trying to understand life

[aislyn]

so my cousin and her husband basically took me in a few months ago to help me get back on my feet... they are currently concerned that i'm at a stand-still... last night she asked me what my life goals are...

i then realized that i dont really have any.

i have this feeling in my gut that ive always had: not to be concerned about the future... something big is coming to take care of that... but uh, i dont feel as though its a good thing coming. its not like that feeling where someone is going to come take care of me. she thinks im afraid to be on my own and grow up and such but its not that. does anyone feel anything coming?

so back to the goals part... the main reason that i dont have any goals is because i dont feel like there is a purpose for it. life is supposed to be fun and love and yadda yadda but i just dont feel that coming... i guess i'm getting redundant here but look into your future... what do you see?

i dont see anything but war. i see a battle, i see struggle... and not me personally. its not that struggle to grow up and be on my own. its something far larger.

[grandpa]

Hi Aislyn
I left my job and moved to this part of France for that very real feeling of "something wicked this way comes". Though for me the feeling was one of hating being controlled and permanently watched by the state. I just had to get out of the Uk and get some fresh air. Take it easy

[shadowsong]

I know what you mean
I am a live in the moment sort also, and all of the really goal oriented people out there can really get agrivateing after a while, there are so many people that way too.
I know what you mean about something big comeing also
I think something big will come one of these days
and although I don't like goals and such,
...I do think it is going to be important to prepared for it when it comes.

[aislyn]

agreed. and congrats grandpa!

but how do we prepare for the unknown?? haha

[shadowsong]

hehe, by being perpared for anthing of course,
Exerscise, be fit of body and mind, and try to continue to develope whatever powers you have....ex