Do you have someone that you tell every thought to? Well except for the ones you share, that are mutually understood and don't need to be verbalized?
I was just thinking about this earlier... I realized when I'm with Love we always 'think' out loud. Anything that is on our minds is pretty much said aloud. Half the time we don't need to say it because we are both thinking it.
When we are with close friends, we have this unspoken communication. I don't even remember learning it, or agreeing on signals but they are there... a glance and click I know exactly what he is thinking, it's like having a separate private conversation on the side.
I knew we have good communication... but I have good communication with most the people I am close with, but this weekend when a mutual friend was staying with us, well I found that although my communication with her was good, it wasn't at the same level. I don't really know how to explain.
We haven't really worked at it... we've worked through emotions and such but as far as communication goes, we just clicked and suddenly I'm noticing how much of a difference it is compared to other relationships in my life.
It's strange to, I thought perhaps it was just because we are around each other so much, but in the summer we usually go at least 2 months without really seeing each other. We still have phone conversations when I have the time, but it's not that much.
Then when we are together again, click it's back to the same level of communication.
I pick up the phone before it rings, and we always call each other just when the other needs someone to talk to or has something important to tell... I'm not complaining. It's amazing to be so close and have such wonderful communication. I'm sure it's all part of the twin connection, it's just that something he said the other day kind of unnerved me.
'I keep looking for the kind of communication we have and I know we just clicked, but I'm willing to work to get to this point, but it's like nothing I ever try works..."
It was that fear that he'll never be able to communicate with someone else the way we communicate. It's not a fear that I have, I don't really care if he's the only one that I can go so deep with, but to him it's very important to find that in his romantic relationships.
It makes me wonder I suppose... how others see us. Not related by blood, not married, not 'together', just friends but with this intimacy and open communication and unconditional and unwavering love for one another... I wonder is it inspiring? or unnerving?
I'm use to people avoiding me, fearing me, but when I'm with him it doesn't matter, none of that stuff matters. I feel totally free. I never worry about being alone, because I know he'll always be there in one way or another.
I find it kind of funny how he's scared yet at the same time he never pushes me away. He doesn't understand our connection and to be honest I don't completely understand it either, but that doesn't seem to matter because it is undeniably real all the same...
hmm well I suppose now I've gone much off topic in my own thread
*sigh* lol well tangents are sometimes healthy, reflection is healthy.
Sorry for dragging on loves.