have so much more to give, and the more I give - the more comes back and the energy ratchets itself up another notch and I'd love to stay and chat, wouldn't you know it, but there goes the White Rabbit, and he's got a pretty shiny thing...