why is this happening to me ?

[indigolight]

I am soooo mad .I dont get it anymore.A week everything goes great ,i feel good ,I know what I want,I am happy,good relationship..and then boom!Everything turns upside down.I feel stuck in a hole ,nothing goes right ,everybody is mad around me including me ,what i want always comes with delays and people start avoiding me ,i don't get calls anymore ,i feel alone its like they don't even notice i exist...whats rong ??I feel a lot of resistance and I am trying to let go and feel good but it seems so hard to tap in again in that happy moment.I put on a song start dancing but then something comes up like my mom comes screaming that i didnt do that or i see on the tv something that upsets me and I feel alone and mad and angry and sad and its like i cant control my emotions anymore((.
I read that maybe it can be part of this shift that is going on but why cant I have control over my life.I want to brake free like in the queen song just enjoy life be in balance and I have talents in me and I would like to use them but i feel stuck and stuck and stuck .WHY the F*** is this happening to me ??Does anybody have these feelings too ?


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[Sephish]

You might be bipolar.

[AmazonPrincess]

You might be bipolar.

True, you can take a look at this site, it's really helpful
http://helpguide.org/mental/bipolar_..._self_help.htm

[indigolight]

you have got to be joking :0!!!I have this since i was born and i had no idea ????I am WOW!!Everything is crystal clear now I cant believe it !!Thank you so much!!!! .You really made my day ..YUPYYY .

[Psychic Child]

Indigo Light
It is dificult to stay centered, in control,
for most of us. We get pulled this way
and that way. It seems that it is much
easier to be "centered" if I have a purpose
or a goal. If I just float I get distracted and
pulled in many directions. I can't just let go
and keep control.

I like to dance too, but I
give it purpose. I am an old fat guy, but
when I dance I change. My house-share
laughs when she sees me dancing, mixing
all the old dance moves; but she joins in as
counter point to my beat.

I dance to get rid of old or oppressive or
dark energy and replace it with new clean energy.
As I dance, sometimes without played, but heard
music, I vision me dancing, the energy flowing
through me and laughing as I enjoy the feeling
of being . . . ."just me" again.

When I am done, I have achieved my purpose.
I feel cleaner, centered and
I am smiling.
be in harmony,
walk in beauty
psychic child.

note:
My "abilities" came early, and I was trained
to control and hide them. Control is a big
factor with me.
pc

[indigolight]

Indigo Light

I dance to get rid of old or oppressive or
dark energy and replace it with new clean energy.
As I dance, sometimes without played, but heard
music, I vision me dancing, the energy flowing
through me and laughing as I enjoy the feeling
of being . . . ."just me" again.

pc

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Thats what i did today on the street.I was with my ipad walking but my mind was in the most beautiful place i could imagine .I was felling my self clean fresh letting the energy slide .It was a great felling.I dont know how to control anything.I dont have people around me that know these stuff .My abilities should up one day and then i had to start reading all kind of books to understand what was going on with me.No one told me anything just that i am crays and I want to get attentioned .And I though that was the truth ,I ignored everyhting els till I started bumping in this energy of information and I had to do something.So now I am on the path of descovering my self and I dont know which way is better left or right because there is no one to tell me.I have to relay on my own powers which I dont feel at this point.
But i still believe that one day i will find my inner piece and quite.Thank you psychic child for your post

[fred aus indo]

hmmm have u ever take a moment in life...like some quite moment... and observing your life?

i mean... i think you have... just take that moment again... and feel what's what....

[indigolight]

hmmm have u ever take a moment in life...like some quite moment... and observing your life?

i mean... i think you have... just take that moment again... and feel what's what....

I do take the moment but as time goes by its for me harder to get into that moment to stay quite and still ,because everything around me is going fast ,that is my persepction even if life goes like usually but I tend to see it different and its because I am getting a lot of energy and its not going like is supposed to go in a balance way in my body.I dont know how to explain it.If I stay still I can feel a lot of energy wanting to explode.I do grounding but it doesnt help always.i am thinking of getting some medicine but I dont trust medicine althought I think it is the best.

[fred aus indo]

hmmmm when i did this... usually nothing disturbs me... wierd how i can almost do it anywhere... probably i have this automatic shield....i mean i could just take a moment in my life... during trips on the bus or train... in the car.... and just watches them and as if i have nothing to worry about.... like it's weird how i felt things happening and the energy.... but my brain just goes... well not clear empty... but transparent sort of...

i don't exactly know how i hv come to do that... but if u r able to do that... you should be able to understand things right... and thats really how i know things by heart...

you don't hv to be formally take a moment in life... like meditation... just be yourself... which ever way... well the way did this is just like daydreaming....

i guess as you are sensitive... as you may have realise... you want a good flow of energy that wouldn't disturb you... well do some exercise or whatever i guess... to not let the surroundings energy bother you... yes bother

i mean the way i did it i just well not exactly focus on myself... but like... focus on my own mind... but as u focus on ur mind... i keep my mind inside this glass that is transparent so i can see things from outside... if i am interested in that thing out there... i take it in...to say it in a way that might be able to be understood

and grounding never works for me... i think i would have to describe the way i do it is umm.... flying over it....

