The ups and downs of going through life are doable- once you get past it. But right now, I seem to be in the middle of a crash.
The last few weeks have been unbelievable. My world seems to be crashing around me-- it is like all of the doors are slamming shut, the energy has gone bad, and Im just worn down.
I am one of those people who attack crazy people- and one of them turned on me in a way I never saw coming. I am a teacher, and she has been to my school making all kinds of wild false accusations. When my principal did not respond the way she wanted (thankfully he did defend me to her) she call my Superintendent- lied to her as well. When that didnt work, she then tried to get me kicked out of coaching youth soccer- lied to the head of our local association and fellow coach. (again they did not believe her either, but it has left a lot of stress and strain in her wake)
IN the middle of that chaos-- I have had several crazy student problems-- which never happens! Had an 8yr old eat clay! Plus several other crazy things.
THEN-- we have SNOW!! IN Alabama?? for 3 days in a row? we havent had snow like that in 15 years! It caused me to have to cancel a trip-- the first trip I have been able to go on in over a year.
THEN- my classroom was broken into. Im in a small tight community. Our school has NEVER had vandals- not in over 100 years. And someone targeted me-- they just moved my personal stuff around. rearranged my personal items (rotated the printer , moved a handmade coffee cup, put some things I brought from out of the country on the sidewalk outside...) clearly done to mess with me head
Sadly, the crazy parent has managed to turn the few teachers at school, who I thought were friends, against me-- they believed her lies, even though I have known them for many years,and many of them I considered my friends outside of school... and they should know I would not do what she has accused. So my normal support network is gone as well.
It is like Im just sucking in something bad. I dont know what has happened. The last 5 years have been one good thing after another-- doors opening, my teaching has blossomed, my child has blossomed, --- my world was good.
But now, one after another.....
And now my dreams are packed full of harsh emotions-- I wake up feeling all wrong-- I cant describe it, just feeling wrong.
I was finally able to spend some times in the woods at my home (lots of property) -- this usually helps rejuvenate me, but even that feels weird.
I guess, I am asking for some positive thoughts and feelings sent my way. I know I will get through this crash, but is sure is tough right now.