Hello, Id like to get some advice,please, it might be a bit long to explain,so that you can understand,so please have some patience with me. I would very much appreciate, if anyone would like to give their take on it and possibly some advice,please.
I met my soulmate/twinflame(we believe it is with many signs pointing to it) online and started an online relationship for ten months. Living in different countries, though not far from eachothers countries.
we became close, very close, experiencing all classical signs of soulmates and or twinflame signs.
Strong love, but not that "in-love"-feeling. More spiritually. We believe the same things spiritually as well. He awoke some years ago,I woke up much earlier, which can be hard for him. I also experience more,where he doesnt. Everythings new to him,even though hes had some.
Weve had arguements and misunderstandings, also when we met,weve met twice so far. it took long time before we met. All were fantastic,and we acted much like we were a couple in every way and the love was strong. we happened to be too close too fast,something we both regret,though,which made him reluctant to be close and touch me the last time. We talked and he opened up again,but still reluctant,especiallly since weve argued as well. he also told me about abuse hes went through,on all levels,mentally,physically,emotionally and sexually. we talked alot about that and hes agreed on looking for help,and I support him etc. everythings fine there. (were both starborn by the way) he also told me his reluctance was also as much because of the abuse.
Thing is even when weve talked it out and all is fine, he first acted like were a couple in every way,then kinda taking it back with his actions until we got it straight,then when we got it straight, he still is reluctant,a bit distant,even though touching me again etc,but not just as much. one time,before we got things sorted out,he called me FRIEND a couple of times,and that hes not seeking a partner,that happened in a convo where he was looking after a therapist,and the box for family,friends,partners etc came up.
but it happened before we "made up",so to speak. but anyway. and that he doesnt touch me just as much even though hes doing it. another time,also before we made up, he said he wants to take it reeaally slow with me, and go very slowly forward. I dont know if this last has something to do with that,or if he is too confused, or really doesnt want me the same way before?
he also cant feel as strongly as I can, with the twin thing and our energies,but he does feel somethings there.
Is all this the abuse affecting him?
Im hanging in a vacum,where im not the other thing or the other.
hes also broke up with his x not long time ago,but it was right when we start to get to know eachother.
he talks about moving in with me. all for spiritual reasons mainly.
Do you get any sense out of this?
thank you for your time and help,MIRIAM