Hello,
I am Alesha and I am new. Well about me....I am a 17 year old girl. I live in Vermont in a crappy town, live with a mean understanding family, and go to a school with a bunch of kids who couldn't begin to "get me" if there lives depended on it. I am pansexual. ( I have already been asked so for those of you who do not know a pansexual is someone who believe love is gender blind.) I love reading, Drawing, listening to music, (sadly) myspace.

Since I was little I have been told by psychics and test I was an Indigo Child, but I want to know what you think soooo... I will elaborate on what I was told was important and things in my life I think match them.

Me and mine


I often have a problem feeling like i deserve the best no matter what. Mine has to be the biggest, best, and perfect. Which unfortunately leaves me empty handed in relationships a lot because I'll get pissed when they don't give me absolute attention and treat me as they should!

Authority?

Well since I was little I have had a HUGE beef with authority and anything of it's type. Starting when I was 1 and a half. I told my mom i was running away, because I was sick of time out. She told me then I couldn't wear anything she bought me, but my diaper. So I said "FINE" and ripped everything off. Then I started to walk away with just my diaper on, in the middle of winter in Vermont. Needless to say my mom went and got me when I got to the end of our driveway and brought me home! Since being in high school I am always in trouble because I think the rules are stupid as hell and ridiculous, so I pretend they do not exist. When I get caught and the teacher is yelling at me I am kinda like "I can do whatever i want leave me alone." then they yell at me I roll my eyes and walk away.

Patients and other thing

I utterly and completely lack this. My teacher was trying to look up the answer and I knew it so i sighed and i was like I think the answer you are looking for is.... It just bugs me it's there job and alot of time i know stuff they totally miss. I hate lines My family won't even bring me to the store anymore unless it is for me. I am frigidity and there are SO many people I feel like I am going to die right then and there.

School!!
I HATE school. It is so boring. my mom doesn't believe me but i get better grades in the things I am clueless about and flunk the things I know, because it is so boring . Not to mention every single day we go to the same classes and learn the same thing for like a month. I feel like they are trying to train monkey not people. Heck I think Monkey would have got it before their done. Kids are horrible, they do not understand me or things I say. I can explain my self 100 times and they are still like ahh duhhh!!

Systems anonymous

I get so mad because EVERY one I know does every thing the hard way. I explain my way and their like thats weird and roll there eyes. I explain how it's easier and all they say is so. iy ticks me off so much i can't stand it. I want to slap them. I hate the government. It is stupid and they do not know what they are doing. If they did not so many people would be in prison, we would be helping them before they got to that point. There would not be so many homeless people. There would not be wars. We would not get stuck with presidents like George W. Bush.

A lacking social life.

No one understands me so in turn I have no friends except my boyfriend and my little sister. I do not like talking to people at all. Ignorance pisses me off so this doesn't help either. Lately I feel like the world is this HUGE f ed up place we are stuck in to wonder around in like idiots wasting our pathetic little lives away.
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To trip or not to trip

My dad seems to have this weird notion that if he makes me feel guilty about EVERY little thing i will stop. Well guess what I don't he just pisses me off.


Pampered Babe

I tell my family how I need things for I am not sick all the time. They don;t listen but I still try.

Itchy itchy boom boom

I am allergic to EVERYTHING.

latex
mold
pollen



grass
certain flowers
certain water
tons of meds
cats
heck furry animals in general
flu shot
poison ivy
almost all synthetic materials
smoke
dust
pesticides
most perfume
pit stick
shampoo
soap
febreeze
oust out
bleach
ext... ext.. i could go on for ever


Sleeping beauty

I have insomnia. I am lucky to be to sleep by 7am. heck its 4:30am now and still going like an energizer bunny.
I have Horrible dreams that I do not understand. Sometimes seem so real when I wake I will start to cry because it scared me so much. I think the worst one was I had a dream Were I was living out my live for seven years, and when I woke up I didn't know where I was or why I was near the people I was.

A life saver

When I was three I told my mom that I saw fire glaring over the hill on our way to our house. (there was nothing there) The next week I woke up screaming my mom came rushing in and I explained to her I was just burning alive. I would not leave her alone and stop screaming until she go my little sister and I out of the house. She took us on a car ride. When we got back our house was there were firemen there trying to rescue our house. They couldn't it burned to the ground.

A sprints fun

Since I was little I have been able to feel,hear, and see spirits. It can be sickening and scary but I am used to it by now.


Read you like a book

I have this talent were I can pretty much read anyone like a book and help them sort out whats bothering them and the best way for them to fix it. The few friends I have had through out my life have been amazed. My family hates it because I usually know how they are feeling about me. It also can be a burden because some people do not want to know how they feel and I try to help and all thy do is yell at me. Plus I know what people are thinking of me and sometimes it makes me very sad.

Imprint me

Also kinda along the line of what I was just saying, sometimes when I pick up on people feelings I start to feel like they are my own. then I loose my feelings. Or if pepole are really angry and negative i pick up on it.



so yeah thats me what do you think!!!

*cupcakes* lolz it always makes me LOL when u say that.....i know its gay but idc