Good afternnoon to all...
I begin this thread invoking True Love and Truth...Light. May the Goddess and God warm all your hearts and thou shall see within....
I speak now only because my heart feels the truth should be known....not to slander anybody or put anybody down...i only speak what i feel...and is not what we feel the absolute truth in our hearts?
It was about 3 weeks ago...I took a little journey to a place called Crestone, located in southern Colorodo not too far from the Alamosa area. I wasn't sure what to expect..I was excited and knew there was something "different awaiting. The drive was quite beautiful and when I entered Crestone I felt and saw a field...drove right into it..that was the vortex.
I arrived at White Eagle Village and was greeted by Mia...then Rue, Will...and shortly after Lia. The energy I felt was was overwhelming and rendered me quite unable to think anymore..I couldn't speak correctly because of the bombardment of a massive energy. I felt as if I had fallen into a warped zone...and quite honestly I feel I had trouble thinking for myself after that...
I was told that this was the kingdom of heaven...I was also told that my twin flame resided there...I was also told that Mother and Father God lived here. I wasn't quite able to process this then. But I felt my instincts and even in my drunken state of unawareness, I knew something wasn't right....I felt something wasn't right before I got there...but I chose to ignore that feeling.
I allowed myself to soak in these notions they spoke of ...I felt surreal...I wanted this "wonderful" feeling of drunken bliss to continue...so I tried to feel this "way" out...
They spoke of angels...creation...ships...atoms...its hard to really pick it all together, I don't feel I quite had my mind....and I'm sure they'll tell you that I was beginning my process of loosing ego and just feeling.....but I want to tell you all something right now. That was the set up of the illusion...that was the set up to break the mind, not think for yourself, to become a puppet , for whatever brainwashing mechanism that might be....for whatever this entity that these people are blinded by and will deny to the very day they die quite possibly...they are blinded....
I was lucky, because spirit did not need to be told how to feel...it already knew its own truth within me....it didn't need to be reasurred...although I will admit I was very close to swaying.....
The showering of love, the loosing of ego....think about people. YES...THINK...its a perfect set up, especially for those that have had such pain in their lives and have not walked through it for themselves...this is utopia...a way to forget what is truly real...a way to be something important, something powerful...something "loved"..belonging.. I feel almost shameful not recognizing truth before it was almost too late.....I won't get into details because I don't truly feel its so important...but the way I was almost broken was my weakness....they found....the beautiful eyes of the Goddess. I will leave it at that.
I am an anchor. I am the energy of Gaia....this I feel is what they wanted so badly (they = entity) ....I am blessed to have walked the path I have for I may not have gotten out if I had not.....hear me, its the grid they mess with...to mess with us....and I'm sure, almost positive some of them don't even know this fact...but I've seen it...I've felt it...and its not good, not at all...its a false energy my friends, don't buy into this crap for the TRUE love of God...
When I left Crestone, I shot out of there like a bat out of hell and it was because I had to....my instinct was screaming to get out...and I did....my home is within...with the true light of the Goddess...and God. Gaia has always steered me to safety...she's done it again.
I love you all....and take this heed...not everything that speaks of Love is love...there are illusions behind illusions...so keep your guard, stand your ground...and ALWAYS trust that stirring feeling in your gut....and always follow your heart....shut out all other noise...all other people if you must ....and just listen to the wind....before its too late and you can no longer hear her and instead here the noise of the thing you chose before Truth....
Blessed be in the name of True Goddess of light and love and Christos.
Much Love,
Kaitlin
Wolf
So there's so much energy here it's hard to hold onto the ego/mind. I agree, it's great! No whirl of thoughts inside the head, just clarity and being present in the now.
We're being controlled by an entity that feeds us feelings of bliss?
*sigh*
Will
ॐ Breathe ॐ
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I hope this thread doesn't turn into another debate. I wish that the two sides would sign an Armistace soon. As I expected, this site is becoming home to three camps. Those that support WhiteEagles, those who oppose them, and those who have either remained neutral the whole time or opted out (like myself) who wish to move on.
Think about what guests and newbies will think of all this in-fighting.
Tears has the right to post her experiances as she sees them. Those who think differently can also post from their experiances. You aren't Tear though, you can't say this isn't how she felt about being there.
Anyone can be a 人 (ren, human) but it takes a lot to be a person. - Chinese Proverb
Tear,
Thank you! Thank you very much!
You are truly blessed!
Much love,
Annette
Anybody who tries to tell you that they are the way or they are the light has, obviously, not met the indigo who has mastered the power of FREEWILL.
STOP (ask me how): http://indigosociety.com/9604-9600-9...604-t4639.html
Thank you for posting this Tear
"Death is a stripping away of all that is not you. The secret of life is to "die before you die" — and find that there is no death."
[QUOTE=Calibas;95166]So there's so much energy here it's hard to hold onto the ego/mind. I agree, it's great! No whirl of thoughts inside the head, just clarity and being present in the now.
