Hi to all ~ from a lightworker in Maine

[5stars]

I am so glad I was divinely led to this forum... in so many respects because it is a great place to connect with high vibration souls who understand everything my family and friends don’t... I have spent my whole life in search of the answers. Always knowing I came here for a special purpose yet never knowing what. Ever since I was a little girl when people asked me what I was going to be when I grew up I would say… “I don’t know for sure but I do know I will touch 10 millions lives in a positive way before I died” My parents thought I was strange even back then. (I am now 38 and still searching for my gift that will fulfill my prophesy.

I was the only member of my family who ever went to church and I never settled on one particular faith… I have tried almost all of them. When most kids were smoking pot and doing drugs as a teenager I was attending Midnight Mass because there was no other outlet for my spiritual thirst… even thought I wasn’t catholic and could not participate in communion.

Thank God for the internet… However, there is so much conflicting info out there. I have spent tens of thousands of dollars trying to figure all this out and today I am no more sure of one particular thing then I was before I started.

I have had this gifted one tell me I am a starseed... the next gifted one tells me I am and early indigo... this one tells me I am a Reptilian from Orion... Another tells me I am from the 12 tribes of Israel.

I have been told I am working with Jesus to seed the Christ consciousness and another says I am here to seed the divine feminine energy.

I have been told I have been a Greek God, a Shaman, a Wizard, a Healer, a Witch who was drowned, a fairy, a humanitarian and slave etc... Yet none of this knowledge has helped me understand my part in the big scheme of things that is going on NOW.

I have invoked every invocation that has been written. DNA recoding, Karma removal… I have had Reiki healings, Shamanic Soul retrievals, Medicine Wheel, Reconnection healing, IET (Integrated Energy Therapy), Quantum Touch, feather medicine, Aura healing and I have over 400 spiritual websites bookmarked in my favorites… Yet I feel as clueless today as I was when I was a child.

Yesterday I was reading the Cosmic Instruction Manual posted on this site and I was drawn to the section on Brain Surgery because it is something I haven’t tried. Maybe it is the magic bullet for me. LOL. If anyone has tried I would love to hear more about it

My brother was an Indigo who lost his fight to suicide at 19 years old. He was an amazing rapper and I think if he could have understood or had a support group of like minded people to connect with... well maybe he would still be here. He often wrote about his knowing in his music... but I don't think he knew what he was knowing. I was much older then him and my parents are not very spiritual. But they sure knew how to drive the fear of God into us.

So what do I know??? Well I love love and I love loving and I am a true believe in the law of attraction. I am seeking ENLIGHTENMENT and in search of my soul group… So if you’re out there please contact me.

I hope to get to know all of you better.

In Service with love and light,

Julie

[IndigoWolf]

Hi Julie,

I think perhaps part of your different searches didn't work simply because the "truth", the answer is in you and probably only in you. I have never even heard of "quantum healing" but it sounds quite feasable.

It's great to have you here and I hope you make yourself at home

Love,
Indigo Wolf

[5stars]

Hi Julie,

I think perhaps part of your different searches didn't work simply because the "truth", the answer is in you and probably only in you. I have never even heard of "quantum healing" but it sounds quite feasable.

It's great to have you here and I hope you make yourself at home

Love,
Indigo Wolf

I agree 100%. It's hard sometimes to trust the chatter of your own mind, but I am totally working on self trust. Of course it would be easier if an Angel would descend from the heavens and give me a straight up answer.

[Leoslady]

I agree 100%. It's hard sometimes to trust the chatter of your own mind, but I am totally working on self trust. Of course it would be easier if an Angel would descend from the heavens and give me a straight up answer.

Dear 5stars, I am new here as well. You have expressed so much of what I have always felt in my life.
People look at you like this if you try to explain "a knowing"
Have yet to find that absolute direction, but perhaps its all in the journey.