Please bear with me because this letter will be LONG. I am a writer at heart and I type at over 96 wpm so grab a cup of coffee, get on your laptop, jump in bed, and be prepared to read a lot of material!

I’ve always known I was special. When I was young, I would look into the mirror and hate the way I looked. When my mother would ask me why, I would reply “I have a babies face”. I never felt like I should be in this body, in fact I still don’t. My mother had a friend named ******** and her mother did natural healing. The instant she saw me at the age of seven, she told my mom that when I grew up, I would be an amazing healer, surpassing even her.

I’m seventeen years of age now and I excel in just about everything I do. I have extreme intellectual, artistic, and technological abilities. My mother injured her back around twenty years ago (three years before I was born) when she was a police officer and has been unable to work………that is until two years ago. But I’ll talk about that later. My mother’s headaches would be so bad that she would be vomiting over the sink.

It was then one day that I tried giving her a massage. I was six at the time. It helped her a lot and she felt better. That is until the next day so I massaged her and it helped her again. This process went on for several years until one day I realized that massaging wasn’t what was making her better. I would notice the heat that was coming from my hands so I decided to try just touching her to see if I could help her without having to massage her. It worked and since then I haven’t been massaging her any more (except for rare occasions when she just wants a massage).

Two years ago, I had this revolution in healing. I don’t know what it was, but I suddenly felt extremely cold and it was like I had remembered something that had been hidden from me my entire life. It was then that I actually permanently HEALED her back injury, taking away her headaches and allowing her to go back to work. She didn’t just go back to work, she went to the worst place imaginable for someone who had a back injury.

She now works at an aluminum factory, where the work is so hard that grown men have a hard time doing it. I must say it’s given me a lot of practice though. Every day she has to be worked on because her job hurts her so much. It takes a lot out of me, but I have realized that eating certain foods increases my healing abilities. Occasionally, she messes something up really bad at work and calls me so I’ve learned to heal her over the phone.

I was born in the middle of 1991 so I’m guessing I’m an indigo child. I’m not really sure. I am a computer repair technician and have been repairing computers since the age of 5. The first book I ever read that was front to back was a 350 page repair technicians manual. After reading material like that I moved on to fictional material that was considered “normal” for my age. I am frequently angered by the little things about society that most people have just learned to accept. I’m very quick to anger, but I never stay angry for any more than a few minutes.

Let me try to explain how my healing works. It is very difficult to explain in terms that can be written on paper using emotions that are most commonly felt. I heal in stages. These stages are colors. I can’t see pain or injury, I just know where it is. I don’t feel it either, I just KNOW (although now I’m starting to tap into a level of consciousness that allows me to FEEL exactly what the other person is feeling to some extent so I can get a better idea of what’s wrong with them). Anyway, as I said before, this healing I do is through colors. I can’t explain what these colors are. I just know that they do different things.

The initial (starting) color I use is blue. It is meant to help with pain mostly, but can heal some tissue damage. Next is yellow. To be honest, I’m not really sure what it does so I just use it in every circumstance. After yellow comes red. I’ve always thought that red did something bad, but I still use it anyway because I can and it hasn’t seemed to do anything bad yet. All I know is that it doesn’t do much for what I’m working on. What it does exactly I’m not really sure. After red comes green. Green is for things such as emotional and physical stress.

After green comes purple. Now this is one powerful healing color. It obliterates cancer cells, heals imbalances in enzymes, and I know it does more things but I really don’t know what they are. After purple comes white. White is very difficult for me to generate and I don’t know what it does. All I know is it’s needed. I’ve recently been able to tap into grey. Grey is like a shield against harm. If I apply a shield to my mother’s back, she doesn’t get injured by anything.

I can use these colors in a multitude of ways including just generating a small field about the size of my hand and spreading it around the affected area (this is the easiest to do), dispersing it from the hand to flow to all parts of the body (this takes A LOT of energy to do), and I’ve recently been able to electrify the healing color and spread it rapidly across the body’s surface, but I don’t have much control over it. It just goes everywhere and I feel like I’m wasting my energy because I only have so much and it’s just going in random directions and not being applied to the areas I want it to apply to.

Healing is something I’ve been blessed with and I frequently blame myself for my grandfathers death from cancer because I can cure it so easily now. Maybe if I hadn’t been so lazy and worked harder, I would have attained the purple healing before he died. I’m wondering when my dog is going to actually die. He’s Nine years old now and still acts like he’s three. He has a body that’s the envy of most dogs that are half his age. Our rabbit lived an incredible ten years. This is one of the reasons I think I create a healing energy that goes to all that are around me.

Our rabbit died from cancer (alas, It was around the same time my grandfather died), but I’m sure it could have lived a lot longer if I had the healing abilities I have now. The extremely good conditions of all the animals we’ve ever had makes me think that I somehow generate a healing field around me that helps them to live longer and more fulfilling lives, even when I don’t heal them intentionally.

I’ve been teaching computer courses since I was twelve years old (it really made me mad when the adult students I had didn’t respect me as their teacher because of my age). Being extremely technologically gifted has been a great blessing in my life. I just have a way with machines. And I recently found out that my healing abilities are not just limited to humans and animals. I can use my healing abilities on computer components and they will come back from the grave. CPU fans, Motherboards, Hard Drives…..it doesn’t matter. I seriously don’t know how that’s possible. I can see being able to heal people and animals, but computer components???

