Trapped in my own worry

**thebalance116** · 08-01-2009

Today I think it's about a 1000 times, I dreamed of being in school. This time, I dreamed of being late on a first day of class of my medical classes which is very significant since you will be dropped out of class. However, the school is not the same. They have aquarium embedded in the walls. The fish are gigantic. They seem to float in the air. When I get to class, the professor is so open and gentle. She teaches me how to write some symbols down. The kids sit next to me are very mean. The classroom is full of people.

It's that moment I woke up. I realized the reason that I cannot astral travel. I have been trapped in my own mind, in my own worry. It seems that I cannot escape. I years for the astral realm and its own peculiar sensuality. What is behind those closed door? I want to find out. But how could I when I am chained by own worst nightmares.

Please offer me advises.

Greatly appreciate.

Thanks.

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**Paradoxical** · 08-01-2009

Interesting trap.

In contrast on what you believe, it may be your flavor of astral travelling. To astral travel in the real world and to the real world, your mind and the land has to be one. What place is your favorite? The real world has an aura on its own. Feel it and taste it.

The universe is open to you. Explore at your own will the beauty of it. Your soul and your self is your limitation. Break free, and be well.

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With love, courage and hope

**thebalance116** · 08-01-2009

I know, it's just been for so long I want to get out of school. I think this is my 15th year in school. I just want a change. No more books, no more anatomy, no more physiology, no more calculus. Just be free. Spread my wings. To the world beyond.

**Paradoxical** · 08-01-2009

A school does not need to be a school. We are in a big big dream. To be restrained in a dream, and be free within the given boundaries defined in your dream, and to go out of it.

What is your wish? How do you want to be free? What will be your choice of freedom?

Who are those kids? You haven't been leaving your own universe? Right? What are those fish? Are they the kids living within the dream?

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PS: If I suceed that easily, maybe I should go take a nap

**thebalance116** · 08-01-2009

The kids they are from different countries. The classroom have to be a hundred. I feel strange because I brought sleeping bags and pillow with me in that dream. Also, the professor teaches me how to write a symbol which is supposedly very significant in meaning. It's basically a two U like this U U but the last one have a little fin tail like this U-<. I am the only one get that symbol in the class. The kids start to look up to me and ask me how to teach them to write the symbol

The fish I think is marine fish. Lion and angel fish. They are of ginormous sizes. They are swimming in the wall. You know, I think I saw this scenario more than twice. There are mazes of aquarium wall. Within it are marine fish of multitude colors. I think that is interesting.

**Astara** · 08-01-2009

I get stuck in my own worry so don't worry.

Gosh, that last part you added sounds really neat. I think that realizing our astral abilities to travel and observe comes in the form of accepting whatever visions our mind leads us to. A lot of it is about being unique and original in your ownself and realizing that everyone will have a different 'flavor' and experience with astral travel.

You're lucky that you can even remember your visions.

I neglect getting good sleep for myself and in return, I usually cannot even remember astral experiences or dream experiences I've had. I can usually tell when I've been astrally traveling because it kind of leaves a glowy residue for me but other than that, I have no idea what the messages I'm supposed to be receiving are about. In a way, I've trapped myself like that.

I think just keep realizing that your vision is special to you and that the more you accept it, begin to explore it, the more you'll realize....That's the best advice I can give at the moment.

Let peace and love surround you and know that you are very capable of achieving your destiny. <3

**thebalance116** · 08-01-2009

Thanks, Astara,

I realized that the visions are linked together. The forgetfulness is temporary as your mind is distracted by the mundane daily life. But when you remember one the others will follow. That is what I learn. Everything in your dream will come back to you sooner or later. I believe they all have a purpose. The professor in the dream looks very unearthly to me. She is extraordinary beautiful with almost golden translucent hair that contour her body. Her voice is so soft and comforting. She teaches how to write symbol.

I think in my spiritual life I relate to the race that lives in the ocean. For mankind, ocean still remains a mystery.