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**spacey** · 11-06-2008

What is wrong with me, ive always felt different or didnt quite fit in anywhere. not because i was a nerd, stuckup, goth girl or anything that would outwardly standout. i realized early on that couldnt share or be understood by the normal people around me. growing up other kids are dreaming of ponys, rainbows, a scary monster under there bed. i would dream of murder rape abuse i count how many times i died, fell hit the bottem i didnt wake up, wars, peoples name written in blood on trees walls telling me where i can find them knowing theirs something some day i have to stop running away from, i trust and believe in myself. satan, jesus, aliens, indian chiefs, shamans, wise animal coming to m,e in my dreams and giving me messages in my sleep. the shadow figure that comes to me when im asleep, the terror i feel as i sense as he walks down the hall as makes his way to my bedroom, i scream to myself wake up, wake up, hes coming hes coming and force myself awake. other times i wake up and hes standing over me. i dont know who or what he is. completely opposite feeling i had with the being that came to me in the form of a bear, then he changed into aform of aman eskimo and indian, i was not afraid, he radiant quality, light, aura or something. then he gave me something, knowledge, a message to carry with lighted blue probe, i felt energized, content and at peace, knowing that this light was always a part of my being. ok now most people can feel comfortable with those experiences, of mine but here part where you'll think im a quack or crazy. i noticed a few years back that alight glows out of my eye when people see it they ask what the hellis it and think its freaky. i always blew it off and didnt think much about it. until 2 months ago when my niece saw it and said what the hell is that do you know you have a light coming out of your eye. i like my light but why do i have it.

**Anomalia Zelta** · 11-06-2008

Hi Spacey

Originally Posted by spacey

but here part where you'll think im a quack or crazy. i noticed a few years back that alight glows out of my eye when people see it they ask what the hellis it and think its freaky. i always blew it off and didnt think much about it. until 2 months ago when my niece saw it and said what the hell is that do you know you have a light coming out of your eye. i like my light but why do i have it.

^^ well this I can relate to a bit. I can tell you what happens with me and why I think it happens and I hope it will make sense. My eyes are a dark to medium reddish brown kind of color. There have been people who have looked at me and were taken aback...people that I dealt with on a regular basis, and when I asked them what is wrong they told me my eyes are blue. One girl asked me if I have in blue contacts and I assured her i do not, but somehow she was entranced and kept staring into my eyes speechless and coming closer to me. Another one was also entranced and speechless and told me they were glowing a bit. But this did not happen all of my life...it happened after a specific event. There was a time that I saw a light being (angel) and he looked at me....his eyes looked like a mass of blue energy. He stared at me a bit and then like beams of lightening blue light transferred from his eyes to mine and I snapped back into reality. I sort of feel these things are related.

I will note that it does not happen to me very often but it does happen.

**spacey** · 11-06-2008

My eyes are like a very light carmel color that swirls around. my eyes change shades depending on my mood. i used to bartend and would often grt ask if i was wearing contacts because my eyes would glow under the black lights, and even was asked if i had cataracts. thats the solid light my eyes piossess this other light only appears in one eye it oiis myleft eye and outlines underneath my retina and glows brighter then the whites of my eye. i always allowed myself to believe the opinion of a woman that told me that i carried the fire in my eyes of a sagitarious. but now im wondering if it something else that i dont want believe because it will reveal a scary truth that will make all my nightmares a reality

**Anomalia Zelta** · 11-06-2008

Well I will tell you a bit more...for my eyes it is impossible for them to change to blue...this never happens...and to glow a bit is unprecedented lolol I did see myself in another realm and I completely understand the relation of these things.

I am sorry I do not feel comfortable to go more into detail but I hope it helps just a little.

**roberto de leon** · 11-12-2008

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**sshenry** · 11-13-2008

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