Hey hey hey its Kaitlin~Wolf. how yall doin...much love and all that goodness to my brothers and sisters who have been with me through it alll......

guess what im really likin right now....bein totally anhilated..drunk...high...whatever...i cant deal wit this shit anymore.....and this feeels reaalyy good...at least thats what im saying.

ahhh...the song playin "I'm thinkin whyeee i eee i...superman's dead"....ahahahahah....what now damn. what now....this hurts but im so numb...anyone else feel me...anyone else run...anyone else...probably not...guess im a pussy...excuse my language....argghhhhh...."doesn't anybody ever know??????"

help.

SOS...to all that ever knew and loved me.

i love you.

Kaitlin
Wolf

Is anybody out there????

You sound deserted

Lost and alone

The world around you gone perverted

Don't be afraid

This is what you've been saving for

Everything that you've done

Nothing seems to be what it's worth



I am really all that I've been looking for

It really doesn't matter so I try anymore

Just keep on searching

And I'll be uncertain

Your life will only be just what you want it for



Been around the world

Seen my share of existence

Smoked too much

An infidel for commitments

All over now

All as if its just a beginning

My friends have come and gone

But you're still here and my head's spinning

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0Nu1qwT8os

What's going on Wolf ?

what is it what is hurting u so much?

are u sure u want to talk about this here?

Mi no comprende the question. Por favor explain it muchos buenos. Donde es el banjo?

ha ha "donde es el banjo?" ...

hey kaitlin... I'm going to sleep now... mmmhhmm u can count on me, pm me whenever u want.

peace and love and just relax and enjoy... Peace and Love.

Been dreaming and thinking about you all night.. Can't sleep right now. That was me and John or Pappa Wolf that were cuddling you.. couldn't tell.

Come to The Island, girl and bring your pain with you. The time is coming to separate from the lies soon. You gotta deal with HERE before you hurt for THERE.

I gotta try to go to sleep now. I'll try to have MSN on later... I've been bad about that.

Bucket of Love.

Pops

♥

he dear kaitlin!

hugs to you
and a bucket full of
presents in a giftwrap...

I've gathered them for you!

The grass looks greener because you walk on it girl!

Let me know if you wanna chat or a virtual shoulder to cry on/hang on/ shout too/kick too, just pm or msn me!

Luvvvvvvvvv
Elleke

"be still, my sister"

ai yah!
sister Crying Fang
I see your pain
and I am with you
I walk pathes akin to yours in many ways I feel
and I have walked in places you have
I have felt the numbing cold from within
and relished in it's presence
to quench pain

I have too, been lost in the dark
wandering and weary
lost and felt loveless
hoping for anyone
anything to come to my comfort
and grant respite to a welling loneliness that
tears at my being from within

and, more often than not
I too have turned to drink
or anything
to bury my pain

but I must tell you this, my sister
from Lupus to Lupus
as only one can understand

Though you feel alone in this
and the burdens we of the wolven way carry
are great and heavy
know too that our howls of pain
and our tears are SEEN and KNOWN

we, like all of these Children of the Changing way
FEEL
and GIVE
it is to us to run the pathes first that many do not dare
because we are to protect our brothers and sisters
we know of the pack
and how the pack must live
and we teach that in our every move

so, to us, in our darkest times
where can we turn?

I say to you, turn to the Veils and hear the wind there
and know the difference between the beating heart of LIFE
from the cool stillness of the Hollows
and within that understanding
listen to the whispers of Spirit

and find solace in the fact that,
if nothing else
you are SEEN and KNOWN and LOVED

by ME
by SPIRIT
and by all of the Children of the Changing Way who gather to this place
to offer their heart to you

namaste

I wondered a lot lately where you went...it's good to see you back here really!

I hear you on the "i can't take it anymore" and every now and then i get myself numb too, and i don't think it' s all bad....it provides you with a little break, a time to catch your breath before you get back to the "battle"! I know there are others way to take a break, however being really sensetive and caring, it 's not easy to just stop thinking about it and go on with live....i suggest to not mix and mingle substances of any kind, stick with one and make sure you don't forget how to live without! Breathe, breathe as fully as you can, about 3times....do it several times a day, especially when you find yourselves feeling overwhelmed! We all forget about breathing or breathe shallow when something is up in our lives, and it is so existential to ventilate our bodies....it truly makes us stronger!

<<<cosmic hugz>>>

too know someone eles is only hard because one must know thereself to really know anyone eles love yourself and be kindled by your divine spark my lord for we are the creators look at me and see the creator as i do you and all that lives in our material plain this is the law of one we are combined for eternity do not feel fear of yourself or you may never let me in

rejoin me in the love and in the light of eternal peace and splender
xxxxxx brett

Hi Kaitlin

Now that you have reached rock bottom now you are ready to be molded into what will be needed in the time that is coming.

You are now ready to reap what you sow. I see that you are a bright star that is about to shine.

Now you understand the truth of pain and sadness now you have the weapons necessary to fight and defeat these feelings not only in yourself but also in others.

Now it is the time of the teacher to come. You will be able to teach the others that require your knowledge.

Namaste.

It's not cowardice but consciousness when we leave what no longer serves us.

Kaitlin,

sorry if I was being cryptic, All I know is that is what I had to say to you.

Cheers

How is it cold? If you're not happy, CHANGE! There's obviously some problem. Why should you make yourself miserable?

Did someone tell you you're supposed to just sit there and suffer? If they did they're full of shit.

Love,
Will

i love you all....and im in gratitude to have you...im sorry i disapeared. it happens....anyway....im a lil better....just trying to figure out now my place in all this....

and personally people in my direct touch....someone is gonna get hurt (emotionally)...and i hate it...(im a cancer) the pain is like crushing....

but it anything new....but at the same time it is....u dont know how much you all mean to me....i cant express it....but all of you that have made such touching words and love....i love you....

ah...

but i wish it was silent....

im planning to just go....drive out...fly out...get the hell outta this town....just for a minute....where to is the question.

Katilin! *hugs*

I don't know what else to say