“What if you slept? And what if, in your sleep, you went to heaven and there plucked a strange and beautiful flower? And what if,when you awoke,you had the flower in your hand? Ah, what then?”
― Samuel Taylor Coleridge
Don't know your age ... You sound like an authentic seeker. That's good. Every ideology and discipline has truth. Shirley MacLain is thought by some to be a kook. She's my age and has been a seeker for 40 years. Her book "Sage-ing while Age-ing" is worth reading 'cause she has done much research and has more questions than answers. I am wary of folks who say, "This is THE TRUTH, 'cause no one knows THE TRUTH. I know MY TRUTH, but I couldn't possibly learn everything there is in this lifetime.