Indigo, starseed, earth angel? Who am I?

[Becca11:33]

Hi everyone,

I came across this site a couple days ago and felt strongly that I join today. I need a place to talk to people who can relate to my recent experiences that will not think I'm crazy.

Last November, I started a spiritual awakening when I questioned life after death. I came across NDE's (near death experiences) and read around 1,000 of them (IANDS). It was like I was re-learning everything I knew deep down. I didn't eat for four days and felt very nostalgic for "home". However, I knew I was needed here.

I know I am a lightworker. I experienced a Kundalini in my sleep, thought it was a seizure and then went to be tested the next day. Of course, it came back negative...but that didn't satisfy what I needed to know about what happened to me. I searched on the internet, my symptoms, and "Kundalini" kept coming up. I felt a coiling up from my spine to the base of my neck, for some reason the color baby blue was associated with this energy. I remember moving in a seizure like manner, but it was pleasant. Just as if waves were going through my body.

My quest continues and I am experiencing dreams with my spirit guide at my request. I discover that my aura is green. I discover I can form colors in my mind's eye of green and purple the easiest and red the hardest. I confirm that a swirling purple/white spiraling ball that I see in my mind's eye is something I have seen since I was a little girl...only it was bigger and easier to do.

One of the first dreams I can remember as a kid was a UFO dream involving my Mom and I was deeply upset about it. During my recent awakening, I had a dream of being scanned by an alien (which looked like an iridescent blob of light). I was being told to hold absolutely still until it was over. I could actually feel the scan and paralysis as it happened. Then I woke immediately as if I hadn't been sleeping and was greatly disturbed.

I have a strong connection to Orion for some reason. I have no idea. It's just my favorite constellation. I also remember being strongly connected to Venus when I saw a movie in science class as a kid.

I'm working with my guides closely now and have really learned a lot from Doreen Virtue on how to do that. I always feel that every night when I sleep, I'm getting instruction dreams, then when I pop awake...I can't remember a thing! I found out I have a really awesome ability to tell when guides are near. I get a slight pressure in either the right or left ear with a high pitched ring. I have kept a journal the past two months documenting when I hear the rings, what they're like, and what I am thinking or doing at the time. Most of them have occurred when thinking about spiritual things, my dead grandmother, etc. I've even had "pokes" really strong air pressure change...I would say it effects the whole side of my body and my stomach does a little flip when it happens. I've taken this to mean "Hey!" stop thinking/doing that or "Hi! I'm here".

Now I've recently stumbled upon the Starseed definition and I am questioning whether I have some of these attributes. I was born in 1977, I'm an outsider to my family (but I still look very much like my Mom), I do not practice Mormonism any longer and have seen religion as something I'm not interested in. I have always had a connection to Star Trek, Dr. Who...all those Sci-Fi movies. They are my favorite. I haven't done past life regression yet, but I have never really had a strong feeling of having a past "Earth" life...even though I may have. I feel out of place with others and find drama to be ridiculous and a waste of time. Yet, I'm very giving and kind to others. I feel a need to raise the consciousness on Earth. I am learning how to manifest my goals.

I have a strong connection to numbers as well, from seeing 11:11 when it was around 1987 or at other periods in my life. I also have a thing for 3's. It's my favorite number for no particular reason. My address contains a lot of 3's. My husband's birthday is 3/3, etc. I constantly see the clock at :11 or :33 (enter whatever hour) during the day. I've woken up in the night exactly at 3:33 a.m. I know these numbers are from my guides....because when I'm having an "off" day, I don't see them at all!

Would anyone give me some insight, or point me in the right direction, recommend books/websites/sources that I may check out? Thank you!
(sorry this is so long!)

[TheRavenMother]

Hello Becca, thats a beautiful flower in your pic

[rary7]

Welcome and nice intro,alot of what you have written here seems all too familiar to me,i'm sure others do too.Some of the biggest pieces of my jigsaw i have found here and with the people that i have talked to.Here are some other sites i have used.
http://www.crystalinks.com/11.11.html
http://www.mistychouse.com/Knight's-code/Indigos.htm
http://www.doernenburg.alien.de/alte...on/ori00_e.php
http://www.auracolors.com/auracolors-test.html
http://home.earthlink.net/~pleiadesx/starquiz.htm

[Fragments]

Hi. I know I'm definatly a starseed or indigo. I've been dealing with Kundalini type stuff aswell, since the age of 12. It has opened me up to many possibilities and given me many abilities,(mainly very high awareness, expanded perception, ability to read people...isn't intentional...to the point where I feel uncomfortable around them because I know so much, and immense energy and fullfilment in meditations) but it destabalized me during the initial few years. The main differance I notice is the tendancy to live in my head more than the real world, and having to ponder what is considered sane and insane to 'normal' people.

