We all know the story. Girl grows up sensing things she shouldn't, has a few scares, and decides you know? I'm not interested in being attacked(by non-humans) and decides to ignore the other world.
Problem is, they don't seem to want to ignore me. Its been years now since I even meditiated and still they pursist.
The last month-two has been very trying. I've been having almost weekly fights with 'others'. They keep attacking the right side of my body, in a very specific area, almost where my kidneys would be. Finger to the belly button over to the right a little. I wake up with leftover pain and heat. I used to, years ago, wake up with handprints as if someone had slapped me, scratches(painfully evident not self-inflicted) They have always gone after this particular spot however. The last time it happened, I was able to hear them talking. It was almost like they were trying to perform an operation. (I've never had an operation) One was saying 'I'm trying to take it, she won't let me!' And the other one mumbled something and struck his 'hand' against my heart and apparently tried to take that as well. Which was new, they've always gone after the spot on my stomache.
The 'pain' they inflict is hard to explain. It hurts more than anything I've experienced before, and the 'aftershock' lasts quite awhile. Like their grabbing something and sqeezing it with white hot iron, and pulling. Even that doesn't do it justice.
I've been experiencing more de-ja vu lately, and general 'knowings' have gone up as well.
To be quite truthful, they terrify me. They have always attacked me, and seriously I believe the continued attacks are causing physical harm as I now have an undiagnosed stomache issue that the doctors cannot figure out. I would like to point out that I was medically given the all-clear last year when I wanted to believe the night attacks were a kidney or gallbladder issue.
If anyone has anything helpful to say I will listen.
Thanks for reading