[indigolight]

i like what you are saying fred aus indo ,i am trying to come to that feeling .Its really cool that you can do it anytime.I dont know what works for me to get me in that mood.If i try to black out my thoughts and i cant i get nervous and that ruins everything.I guess i am going to read some books on energy flowing and auras couse when this happend i think that something at the chakra level is not well or so .
Now in this moment I am calm ,I can understand what you are saying by accepting inside of me or not what is around me .But although I am like this i can feel and hear in my head this voice of someone very nervous .Well not really hear but i feel nervous inside of me .And when i open my mouth to speak i am calm but am trying not to let my self carried of this feeling inside me and scream.Do you understand what I am saying ?Because from my point of view i think i need a psychotherapist.

[Psychic Child]

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I dont know how to control anything.I dont have people around me that know these stuff .My abilities should up one day and then i had to start reading all kind of books to understand what was going on with me..So now I am on the path of descovering my self and I dont know which way is better left or right because there is no one to tell me.I have to relay on my own powers which I dont feel at this point.
But i still believe that one day i will find my inner piece and quite

indigolight
you have found a place where people can help you learn as you walk
on your new pathway. Check out "psychic child blogs" I give ideas on
how "abilities happen" and a simple way to practice focusing with intention
as a way to control them.

Learning to clear your mind of thoughts and
focus with a clear positive picture-intention
is the key to controlling the abilities we all have.

In the Psychic Phenomenon & Parapsychology Forum
in the thread "Types of psychic abilities" on page #2 or "3
in post #234, I made a list of abilities that members spoke
of using and how many members use that ability.
49 _IS_ members use and control empathy.
43 use and control telepathy with animals.
05 are telepathic with plants and trees.
24 can channel
27 use "mind-over-body" to control their bodies when needed.
10 use levitation
29 read Auras
16 use Dowsing
the list goes on and on.
I have 8 abilities and I am below
the average of the _IS_ members
on that list.
Be in harmony,
walk in beauty
pc

[rafi]

I've been doing research on what is called the mystical, the esoteric, the spiritual realms for several decades. By which I mean reading, dialogue with other people, and a variety of experiences.

I'm convinced that almost all spiritual evolution is now taking place through the exploration of individuals. Which means that most of us have have had times when we felt alienated from the rest of humanity. Or tired of the struggle for enlightenment. Or were going through a passage where everything seems on hold, non-productive, unclear. Most of us occasionally have done the self-indulgent thing and just wallowed in anger, anxiety, or self-pity. Even when knowing those feelings aren't ultimately real.

But hey, forgive yourself for being human. Also for being different; truth is, we all have these kinds of gifts potentially. But few wake up to them. And different sometimes means that other people harrass us. When young, this is hard to bear. When you're older, you realize it awakens empathy.

There's some good advice on this thread. If there really are underlying bipolar problems, don't ignore that. Or think that the symptoms are a sign of esp or other gifts. You may have gifts, but be sure that you protect yourself. If you're naturally very open, it getrs really difficult to figure out whose feelings you're feeling. So practice discernment.

Fred aus indo mentioned something I've never encountered. Evidence that individual discoveries find ways other than traditional methods. Which may be better for some people. His experience that instead of trying to be grounded, fly over whatever is happening. That sounds way more useful to me for active types than the more usual passive centering or grounding.

[Sneakers]

Guys id be a little more careful about diagnosing people right off the bat on here. bipolar isnt actually as clear cut as a scraped knee or a headache. there are many kinds of bp, more common is the seasonal linked one, different weather patterns affecting moods. bp is a mood disorder, and its usually misdiagnosed.
my cousin and me are both in the rarer type, we have rapid cycling bp. shes on a pile of meds for it, but im still too young to be allowed them, so i deal with moods firstly by identifying them. you need to become more self aware, it doesnt matter if you actually have bp or not. and just remember if your medical professional says you have it, doesnt mean you really do, and the meds seldom will work. they have to try different combinations, because everyones chemical imbalance is different, and it can take years, complete with side effects.
i knew someone once who would try and self diagnose online, whod read up a disorder then talk themselves into having it. they didnt even know thats what they were doing, and if you ask them today, they say they are "cured". they dont take the meds now, but i really dont think they ever needed them to begin with.
just be very careful, really careful. mental disorder isnt fun, trust me.