What is wrong with me, ive always felt different or didnt quite fit in anywhere. not because i was a nerd, stuckup, goth girl or anything that would outwardly standout. i realized early on that couldnt share or be understood by the normal people around me. growing up other kids are dreaming of ponys, rainbows, a scary monster under there bed. i would dream of murder rape abuse i count how many times i died, fell hit the bottem i didnt wake up, wars, peoples name written in blood on trees walls telling me where i can find them knowing theirs something some day i have to stop running away from, i trust and believe in myself. satan, jesus, aliens, indian chiefs, shamans, wise animal coming to m,e in my dreams and giving me messages in my sleep. the shadow figure that comes to me when im asleep, the terror i feel as i sense as he walks down the hall as makes his way to my bedroom, i scream to myself wake up, wake up, hes coming hes coming and force myself awake. other times i wake up and hes standing over me. i dont know who or what he is. completely opposite feeling i had with the being that came to me in the form of a bear, then he changed into aform of aman eskimo and indian, i was not afraid, he radiant quality, light, aura or something. then he gave me something, knowledge, a message to carry with lighted blue probe, i felt energized, content and at peace, knowing that this light was always a part of my being. ok now most people can feel comfortable with those experiences, of mine but here part where you'll think im a quack or crazy. i noticed a few years back that alight glows out of my eye when people see it they ask what the hellis it and think its freaky. i always blew it off and didnt think much about it. until 2 months ago when my niece saw it and said what the hell is that do you know you have a light coming out of your eye. i like my light but why do i have it.