Paradox of Awakening

Its odd, cause like you know who and what you are, but now ... you truly are an outsider, and its ... desolate. Its like you are on your own plane with no one with you because ... its just I don't know.

I feel like no one is here. No one is at my wavelength, on my level, I'm so ... far gone. So alone.

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I'm a Time Traveler, I point and laugh at archaeologists ---The Doctor

More Important than where is when---Morpheus

If you accept this, and be happy and positive about being different, being your own wavelength, you will begin to attract those that vibrate at your level. If you follow the synchronicities of life, and live in harmony with who you are, again, you will attract those who appreciate you for it. Love yourself, and others will follow.

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“To underestimate is to lose

“The sad truth is that most evil is done by the people who never make up their minds to be good or evil

“The dog that barks doesn't bite

Wise advice. I thank you both.

I have been told that it is a painful process to be awakened. I don't know. Everything seems to be going so fast. Everyone is so busy, it seems like "companionship" and "friendship" is the last thing on their minds, like all my offline friends IRL are ... they don't have time to hang out with me anymore, and its not like I'm chastising them for being normal and having lives its just ... hard for me to relate to people, always has been. So, if I can't relate to people, I can't make friends.

And I know being negative isn't helping, I am just ... trying to reprogram myself, and its hard, because I feel the death of the old me, so how can I rejoice in the rebirth of the new me?

Does that make sense?

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I'm a Time Traveler, I point and laugh at archaeologists ---The Doctor

More Important than where is when---Morpheus

Perfect sense. It is tough, and lonely, but also far more rewarding, for those that will be coming into your new life will be far closer to you, their friendship far more rewarding than any "normal" friendships coud possibly be.

Namaste

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I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.
~Robert McCloskey, State Department spokesman

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For a long time I felt alone in my journey, but recently I started asking more consciously for people to be on the same or near to the same level as me and lo and behold a few more people have started to trickle into my life. Hang in there... and until then... IS is here for you!

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GUS bless you
(God, Universe, Source)

Who is IS?

I am trying to focus on positive energy, but in the midst of so much negativity its hard. Perhaps its only hard because I keep saying its hard, maybe if I start saying its easy and positive things will start happening. I'll have friends to talk about this with, maybe even a teacher/mentor and ... dare I dream boldly, a significant other who is also starseed.

I know there are some in our community that have non-starseed s.o. but I am so .... fargone that I don't think humans will be able to understand me anymore I'm "too weird"

I feel like an antennae often times, like I'm constantly aware of things, and any bit of static that hits my radar, I'm sensitive too, does that mean my powers are growing? Or something ...

Its like, when I first got awakened, it was a punch of all my emotions at once, then like this opening like a supernova in my head and I wanted to scream, cry and laugh all at once, but my human body couldn't do it all, and well, I was in a library, if I did any of those too loud it would have drawn attention to myself.

And now, when I get a hit on my radar, its like a mini version of that feeling, I've got it tamed (don't know if that's good or bad) but still, its like this awareness.

I also noticed that my eyes are bigger. Like they fill up my eye more than they did before ... and my apetite has changed ...

All these symptoms, are they normal side effects to the awakening process?

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I'm a Time Traveler, I point and laugh at archaeologists ---The Doctor

More Important than where is when---Morpheus

IS is INDIGO SOCIETY (this website).

And yes, you will find that many of the symptoms that you describe are shared by those who are going through awakening...it is diffuclt to adapt to, but rewarding for all of that

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I know that you believe that you understood what you think I said, but I am not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.
~Robert McCloskey, State Department spokesman

www.sshenry.blogspot.com
www.crystaltransition.blogspot.com