I've met a great guy, well not physicially because I have to lose my extra 15 pounds (20 pounds of retaliation from this planet's standards, lost already!), but we've been talking for 2 months. He is everything I intended for myself, except his age of 14 yrs. my senior, and that he is currently out of a job(LOL!) perhaps that's my problem. But I can work with these 'challenges", I'm more concernced that what I intended/want more than anything on this planet, is to have a loving relationship and breed! (afterall, we are all animals).
Now that my intentions are possibly in fruition, I"m willing to throw it away because I feel the human need to connect with someone, is a weakness of the human condition. Humans are just looking to bond with someone, memorable of sucking off their mother's teat, to feel "good" while here. There is no one to make another complete. I see it as a weakness, yet another, of this existence.
Does anyone identify with these feelings of shooting yourself in the foot (of what you truly want to experience here), but feeling the inherent weakness, once again, of the human condition, in that you feel "above it?" That's where I'm at....I can't see one saving grace of the true value of this experience. Do you?
Sorry to spread negativity here, but I know you're all strong enough to take it. Offering a suggestion for me, is another thing. Again, we are all sitting ducks and I guess I had a reaction to what (my power) I manifested for myself, which I truly wanted. I'm just at a road-block with letting my emotions(fleeting and human/which equates to weakness, in my book), be vulnerable to the ultimate "human experience" of emotion......IMHO the ultimate curse/weakness of the human species.