Stories of Spiritual Awakening

[Henken]

Hello all – I am a 21 year old student of spirituality from Baltimore, MD. I am an indigo adult undergoing an amazing process of spiritual awakening. As you have all found the indigo society, I am assuming most of you have undergone somewhat of an experience of spiritual awakening. Now, how intense and over what length of time may vary greatly from person to person. Your chosen paths may very greatly; representing different spiritual facets, but there is a common realization of spirituality that I assume most of you have experienced. I am interested in people’s stories of awakening, or spiritual discovery. I have enumerated several questions to guide you in thinking of your individual story – and ask that you share with this group your unique story. Maybe the collection of these stories will shed light on some of the more perplexing aspects of your journey or possibly uncover certain threads of similarity with others'.

1. Is there a moment or time in your life when you realized you were experiencing something spiritual, or have you always been sensitive to these thoughts?

2. Describe when you first felt changes in your life, and how did these changes impact your life?

3. How old were you when you first noticed these changes?

4. Were there others around with whom you could talk over things with: mentors, friends?

5. Did you feel alienated or connected to the world you were used to?

6. What kinds of changes did you make in your lifestyle if any?

7. Do you consider your “awakening” to be complete or ongoing?

8. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of guiding advice what would this be?

Thank you to all contributors! I look forward to any and all responses and Thank you in advance for your honesty and sincerity.

Peace, Love and Light --

[Fragments]

1. Is there a moment or time in your life when you realized you were experiencing something spiritual, or have you always been sensitive to these thoughts?

I've always been spiritual. I began to distance myself from it as I grew older, due to a religious fundamentalist family at the time, but it was always there in the background.

2. Describe when you first felt changes in your life, and how did these changes impact your life?

I became a more serious seeker after the death of a loved one. I didn't care what anyone thought, it was my own personal journey.

I began meditating and within one month awakened my Kundalini and recieved many realizations and answers in the subsequent months which followed. Out of body experiences, psychic experiences, ecstatic mystical experiences, chakra strobes, all sorts of things.

3. How old were you when you first noticed these changes?

Started at age 16, I'm almost 18 now.

4. Were there others around with whom you could talk over things with: mentors, friends?

My mom has since joined me in this journey. She at least listens to me.

5. Did you feel alienated or connected to the world you were used to?

I've always felt alien from this world, a sort of recluse. It seemed too malevolent and harsh to me. It feels like everything is alright now though, all is well.

6. What kinds of changes did you make in your lifestyle if any?

It's more simple now. Much more simple.

7. Do you consider your “awakening” to be complete or ongoing?

Far from complete. I would call it an initiation.

8. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of guiding advice what would this be?

Don't worry about the uncontrollable experiences occuring, enjoy them because they only last so long.

[MiamiSound]

1. Is there a moment or time in your life when you realized you were experiencing something spiritual, or have you always been sensitive to these thoughts? Iv always had a very vague understanding of the spiritual, since very young

2. Describe when you first felt changes in your life, and how did these changes impact your life? Once i started practicing the general spiritual truths i started changing. Behaviours, attitudes, reactions, moods, the whole shebang. All aspects of my life improved shortly after and they continue to do so

3. How old were you when you first noticed these changes?
21

4. Were there others around with whom you could talk over things with: mentors, friends? Noone. I learned by scanning internet pages on various topics of interest and using discernment. Its only until i absorbed enough information that i came across this website where i found others

5. Did you feel alienated or connected to the world you were used to?
I def see it in a new light. Its kind of like looking at a pop up book. I just understand it more

6. What kinds of changes did you make in your lifestyle if any?
Things that i seldom paid attention to are now my primary concerns. Things like sitting on the beach at dusk, star gazing, listening to the rainfall... Life has become alot simpler
7. Do you consider your “awakening” to be complete or ongoing?
Theres no stopping the train
8. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of guiding advice what would this be? Let everything take its course!

[Everything is ok]

1. Is there a moment or time in your life when you realized you were experiencing something spiritual, or have you always been sensitive to these thoughts? I began researching spiritual ideas/topics only a few years ago
but the summer 2007 is when the lid just blew off spontaneously and intensely

2. Describe when you first felt changes in your life, and how did these changes impact your life? It was an instant shift , like i just died, the changes started immediately. I Became very energetic so im out and about much more than ever. I went from being very cold and mean to warm and compassionate over night. Honesty and authenticity have become my life. Just about any random act of kindness will cause to cry.

3. How old were you when you first noticed these changes?
28

4. Were there others around with whom you could talk over things with: mentors, friends? Yes, Thankfully I had a friend who had a similar experience 1 year before me and another a few weeks after.

5. Did you feel alienated or connected to the world you were used to? I felt alive and there was an unmistakable connection with all living beings. It took me a few weeks to notice that connecting with most people was not going to be possible. It's very lonely , but i'm happy. Its something i'm learning to deal with.

6. What kinds of changes did you make in your lifestyle if any?
I decided to spend time with the new mind (for lack of better terms) and just watch my self and try to go take it further.

