life so far...

[jayne marie]

hi, i m new here, but looks brill so far with everyone on the same wave length which is refreshing.
Do you find that you have all had very difficult lives sometimes to the extreme, i have had huge losses in my life, also life for me is seldom without incident, generally caused by others... if that makes sense.
I am 33 now, had hugely violent upbringing, had a early marriage and had my sons... divorced and followed my calling if you like and set up in my own right as a medium, a gift i have akways had and am so grateful for, i always seem to be on the move house wise as well 34 moves so far, and can never really find anywhere i want to setttle.
2 more marriages and 2 deaths of my next 2 children, both unrelated, so as you can imagine, huge grief to contend with, don t know if i m looking to see if anyone else can relate to the unsettledness of life or if its just me!!!!!!
I always maintain a highly positive attitude and i know there will always be a brighter day, i teach self awareness now as well which i love, to see someone grow and blossom is magical.
Also i like a drink and a laugh and a socialise most people i ve met so far seem to think you can t enjoy these things as a spiritual person, i don t go along with that but it can mean a struggle to find someone to connect with at times.
Any way i ve gone on more than i intended, will be interested in your answers
Bye for now
Jayne

[ethtardo]

i was brought up with an abusive dad,coz i was a huge "let down" for him for being "different"..and my mum,who is always been my rock passed away few years ago..i was lost..n i had really no where to run to.ive wept in every places i can imagine,to every random people i meet,hoping sum would shine sum light on me bout the things im going thru.but the more i talk bout it,the more i realise that no1 will fully shine a light on me,its myself to start with.
yea sure sum would sympathize and say i understand,just be brave and get on with it..but its ourselves that shine the starting light for ourself.

and at the moment,im a meditation teacher..n yeah i get that a lot,people saying being spiritual means u cant enjoy urself or even swear..spirituality is just a label to start with..shouldnt be a load..n if u cant find sum1 to connect with,there's always ur inner soul..its always there when u need to connect.

keep it Light,
ethan

[Zen]

Thanks for sharing your background Jayne! I think, and hope, you'll be able to relate to quite a few people here as numerous members have also gone through very violent or traumatic periods in their lives.

I can't really speak with too much experience as my childhood was fairly straightforward but I did want to agree with what you say about the drinking and socialising bit. I don't believe either that to be spiritual means being teetotal or a vegetarian for example. Part of being spiritual means that you nourish your body and soul with stuff that you enjoy. So no to over indulgance with food and drink but definitely yes to enjoying good food and drink, especially with good company.