Connection with a suicide victim?

[LucidDreams]

I was in a classroom full of other kids. I looked up toward the ceiling and saw a bunch of faces, each individual one had it's own border around it, like they were TV screens with their faces on them. But it was all just energy, no actual screens. One face out of all of them stood out to me. A young girl with the saddest expression you could imagine. Right away I knew she committed suicide, the way you "just know" things in your dreams. I reached my right hand up toward her. She looked reluctant and untrusting. I reached the other arm too, and said: "I love you". That sad expression on her face turned into a smile, and she accepted the love. She reached toward me too and started floating down out of that "screen" at me. I was ready to embrace and hug her, but she wasn't in solid form. Instead I felt her energy pass through me as I went to hug her. It was like a mist hitting you in the face, but not a cool mist, warm, and just a sense of euphoria and love as she passed through me. Her mist had a violet color to it. It was a beautiful experience. Just wanted to share it.

[LostLexie]

This thread caught my eye, perhaps a synch. Thank you for sharing.

[LucidDreams]

At the same moment I realized the girl had committed suicide, I realized those faces I saw were departed souls. But then time doesn't exist in my dreams. It could have been in the future. Or just 1 possible way that things could come to pass, not etched in stone. I woke up with the feeling that I had either stopped a young girl from committing suicide, or helped mend her tortured soul. And it was a great feeling. You are welcome : ) I just read your other thread and it's so sad. I doubt it's any coincidence that you run into a story like this immediately afterward. Irony seems to always be there to teach us lessons. It's been a reoccurring theme for me, especially lately.

[LostLexie]

Do you remember what she looked like?

[LucidDreams]

Short (5'2" tops), dark hair (dark brown or black), fairly short, but not GI Jane or anything like that. Some freckles on her face, not a ton or anything but noticeable. Hair was a little scraggly, like she hadn't done it that day. In her state I doubt vanity was much of a priority. Young, seemed about 14-16 years old. I'll never forget that face.

[LostLexie]

I had hoped you would describe me. That sounds selfish doesn't it? I just wish I wasn't alone, like someone cared if I was gone. Whomever she is, she is very lucky and thank you again for sharing.

[LucidDreams]

I got the feeling that I wasn't describing you. In fact I picture about the opposite, blonde hair & blue eyes. But maybe that's because I knew a Lexi and she looked like that. And anyway you shouldn't want to be her. You shouldn't aspire to have that same look on your face, or leave this world on your own power. But I do hope I brought closure/love to her, and maybe even helped her move on.

[LostLexie]

Blonde hair and blue eyes is correct. I know deep down that I'm not that person but being alone and hated is getting to be very difficult and unbearable.

[LucidDreams]

Well I can assure you that I'd care if you were gone, without even knowing you. That love I offered to that girl, I offer to anyone in that position (aka, you). And btw, do you happen to have hair on the long side, though not too too long, pulled back in a ponytail? A cute little nose that doesn't protrude much, not like a hook nose or something. And are relatively slim, though not rail skinny or anything? I don't know the height because the person I see is sitting down, in front of a computer. Just curious...

[LostLexie]

You are too kind and a truly beautiful soul. I don't think I could have described myself more precisely.

[LucidDreams]

I saw you when we were conversing last night then. Thank you, and all of that is big ditto...

[LostLexie]

Working on my 50 posts so that I may PM you. Haha. Just wanted to say hi. "Hi".

[LucidDreams]

Ah... almost there! Just say a bunch of rhetorical stuff. Respond to some posts with a few "ditto's", or "here here's". Welcome some noobs, etc... looking forward to it. Or you could always hit me up on my AIM if you have a messenger. I use "Pidgin" messenger so I can converse with a lot of different clients... doesn't have to be AIM. Just let me know in here. Oh and btw when I say I "saw you" I meant in my 3'rd (minds) eye... not that I was like peering through your window like a creepy stalker or something. Just wanted to clarify...

[RAWR]

I had hoped you would describe me. That sounds selfish doesn't it? I just wish I wasn't alone, like someone cared if I was gone. Whomever she is, she is very lucky and thank you again for sharing.

This is how I felt when I read it as well *sigh*

[LucidDreams]

Well in some regard(s) I was describing you... both of you. And this thread resonated with you for a reason. I don't believe it's any coincidence that you found it. I love both of you, LostLexie & RAWR : ) And btw, I don't care how corny this looks/sounds one bit.

[LostLexie]

The moment I signed on to IS I felt a strong connection to you.
I'm unsure why, and I hope I don't sound like a crazy stalker, but
your posts seemed to jump out to me and I related to you instantly.
Thank you for your constant supply of kind words
and for being you and here.

[LucidDreams]

I hope I don't sound like a crazy stalker, but

I think we both come across that way, to some degree, lol. And I'm sure there are people saying, "get a room" right now. New rule: you're allowed to come across as a creepy stalker when you make a connection with someone.

[LostLexie]

Good rule!

[RAWR]

thank you, that means alot


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