I finally was able to go to one of the gatherings I have been talking about and before I left I had conceded to spending the weekend with my friends and volunteering and putting up tepees. I didn't expect to spend it with a man,boy,male who would give me everything I needed to continue life happily.
The tepee I had to put up needed to be moved..and the only person who knew how to put it up was me. This beautiful young man(Cloud for short)was instantly down to do it with me and we got to work. it was like we were the only one in the world...
He didn't leave me side for the remainder of his time there. During the nights when people headed off to party and things we stayed up all night in my tent talking and by the end of Saturday we knew we were soul mates.. (that's a deeper story and any one wanting more details PM me)
But we also realized that this is not our life time... that we have had life times before. In the past lives we had were sometimes here doing what humans did in the days of tribes and things were "the way they should be" Then when we past away we were still together watching and the reason we came back was to help. I realize I know my purpose in life now... the only way we can truly be together is if we do the job we decided needed to be done.. spread awareness through the world. Teach the world what we know of life and have them pass it on.
We came as a pair.. So in tuned with each other our hearts beat literately the same beat.
But we can't remain that way until we do what needs to be done.. We know that now.
This feelings of bliss is not black and white. Agony leaks tears of joy down my face as I realize that our time together in this physical world might be over... And he awakened the passion of living I've been missing for so long that I'm happy that I'm capable to feel such pain... that I was loved, soul by soul, that I felt life with all vibrancy and intensity and I'm capable of staring heartbreak in the face and heading towards it with open arms and understand that I'm more than capable of handling it.
I'm doing my job now by sharing this beauty with you guys. The magic that took place this weekend is so hard to explain in words. But I did my best and take what you will from it.. but leave a little in return.