wondering

**Elleke** · 03-15-2008

wondering.....

do you know that feeling
of
' I could do so many things now, I feel the urge, but I'm bored, no I won't take that crayon, make that movie, will make that dance, and everything is allright in a way, but still feeling a bit sad, adn thinking was it the fries I ate, I really have to stop eating chips, why am I at saterday night sitting here in the addic and don;t you talk yourself in some low feeling, and why do you think so much, stop thinking and go do something fun, and why do I get sometiem sthis strange feeling in my tummy when I feel when I think or am with some people or things people make, well then I do I have to stay out of that things, and why do people I love make stupid things, and why do I feel everything so intens, and why do I get a bit setup up by watching a picture of a depressed person, or a site I just don;t like, and why do I keep making this weird art if it doesn't reminds me of home.

I have a nice thing to share.

Panter, the young black cat came to sit on my lap at his back, with his uhm how do you call that legs all in the sky and his feet touched my nose whole the time, he searched it, and when he did that for a while I layed his feet something more down and then his nose moved to my thumb.

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that's funny stuff....

mmm.....

still 'bored'

I will search the light... to laugh!

**Elleke** · 03-15-2008

actually its my first weekend in months without Mirri.

We go do more stuff on our self

lol

**TheRavenMother** · 03-15-2008

dont wonder off too far!

**Zen** · 03-15-2008

Awww I know how you feel.

*stretches arms across the Channel for a hug*.

**TheRavenMother** · 03-15-2008

Gets freaked out by huge arms*

**Patryc** · 03-15-2008

cosmic cuddles Elleke,

ur never alone.

**Elleke** · 03-16-2008

aaaaaaaaaaah
that I like!

hugs all over the place

**freedom** · 03-17-2008

HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG and a lil kiss on the top of the head. LOVE

**sshenry** · 03-17-2008

Hugs-hugs-hugs

extend those arms this way Zen! (and watch Raven get SERIOUSLY creeped out!

)

**freedom** · 03-17-2008

hee hee. but watch out, shes got Lily now (her new puppy baby) she mite like those biiiiiiig bones to chew on LOVE

**sandwalker** · 06-24-2008

Originally Posted by Elleke

actually its my first weekend in months without Mirri.

We go do more stuff on our self

lol

what is boredom "its like waiting for the train to arrive to bring us to our destination which is thought and action".

**Shankara** · 06-24-2008

Originally Posted by Elleke

wondering.....

do you know that feeling
of
' I could do so many things now, I feel the urge, but I'm bored, no I won't take that crayon, make that movie, will make that dance,!

Yes, I know the feeling all too well. Is it self-sabotage or just laziness? I used to think the former, that I had unresolved issues and fear-based blockages which caused me to avoid what I claimed to want, but now I think (in my case) it's just simple laziness and I need to suck it up. I know what I want in life, I have to take action to get it, and I can't waste time doing anything that doesn't inspire passion. Give me that crayon!

**Elleke** · 06-27-2008

lol that was like some time ago
just some 'startproblems' with the engine
now I am like creating as fast as light
wooohooooo

thanks for your responses

*shares crayon with carly*
what a wonderfull painting!!
and the taste... mjum lol