As I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I take a look at my life, and

[problematique]

realize there's nothing left...



I need help, thinking about doing it tonight. don't have anything worth living for anymore.

[Grounded Gifts]

Are you serious?

[problematique]

Are you serious?

fuck you bitch tell me what you really think

[Indigo Dog]

I am the last person who should talk. I feel that way too sometimes. Not because there aren't people who still need me and truly love me but because I find it so terribly rare to connect with anyone on a soul to soul level. I would like to escape the agony of self destruction I see around me. I would like to return to what I remember before I was born.

Most of the people I adored the most are dead now and waiting there for me. I miss them so much it feels like a knife in my guts sometimes. What's worse is I come form a long line of suicidal relatives. Being born into a legacy of suicidal ( early release souls) bothers me too.

Here is the kicker. I know what happens to those who check out early. They have to prepare to do it all over again until they stay long enough in the physical world to learn what they were born to learn. That thought irritates me. It irritates me enough to put the gun down and face another day, make it better and strive for a better feeling than I had the day before.

It's possible. It's possible to get so fed up that you decide, " The hell with this nightmare I'm going to make some radical changes to enjoy my life, by God, cause I'm sick of being unhappy!" I did it. You can co it too. All you have to worry about now is how to feel lest crappy. Do whatever it takes. Little steps like being nice to yourself. Creatively abandoning friendships and relationships that make you feel like sh#t, finding a job you like, telling someone off who deserves it.

Whatever thought and action that you might think that would let off the burden of pain is how to get some traction and reclaim your power.

I hope this helps. I hope this is the springboard moment for you to get to a more empowered and joyful place. I believe you can do this. Your desire seems intense enough.

[Grounded Gifts]

I'll tell you what I really think, then
You are going through a transformation. There is unwanted change in your life. It's not really unwanted change; it's things that needed to go from your life, and they're going. This is unsettling, but it is overdue. You need to go through a grief process on all levels so that you can let go of these things, tie up loose ends and consign these things to the past where they belong.

You are being challenged to change, to let your true, healed self emerge and to begin to share your life experience and wisdom with others. While you are in a state of grief and frustration, you can't share with others in a way that is constructive. You need to go through the current process/phase in order for a calmer, more peaceful you to emerge.

Try to remember and be grateful for all the good things in your life. You have enough to eat. You are strong. You are smart. When you speak, people listen, even if it appears they do not respond.

You are growing into your future, as are many other people this year. Whether you choose to believe it or not, the future is very bright. The future involves a new way of seeing yourself and the world around you. It will be a better, more carefree time.

Your priorities will change. You will look back at the past and wonder why you waited so long to reclaim and embrace all the parts of yourself that have been trying to get your attention.

The current feelings are just the beginning of a positive process. Of course, it does not feel positive at this moment, but the positive aspects will become clearer.

Accept yourself just as you are. You are fine. Count your blessings. Don't give up on yourself -- you have a long way to go on this planet and many good things ahead of you

[climbing]

So much for being a mod I guess...

[AmentiHall]

LadyN wtf???

Since when?

Please don't cave just yet. We are all going through the dark night of the soul right now.

I am too, believe it or not. All the terrible shit has to come up before. Night is always darkest right before the dawn...please stay with us, we need you

It's not time to go yet

[silvercharm]

please someone tell me that she's OKAY

[Indigo Dog]

Dear Lady N,

If you ever come back as another screen name pleas PM me.

Take care, Indi

[silvercharm]

Dear Lady N,

If you ever come back as another screen name pleas PM me.

Take care, Indi

Can you do another reading for me please?
Is problembot okay now?

[Indigo Dog]

She's fine.


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