I remember never relating to people, feeling like its 'me' and 'them'. I have always felt alienated from this world, it isn't 'home'. In my early teen years I went into an almost misanthropic seclusion from the world. Social structures have never made much sense to me. I don't feel too much of a karmic connection to my family, though I love them. I've always been obsessed with nature, rocks, mountains, and weather.

I'm allergic to EVERYTHING but a few types of mold. My body seems wired differently. Not slightly, but in a very extreme way.

Maybe I'm an extreme case, either way...you're not alone. Indigo, starseed, whatever...it doesn't matter too much, although it's interesting to know. Don't worry about the length, I tend to do that aswell...

[Star Wise]

Well-come Becca. I hope you enjoy the forum. Have a look around here for some answers or insights to your concerns.

Also, thanks ever so much to you Becca and Fragments for your detailed and well worded posts. I feel I speak alot to my Guides during my dreams, Becca, and lately I've found while holding my Tibetan crystal while asleep I can vaguely remember some of my contacts with my Guides.

Fragments, I feel that I am more from the "stars" than from Earth and often wish to go home. I grew up in a family of a different race to me in a different family and culture to that of birth. I once said when I went for a job interview as a Hansard reporter in the Australian government that I think that I am a "generalist" because they asked me if I had a wide knowledge of public affairs.

What I meant is that I try to be generalist and inclusive in my interactions here in 3-D. I feel, especially based on my unique personal past in 3-D this life-time, that my heart / essence is everywhere (for example with my birth family and with my adoptive parents whom have crossed over.)

Becca, an Indigo friend of mine in Texas said that one batch of Star-seeds came in on a golden ray during 1970 plus or minus 7 years. I was born in 1963 and he said that during that year the Hale-Bopp Comet opened a star-gate, through which I was urgently sent to Earth.

Jo Amidon from the Light Connection organisation (you can google her) does Planetary Origin readings. I had one this year and she said I am originally from the Pleiades but spent alot of time on Orion. Another friend of mine said that I spent some time in the star system of Polaris as well.

There's a good thread somewhere on this forum also about 11:11.


Mitakuye Oyasin (we are all related)

[justin]

Hello, I am new to this site. I have only recently become aware of this "indigo" movement. For some reason, it was one of the easiest things to accept that I have ever come across. For the last ten months I have been spending every moment of my spare time researching the curroption in our modern government and it has been one of the most grueling, lonely, deeply depressing times of my entire life. At the mere scope of the deception and evil that we as people are facing, I was completely convinced that hope was gone. This was greatly amplified by the fact that 95% of the people around me would not listen to more than a few words. It overwhelmed me to a point that, in a strange way, it started to consume me. I started to forget how to see the world for what it was. So, you can imagine my excitement at finding a glimmer of hope, a silverlining if you will. I have always felt as if I were put here for a higher purpose, though, for most of my life I kept these feelings to myself. I have had many prophetic dreams throughout my life, depicting the future, even dreams where I visit the past of someone elses life, only later to realize how accurate it was. I have had dreams about people I have not seen in years and when I inquired about these people, I found out that they were exactly the way they appeared in my dreams. I have always attributed this to some sort of link to a higher power, though I never had a name for it. I have never agreed with any government system, religious system, law system, economic system, educational system, medical system, among many others. It has become so apparent in my present day life that It has actually alienated me from many of the people I once associated with. It is something that has caused profound sadness in my life, and yet my dissension grows stronger with everyday. It is hard for me to understand why people are okay with the way life is. It seems to me that many of those around me and the whole world are asleep, bathing in apathy, and I wish with all my heart that I could somehow wake them up. It is an unquenchable thirst that I cannot ignore. From arguing with these people, many of which are friends and family, I have found that I have an innate ability to prove them wrong, on almost every subject. I have believed for a long time that the reason they do not heed my words is because in many cases I am much younger than these people, and they dismiss me for being a "punk kid." Or on the subject of politics, I am a "conspiracy theorist," which is one of the most indignant things one can say to his own countrymen. For rightly questioning our government, I am consequently labeled as unpatriotic. I believe that the creator has led me down this path of darkness and fear so that I might better recognize the light when I see it. Since finding out about the indigo energy, I have had a strange sense of peace come over me. The fear I felt so strongly before has inherently diminished. I found a little quiz somewhere else on this site and I took it and found that I have 24 of the 25 traits in the adult indigo, and a little more than half of the child indigo. I am not exactly sure what this means. I am not going to pretend that I know enough about the spiritual world to discredit any of this. All I know of my spiritual side is what I have found to be truth for myself. I have found much truth in one of my own peoples way of life, which is the way of the Cherokee. Though, I have never fully embraced it. Because of my rebellion against all these things I found, including all forms of religion, I feel I have missed out on some of the more peaceful ways of life. Mine is more of a warriors passion. I believe some use of drugs, along with other chemicals issued unkowingly to us by the government, has kept me, in a sense, from seeing much of my spiritual side. One way or the other, I have been ignoring it, until the last few years. I have spent the majority of my life depressed, and I could never really pinpoint the reason why. There were times in my life when I would be sitting alone, thinking of nothing in particular, and I would burst out into a full-on cry; for no reason at all. It would last for hours sometimes. As far as I know, it is still happening. I cannot explain this. It feels almost as if I am crying for people I have never met, and yet I always seem to feel better after it is over. These are just a handful of examples of what my life is like. If there is anyone on this site who could give me an educated answer to whether or not I am connected to this indigo energy, I would deeply appreciate their insight. Bear in mind that it is not a question of whether or not I believe in this notion. It is just a question of how I might better consolidate my own intuitions. Thanks