7. Do you consider your “awakening” to be complete or ongoing?
When it first happened I didn't think anymore could possibly happen but as time passes by i'm realizing it was only the beginning.

8. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of guiding advice what would this be? None. It was the difficult circumstances I found myself in that snapped me out of it/or into it.

[krizpy86]

1. Is there a moment or time in your life when you realized you were experiencing something spiritual, or have you always been sensitive to these thoughts?
I've been sporadically clairvoyant since I was very young. I often perceive presences now, but when I was younger I did physically see two spirits (at different occasions- these I later understood to be messengers for a future events) The most profound awakening I have experienced is pretty intense. I went to my friends house with a few other friends. There were 4 of us in total at the house, and we decided that we would eat magic mushrooms, as we had all fasted for the day and were wanting to have a shared spiritual experience. I had brought with me all of my crystals, incense, candles, and orgone generators and we set up a shrine in the center of the room. A number of things happened that night but I would like to tell you about my little kid. Earlier in the week I had my horoscope tell me that I would need to help someone close to me, I knew instantly it was my friend Robert. On the Friday Robert called me and that's who's house we went to. Once the mushrooms started their journey we all began to meditate, I doused my hands in my 6th chakra oil and practiced karmic breathing... I was instantly transported to a wonderful, weightless blue sky. A very large pillar of light erupted in front of me and then gradually faded away. As it was fading away the foreground was becoming a wonderful green, like that of freshly cut grass. I then noticed that I was looking at my back yard at my parent's house out in the country. There was a little blond haired boy running around in the grass and he ran over to my point of view (which was about 20 feet off the ground) and I descended to the ground and then realized it was me I was looking at. I guess I was about 7 or so. The child spoke to me and said "I am your voice of intuition, to help Robert you must bring about his inner child." I snapped back to reality and stood up and said to my friends "Do you remember what it was like to be a kid, or to think like a kid?" Two of my friends said yes, but Robert said no... he had blocked out the memories of his childhood because of a family trauma. We talked about it for what seemed like hours and the next day the vibe I got was a weight lifted off his shoulders. I'm not one to advocate drugs because in the past I have wrestled with them, but don't let the laws of this or that stop you (if thats all it is) it is Earth Mother, and she will teach you many things. Unfortunately, due to the fact that nothing is ever free, please exercise caution if and when you do decide to try them; anything can become a crutch.

2. Describe when you first felt changes in your life, and how did these changes impact your life?
If you look up "the stages of awakening" that is a fairly accurate description for me...

3. How old were you when you first noticed these changes?
19-20

4. Were there others around with whom you could talk over things with: mentors, friends?
Yes I have some friends that are undergoing the shift with me. I cannot speak about it at work anymore because people laugh so I don't bother... but instead I have become exceedingly positive trying to go out of my way to be really nice to everyone in light that maybe they'll catch on.....?

5. Did you feel alienated or connected to the world you were used to?
My old world was lots of booze, tailgate parties, cabin parties.... you know, chaos =)

6. What kinds of changes did you make in your lifestyle if any?
None of that anymore, I don't like that section of my consciousness- I do stupid things when I drink and I try not to over indulge with anything else. I do smoke still however, but thats going to be gone right away because I am going to a flower of life workshop in May.

7. Do you consider your “awakening” to be complete or ongoing?
Chugga chugga chugga chugga.... woooo wooo!! If you get my drift =)

8. If you could go back in time and give yourself one piece of guiding advice what would this be?
I don't think I would. Everything happens for a reason, that might disrupt cosmic balance.

Thank you for listening to my story!
Namaste!

[Henken]

Thank you all for your responses, this is really exciting!!

[Henken]