I’ve always felt the need to help people. I’ve worked with the disabled children at my school and even visited them at their homes and helped their parents so they could get some time alone. I frequently give away computers to those who need them and I was a volunteer assistant to my schools computer administrator from fifth to eight grade. In high school, I was given 100% administrative access to ALL computers in the district and even created a unique position in the school that hadn’t existed before (Computer administrators TA (Teachers Assistant)) that counted as an actual credit. Of course after I moved to another high school, the position went away because no one else could fill it.

I’ve never had a friend that was my age (except the handicap children, if want to count that). All my friends are online and range from the age of 24 to 72. Most are 24-30 though. I’ve never felt the need to be around others my age because of their immaturity. It’s getting better now, but I still feel like I’m decades ahead of them. I guess I sort of feel a little anti-social because of this, but you can’t really blame me. I mean, how else are you supposed to meet someone 24-30 years old when you’re 17 except on the internet? I can’t exactly just go into a bar and make some friends.

I’ve always felt limited by my own body. Like something wasn’t quite right. I’ve seen things, but I’ve always dismissed them as illusions or as something that couldn’t be true. Nothing like an angel, demon, or person, but I’ve seen physical distortions that look like they could be…….I’m not exactly sure what they could be. I’m not sure what they are, but I’ve always dismissed them and they’ve gone away. Fearing there might be something wrong with my vision, I went and had it checked. 20/20.

Things like eating, sleeping, and taking care of my body aren’t things I enjoy doing. My mother calls it laziness, but It’ not that I don’t like doing it because I’m too lazy. It just doesn’t FEEL right. I feel like I’m in the wrong time, place, and body. I feel like I’m at least 40 and I feel it should be around the year 2070 instead of now (2008). Not that I want to be old, but I feel old. I’ve always felt that way. Over the years, I don’t feel like I’ve gotten any older. I feel like a prisoner in time.

Now that I’m very close to going out into the real world, I can feel the many challenges that are ahead. I’m not sure if I can do what I need to and I’m not sure what my purpose is here. I feel that I need to do something, but I’m not sure what I’m supposed to do. I’m desperately seeking answers online and I hope to eventually find my answers some place….some time……………

Whether you are in the right time or body, it does matter. You are here. And as though I am not even half as talented or giving as you. I also find myself looking for equals. Most times older than myself. I think you will find many here on is that are like minded and gifted, maybe not the same as you, but equally each in their own way. Please take care of yourself, you are here and your body is your vessel. We could use many more like you in this time and place.

I hope there ARE more like me. Sometimes I feel totally alone in this world. I wish I could eventually find more people like me in the vastness of the internet. There certainly isn't anyone like me in Bellingham.......

Reiki. Have you read about it. There are others like you. Everyone that wants to learn can tap into the same power. There are many like you. I wish I had more time to learn. I will eventually.

Nope. Never heard of Reiki. I'll google it.

I recently had my eyes opened to this. I never knew my mother studied it on her own. She had no master to teach her. But she did help my nephew into this world using reiki on my sister.

Well I read a whole article about it and there are a lot of differences between Reiki and what I do. What I do doesn't involve energy from the person and I don't have to "will" the energy to flow. I can generate the energy right now if I wanted to and it would simply radiate through the air. It's like a whisping cloud of light that I can use to heal......or to hurt. I don't practice hurting people, but I can do it if I choose to. I've never done it before, but I KNOW that I can. I don't know how I know, but I just do. I take the energy needed for healing from myself and then "recharge" by holding an active PSU or a battery operated device. I can also recharge by eating. With my healing powers, I've also been able to stay up for two weeks straight. I can turn the energy from food into energy that I get from sleeping, which has REALLY helped me with college exams (I got into college early). I'm not saying that I can stay up indefinitely, but I can certainly stay up way longer than most people. Healing with light has been a long process. I find a new form of light every year or so and it increases my healing powers with every color I acquire. I'm not sure how many colors there are, or if they will ever stop appearing to me. I remember when green was INCREDIBLY difficult for me to generate, but now I can generate it with very little effort. So far, I've cured cancer of the bladder in my aunts dog, my mothers back problem, a case of scoliosis, and a diseased liver. I want to start healing people from my church that have severe medical problems, but I want more experience and mastery before I attempt something like that. There is one man who has cancer and I can tell he's going to bite it soon. I don't think I can hold off any longer. I won't be the cause of another death.......

What do you mean a cause of another death?

study dharma.

I hope that you can give what you can give.. and just walk away.. no glory, no fame..

I've met those that cannot..

as far as finding others like you.. there are about 300 billion of us..

I hope you find what you are looking for..

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Namaste

Read my first post. I blame myself for the death of my grandfather and one of my pets.

If glory of fame comes to me, it's because god wants it to. I won't try to become famous or anything, but things happen. That's why I've tried to keep a low profile. I don't want to make money off of my healing gift. I've thought about opening a natural healing store though. I wouldn't be healing anyone with my hands, but I can learn how to make natural cures with time.

What's with the age 7? I started feeling different at 7.

You are definitely not alone. The names we humans give to it may vary. But in essence, it is all the same. Call it Quantum Healing, Reiki, Matrix Energetics, etc., it always takes us to the same results, which is healing, something for the well being of "someone" else (and by "someone" I mean a human being, or an animal, or a tree...). This involves our inner connectedness and "wiring" to a bigger source of "energy" from the universe, the awareness that there is an "energy" flowing and that we can use that energy to help another living being. Then, the willingness to use it for healing is the only necessary link to put it in action. Shanti (peace).

Wow Man you sound Great !!!!

The Healing you were talking about sounds very very similar but not exact same to TeraMai Schiem Reiki. The Colours You said are exactly the same that are used......