hello to all and still wondering

**horselover** · 10-17-2007

Hi to all you lovely people! Have just joined, I guess as part of my constant searching to make some sense of my life and mine and my son's struggles. I still don't know if we properly 'fit' being Indigos, having been led back here by my teacher in the psychic and spiritual development class I go to. All I know is we never really feel we fit in, have been deeply troubled by the seeming powers-that-be, struggle with depression and anxiety, sometimes feel intimidated by general society, found school extremely difficult(now my children are home-educated). My son in particular is very sensitive and shy, he has severe dyslexia and some mild ADD/autistic traits. He feels very inadequate among his peers.
I could go on and list more stuff, maybe another time, just not wanting to be here on false pretences as it were. I've looked at birth charts but don't really know how to make sense of them! I know it's what you feel that really counts, I just don't seem able to trust myself.
More than anything I'm worried about my son being so isolated and feeling like a loser, he's tried chatting online with a bit of success tho' of course dyslexia can make that a bit difficult! He just needs people like him.
Have read some of the many posts but need to do more reading and thinking I know. And didn't mean to sound so serious!

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Love to all

Horselover

**weareone** · 10-17-2007

hello horselover

and welcome

this place has broadened my faith deeply. i know that there will be answers here, and everywhere for you. i dont think you were led here by accident, actually i dont think there is such a thing hehe

just curious, how old is your son?

love always reaches out to a sensitive soul
ian

**ZZ23** · 10-17-2007

yeah hi!!! This website has many answers- too many things- there divisions on alot of things but u just make ur choice on what to belive- Well technically i have all the "charateristics" im still not an indigo-- I'm 16 how old is your son?- But technically a dog could have all the charateristcs of being an indigo- im more on the lines of a crystal, but well it doesnt matter if u all fall under false pretenses- In the end does it truly matter- From what i have learned in the end we will all be gifted, technically were all indigos , the label indigo just means weve waken up to the fact were indigos- hahahahha -were all gifted the stronger ones are just more honed skill wise- So if u want to stay which- I of course would if i were u

where else can you find a teenagers smarter than half there teenagers- hahhahahaha-- Birth charts dont matter they just describe ur personality-- I got the shyness out at an early age- Well it really gets bad if your shy and giving speeches to the multiitude- hahahaha- Have fun take a good look around and whatever you decide to do- Do it well-- My coaches use to say that too me (dont really think it fits here) hahaha

**ZZ23** · 10-17-2007

C.J. Here

**sshenry** · 10-18-2007

I guess as part of my constant searching to make some sense of my life and mine and my son's struggles.

Welcome horselover. Aren't we all searching to make sense out of life? You've come to the right place. There is much good here.

**Zen** · 10-18-2007

A very warm welcome to IS, I hope you and your son enjoy using the site!

**horselover** · 10-18-2007

thanks so much for all your kind and supportive words. Feels really good to be here.
Strangely enough, we were at a course we go to on stress control(!) this evening, and they were talking about hyperventilating-which is not something either of us have ever experienced. A couple of people were doing it voluntarily to show the immediate physiological effects and my son said he was feeling the woman's heart beat racing and her breathing changing plus the other effects,as if it was happening to him. He's said that sort of thing a few times before. Just reinforced to me that he is special, if only he could take that belief and really let it strengthen him, that's his own journey I know but it's so hard to watch the pain invovled, That makes me not very sympathetic sometimes, wanting him to be 'tougher' to not feel such upset and insecurities. Because that's exactly what I feel, he's like a mirror to me sometimes.
He's 16 by the way.
We are proud of how we are but where we live it seems that those who aren't thinking about a spiritual path or caring much about the world are happier and more confident. He just needs some like-minded friends-I have quite a few now, having a few years head start!
Looking forward to spending more time here

horselover

**ZZ23** · 10-18-2007

Originally Posted by horselover

thanks so much for all your kind and supportive words. Feels really good to be here.
Strangely enough, we were at a course we go to on stress control(!) this evening, and they were talking about hyperventilating-which is not something either of us have ever experienced. A couple of people were doing it voluntarily to show the immediate physiological effects and my son said he was feeling the woman's heart beat racing and her breathing changing plus the other effects,as if it was happening to him. He's said that sort of thing a few times before. Just reinforced to me that he is special, if only he could take that belief and really let it strengthen him, that's his own journey I know but it's so hard to watch the pain invovled, That makes me not very sympathetic sometimes, wanting him to be 'tougher' to not feel such upset and insecurities. Because that's exactly what I feel, he's like a mirror to me sometimes.
He's 16 by the way.
We are proud of how we are but where we live it seems that those who aren't thinking about a spiritual path or caring much about the world are happier and more confident. He just needs some like-minded friends-I have quite a few now, having a few years head start!
Looking forward to spending more time here

horselover

Not many teenagers take the spiritual path-- Thats the problem its not him its the others around him- I technically really didnt have a choice in which path i took it was chosen for me in a way- But through this path so much has woken up to me and well- - - Whats funny is in febuary i asceded to about as high as i could go -- i turned into pure white light and than i- heard the house pone call and i fell to the floor- i was like ow god that hurt- if you had been near me than you probably would of heard quite a few words mumbled under my breath -hahahahahaha - whats funny is even the arch angels have changed there form when they appear to people- I often speek with one very paticular angel- Gabriel he at first was brown hair green eyes why i first made contact with him- More like him- me, it was about 6 years ago, he started me on this path-- He appeared to me the other night and his form had changed i asked him why- He said the energies in the world now are even affecting the angels- It was a long talk- but well yeah-- He's the one who bascially put me down the spiritual path- and well here i am today- I figured out a while ago this doesnt happen to many teenagers- hahhahahahahaha- C.J.