1. Well it all started with the meeting of a mentor. I had never before believed in a true higher power and thought many spiritual things were just made up and untrue. This man told me of reiki and his experiences with spiritual awakening. I was fascinated by the idea of energy, of the connection between our consciousness and the universe. I have always had a connection to stones but crystals took on a new meaning. I had one attuned to my frequency and I also received the Shoden reiki attunement. I had more energy than I had had in a while. When I closed my eyes I could see indigo and violet concentric circles pulsating. I also had vivid dreams. One dream was of the universe. I saw it through all stages of its expansion really fast. I also then saw the entire city of Baltimore, where I live, in one moment of time in fast consecutive snapshots. I was also introduced to several people in my dreams, who I was convinced had to be real people, due to the detailed pictures. I felt tingling sensations in my body: in my hands and in my stomach. After this period of intensity, I took a break from the spiritual evolution for a while. Once I started talking to a close friend about these experiences and he detailed his own personal experiences the awakening started all over again. I was practicing a lot of yoga and thinking a lot about consciousness and learning.
Then one night I felt an enormous bout of energy inside me (after doing several sun salutations in my room). This energy was so intense I felt light headed. I had a candle burning in my room and all other lights were out. Suddenly I knew something big was about to happen. I called my friend and he came over, I told him that it was the apocalypse – he believed me since I was speaking as sincerely as possible. I truly believed it was the end of the world. Pieces of knowledge started coming into me as the night progressed. I almost fainted from the energy inside me; it was so strong. I imagined that the apocalypse was people turning into columns of light. Pairings of people would come together and hug each other turning into light energy. I thought then that these parings of people would assemble themselves into a large spiral fractal across the earth. I was convinced that everyone was going to work for the next couple years to assemble into this form. Everything made so much sense; people were finding their opposites (or twin flames) the exact blue print of themselves in the opposite sex. I was convinced that everyone was having this exact experience that night that I was. Exhausted, I went to bed. In the morning, my friend left and I prepared to go to class. I was extremely energized and felt high. I knew that school was important. I walked to school and it was so surreal almost as if I were dreaming. I was making eye contact with people, looking deep into their eyes, into their soul. I was convinced that we were at a magic school. I attend an arts college so we were talking about line and form; this all seemed really surreal to me. How can a group of people be setting these rules in shape and form? It seemed like we were preparing for the apocalypse, for that final formation of the large spiral fractal.
I talked to the administrative assistant of my department, telling her that I was in love (with my friend). At this point I became aware of how young I was; this was the beginning of a new awareness of the world, the connection of every human on the earth. All the adults were so much wiser than me, they were my guides, and they knew so much. I was convinced that everyone had the belief of the twin soul; every person had their yin and yang energies. I imagined my friend and I spiraling in the yin-yang form, perfectly balanced. By this time, my professor knew something was different about me and they were concerned for my health. I was completely high and must have appeared really out of whack. They took me to the health clinic and I told the doctor I didn’t know what was happening to me. I still felt like a baby and was uncomfortable in my own skin. I felt that I needed to not be in the doctor’s office, I mean it was the apocalypse after all. So I walked out. I continued to make eye contact with nearly everyone I encountered. The energy in my body was so great I couldn’t sit in one place so I walked back to my apartment. I became aware of many binary relationships: light and dark, nothing and everything, beginning and end, yin and yang. Everything made so much sense; these relationships made up existence. I thought that the energy I was feeling was going to end the universe, but start a new one. I became convinced there would be a nuclear explosion. These realizations were coming in cycles and the cycles were becoming shorter and shorter.
At this point, I received a call from campus safety, telling me that they needed to help me get to the doctors. I was just going with the flow; what else could I do? So I met them outside my apartment. They picked me up and took me to the hospital. Everything they said made so much sense, it all related to the end of the world, to collective thought. I became aware of the importance of my going to the doctor’s: the interaction of art and science would help the world move forward. I was convinced that this interaction was essential to the progress of the world. At the hospital I was met with another representative from my school, I was convinced that she was a scientist and that I loved her. Our union was perfect, exactly opposite. She asked me about my art. She kept leaving and coming back, each time it was a game for me. I thought we were playing a game, the jokes being about infinity and binaries. So I didn’t go with her when asked, I was convinced that I was dead and this was the afterlife; the end of evolution; she knew everything, she was god and I was a prophet. I remember the television in the office; it was a reality TV show, so surreal, but also making jokes about infinity. Finally they forced me to come with them, the police were there. In my vision they were also testing me, forcing me to see similarities between all humans. Everything was still a joke about infinity. My responses must have seemed crazy, but I was just commenting about infinity and making the ultimate joke. I was sure I had died. Then I woke up on the table and asked a woman where I was, she told me.
I had to stay in the hospital overnight, in the psych ward. Several of the people there told me they thought I was a baby when I came in. The psychiatrist diagnosed me with bipolar disorder. They said I had had a psychotic break in a manic state. It was this, but it was also a spiritual breakthrough. I now knew that everyone is connected, that life and death are opposites and both incredibly important. I still believe that there will be some sort of apocalypse. I believe in 2012, the Mayan calendar prediction of the end of the world. I understand that I was high during this time and out of touch with reality, but I think many truths were revealed to me.

2. After this experience I have been more aware of the connection of all living creatures. My perspective on life has completely changed. I do believe in a higher power, in energy. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that we are all students in this life. I have started practicing reiki and continued with yoga, these things ground me and make me feel more stable and connected. I still make soul eye contact with many people. I don’t discount the scientific community and do think I have bipolar, but this does not change my belief that that experience was a spiritual one.

3. I was twenty one year old.

4. There was the mentor that I mentioned above, the reiki master, and my friend and my love.

5. I felt entirely connected to other people. That experience showed me that everyone is working in a single organism that is humanity. I feel entirely connected to life.

6. My lifestyle has changed because I am more open to many spiritual beliefs. I believe that all religions have the same source. I have adopted the belief that every experience can be a learning experience. So everyday I try to learn from my path. I try to be open to new people and new experiences more so than I have ever.

7. I think I am on a journey; that I can always learn more. I don’t know if I will ever be done growing or awakening.

8. I would give myself the mantra “it’s going to be all right.” This is something that I never knew before; riddled by social anxiety I used to be afraid of many things. Fear still enters my life, but I think the goal is to be unafraid of anything and I strive to feel and know this.