I've not read the posts after Aion's second post yet, as I've been busy reading, thinking about, and replying to aions first post.
" wrote:This is going to sound harsh, but you should be used to this by now. I'm harsh out of love. It's true too. I don't preach love and light, because I find it trite and pretentious, but I feel it.
Love and light are "real" (just as something that it not love, and dark, are "real") it's not love and light itself that is pretentious, it's sometimes how these words (or not using the words) are used that is (and sometimes isn't).
" wrote:I'm not saying this to attack you, or anyone, I'm saying this because most of you say a big bowl of love-and-light-coated-nothing most of the time. Other times, what a lot of people say just isn't anything new.
What I see/feel/believe, it doesn't matter to me if it's "new" or not (and much of what most people say isn't all brand new, though at times can be said or written in a way that is not usual, or that is relevant to something specific) which to me does not take away from the "truth" as I see/feel it. I don't feel like if someone has said something in the past before, that I see/feel myself (even if I've come to something myself without ever reading it elsewhere) that there is no point in expressing it. "new" doesn't really matter to me, "true" does. Though it is good to be open to the “new”.
" wrote:I'm not saying this to attack you. I can't stress that enough.
I get it, once said is enough, lol.
" wrote:I know there's a lot of wisdom in a lot of you too, but most of you have trouble expressing it when you do have something to say. You don't know how to communicate..
Sure, sometimes I could communicate better, I already know that. At times I see/feel that I've communicated something just fine.
" wrote:I rarely have trouble with people listening to what I have to say. Part of that is because I have no expectations: I don't teach for vanity. I don't want followers. I don't do this for my health. I do it because it's my job. Our relationship is strictly professional.
I don't "teach" for vanity or for followers either. If I wanted followers, I would not share certain things about myself that make me seem "human" and just like everybody else (or at least most people) in certain ways. In general, people are more likely to follow someone, if they can either put them up on a pedestal, or they seem much less "flawed" than most people. ETs, angels, people who never, or rarely, talk about their own struggles (particularly fear), or darkness, or pain, are examples. However, when it does come to followers, is that always
a "bad" thing?
" wrote:At any rate, the reason I have no trouble is because I know how to communicate my message, even to some of the most narrow-minded people I've ever seen. This is because I profile people, and I tailor what I say based on their personalities.
I've done this sometimes myself (and sometimes if a person isn't open at the time, and if they are not open, it's best to leave it or not talk about it with them at that time). In some posts, sometimes I just say what I want to say without trying to tailor it to anyone. At times (not always) perhaps some tailoring would have been better, I've done both. Tailoring tends to go on more in replies, than in the first post of a thread.
" wrote:If you want to be a spiritual teacher, you need to detach yourself from your students. All of you are expendable to me. All of my closest friends, including my fiance, are expendable to me to some degree too. I have no expectations. That would mean I'd want to control others, and it's not my place to do that.
That is a very good point Aion. I recognised this in me, that I needed to do that more (and I have detached more, but not fully), which is partly why I have sometimes been direct with some people who I like, and about some things that I knew some people wouldn’t like…which has made some people on here less open to me, less “fond” of me, and some no longer (and less so) communicate with me on here. It’s not a real loss; it’s the way it goes sometimes (and it actually can sometimes be an indication, that I’ve done something “right”!). You do get some people who are still open.
I feel like I need to take some time to reassess what I want to be (not as in identity), what I want to do, and how I want to do it.
" wrote:If you want people to listen, you have to be courageous. You have to be willing to challenge people and generate tons of animosity in your direction.
You have to make a splash, and make people second guess themselves. You have to know how to shake their foundations, and most of all, you need to be willing to.
For sure, about having to be courageous and willing.
" wrote:All great people in history in some way made a splash. Many of them went against the grain. Many of them were very loud in doing so.
I know what you mean.
" wrote:I'll share a secret with everyone here: I have a full blown panic attack every time I come here.
Because it hurts. A lot.
Every time I'm forced to be the aggressor, it hurts. You guys don't realize that I'm right there with you when I hurt you. I hurt too. To tell you these things makes me very vulnerable, and that's okay too.
I can understand this, though one thing that I want to say is that you are not forced (or are you?) you choose. It may not be easy, but you still choose. I respect people showing their “vulnerabilities”, showing themselves as “human” too. Some people don’t, and look down on it. I feel anxious too sometimes when I post, and/or after I’ve posted something…especially when it’s direct and talking about something that some people will not like to hear…I know that some people may take it the wrong way, or feel like I’m criticising them, and judging me as a person. It can be part of growth, and part of what makes one stronger.
One must (if they need to/want to) learn to deal well with being miss judged (sometimes I rebel against my fears at least partly for this very reason). David Icke is an inspiration to me in this way, in one of his recent interviews by project Camelot, he talked about his experience of being ridiculed by the press in the UK a few decades ago (and itwas to the extreme) which was part of his journey in not caring about what others though of him (which is not just about thinking, it’s can be to do with how some people treat you too). I loved this example that he shared: He was giving a speech in a university hall, and lots of students turned up, some were being rude to him, laughing at him, and he looked at them and said (something very like) “you all think that I’m mentally ill don’t you?” “What does that say about you that you would pay money to insult someone who is mentally ill”. Then he said the audience went dead silent (and I take it that at least some were more open to listening to what he said then). A bit of a digression, but something that popped up in mind that I wanted to share.