[EnemyAtLineSix]

human Earth Angels

woo wooo!

[Lar]

I found a little quiz somewhere else on this site and I took it and found that I have 24 of the 25 traits in the adult indigo. If there is anyone on this site who could give me an educated answer to whether or not I am connected to this indigo energy

Scoring 24/25 is avery strong indicator. SO here we now have an indigo coloured red-man lol. Sorry just my sense of humour. Justin, read as much as you can find; it will aid you in your recovery from the "old world". Pose questions here and answer what you can.

Lar

[justin]

Well, my skin is pretty much white, so technically that would make me red, white, and blue. That's kind of a cool thought. Don't worry about me looking for answers, that's pretty much my thing. If you know any good sites about the subject, I'd love to know what they are. Thanks

[Syolkiir Akhrua]

this one...

i have many links in my sig too

everything u will need to know will be on this sight, if its not here directly, it will be through a link from this sight... im actualy not kidding, im talking from experiance.

Namaste. X

[Becca11:33]

Thank you all for your welcome! Rary - I checked out the sites you linked...thank you! I had a good afternoon of reading there. Star Wise - thanks again for helping me and I definitely want to try to use the crystal method you used before going to sleep!

[EnemyAtLineSix]

Well, my skin is pretty much white, so technically that would make me red, white, and blue. That's kind of a cool thought. Don't worry about me looking for answers, that's pretty much my thing. If you know any good sites about the subject, I'd love to know what they are. Thanks

so you the stereotypical red white and blue patriotic jockboy on school campus?

-wears red white blue green yellow even orange all at once
heck a turquise mala too!
also have purple pants

skin turns blueish red when in lotus...
:*
MUAH! hahahahaah

[justin]

so you the stereotypical red white and blue patriotic jockboy on school campus?

-wears red white blue green yellow even orange all at once
heck a turquise mala too!
also have purple pants

skin turns blueish red when in lotus...
:*
MUAH! hahahahaah

Yeah, that's me alright. I did all that. Also, I took steroids, picked on kids smaller than me, only dated cheerleaders, was the root cause for Jock Rock, ruined equality in high schools everywhere, promoted the idea that physical prowess was all that mattered, and so much more.
Ha. Just kidding. But I did play sports when I was younger...pretty sure I was never a jock, though. (But, just let me say that a lot of my good friends and family were. Their cool dudes.)

By the way, sorry about posting that comment about myself on here, I didn't know what the hell I was doing. Didn't mean to butt in like that.

[Indigo Fire Dragon]

Hi Becca i'm new too and have questioned what I am, there are so many different names, indigo, starseed, light worker etc. At the end of the day I think we all come from the same energy I just think we have spent different lifetimes in different planets and dimensions, putting myself into a box has no appeal to me, we are all spiritualy beings, just some are more connected than others. That's just my thoughts and stuff ive been told in meditations, it doesn't matter what we call ourselves as long as we can reconnect the source and wake people up again. Each one of us chose to come here again and in the past I didn't understand why I felt the earth wasn't my home. Then I discovered why I felt like that. Anyway hahaha, its 2.38am and i'm rambling and going slightly cross eyed from reading so much so I better go. Byeee (: xc

[sLiPpY]

I just know that I am, and you are...