Sometimes I wonder how I became so desensitized of well emotions. So bad that I have to fake every emotion I should have, it doesn't help the fact that my studies are Political Science, so I kinda play into that Label. Its been really hard as a result to have anyone close to me. So hard that I don't allow people close to me... I cycle through GF's about every 7 months, that way they never figure it out, I even cycle cliques. As far as if I am a likeable guy - Generally I am loved by everyone... yet at the end of the day - I am the probably the most different and the most included outcast some people will ever meet.
Last week I discovered why or part of why.
My grandparents told me of a time in which they used babysit me
and how I would wake up screaming, Now that I understand what I saw, I understand why.
What would happen is that when I went to sleep I would catch glimpses of extreme suffering.
Now as to when it is/has/going to happen is a different subject entirely.
I have never really met anybody with a sight gift like mine. I feel history.
Now what happens is when I touch an object/thing/person I can see its past, and possible futures.
I have honed this ability now and see a timeline in my thoughts which makes it easier to navigate.
So what I would see were the horrors of what was happening, what has happened, and what was going to happen.
I'm know that that has affected me,
But i'm not sure as to the damage it has done to me.