We're being controlled by an entity that feeds us feelings of bliss?
YES. YOU ARE.
"He either fears his fate too much
Or his rewards are small
Who will not put it to the touch
To win, or lose, it all. "
Montrose's Toast
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Last edited by darksearch; 11-05-2008 at 11:19 PM.
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Being here, when i first got here, i was going through a lot of my own feelings, i was transforming. I linked in so much with the mind that iwould feel lonely, because i thought thats what i felt. I would say within the first week, i was experiencing what i came here for. I was determined for it all to work out. I didnt want to go back to society, or end up leaving here through some force of nature brought about by choices i was making. I was feeling a whirlwind of feelings from experiences i was having. As i was going through all of this, all along, i had help. i had guidance.i real eyesd that i made the conscious choice to come out here, to live my life the way i wanted to. I knew i was going to have a lot of learning experiences before even coming here. i knew i knew i knew i knew i knew. So i went with it , all in. I even took on someone elses contract be cause i continued on with it all. For once in my life i felt like i fit in..and again...after some moments passed in eternity, more feelings came about that i once again had to go through in order to transform them all. So i kept on keeping on. The dreams i have are bare none to what ive ever experienced as dreams. im more conscious in them, i understand them more consciously. i understand just how easy everything really is. I knew i didnt want to go back. go back to what? living a life where if i spoke about being multidimensional and oneness they wouldnt really understand. I would have to break it all down for them, so they could build it back up inside their heads. I didnt want that...i didnt want to deal with ignorant people. i love people, and i love to love them. I , be cause i was being who i am, was different. Though some understood me. Yet even some that claimed to understand me, or accept me for me, still gave me issues about me being me. Not all, but those who i considered to be close with , learning that even they still had their own stuff to contend with, and they werent really conscious of it, so it just sat on them, densely so. I was surrounded by ego at every turn. People pushing their agenda on me, i wanted to just turn into thin air, i even thought once that by meditating on my chakras a lot, throughout the day, that i would spin off into higher dimensions...well, i was already conscious of the higher dimensions, but the thought of just disappearing into them consciously so, enticed me. Of course the only experience that gave me was be coming more aware, more conscious. However even before this, in 2006 - 2007. i experienced it as well. i was very conscious of life and how it works. I was only wanting to love and be loved. I had those experiences too. as well as growth experiences. however yet again, i was surrounded by people who believed in the programming they had going on within them. they hadnt really any spiritual knowledge or understanding. However so, i was enticed to teaching them what was inside of them, through my being. so i did, i even awoken a few, who had to deal with what i delt with, and did so with flying colors. I never really had support by all in being awake, most didnt understand this , way of being. So i got word that the whole teaching truth to others shpeel really didnt go over to well. Infact people really didnt like it.Originally Posted by Greenguy
they were too consumed in the distractions of modern civilization.
I tolerated it, i stopped saying truths out of love, and just kept my mouth shut, expressing myself through body language and little quippy jokes with truth in them, about myself and the universe. It got me by, and it also allowed others to experience a part of me that wasnt so talkative, but adapted, blended in, yet, completely aware. so i often became the person to talk to about issues. I was able to share my wisdom about any. So i then just became the guy someone vented towards, be cause i enjoyed being there for people, and i got to share my wisdom. I still had experiences in which i knew that it was dense, i still dealt with it. Being in the home, still having a spiritual chord from my mother to myself, i had to contend with toning my energy down low so i didnt get strife from it, basically putting myself either in the bedroom to be at the computer, with music...solace, comfort, sanctuary. Nature , smoke , go for a walk perhaps. The energy that i was always confronted by in society was an energy of zero tolerance for being awake. I was able to fire my being up by going out and having fun with friends, sensual enjoyment, it was my way of venting. We had fun. I didnt enjoy the energies i was contending with living there...sure i had fun when i would be out...i would often find myself bombarded with energies that tried to stifle my spirit. that wasnt enjoyed either. I continued on..i experienced this when i was awake in new york..so i moved around...just trying to get away from unconscious people..try to get or find solace somewhere in the united states where i could just be. I even looked outside of the u.s , but that never worked out. So from deciding one day that i am going to express myself, regardless of what people may say or do..i was put away. learning once again, through society, that freedom of expression of who we are, just wasnt tolerated, unless it fit into this little cubicle sized identity for everyone to agree upon and be come inspired by ignorance to say what they think about this person because of the way they feel from their own experience of being around the person...basically feeling a way from within themselves, not liking it, and then projecting it onto someone else.
so real eyezing this.. i decided i was just going to play it cool, and play the game, with a twist. be cool, lay low, dont really twist anyones buttons, play nice, as nice as i felt i was , or could during the experience i was having..and just all around be the master i am, while in this place. Knowing full well that i was being judged at every turn. From earlier in the year of my knowing of this place..the energy...what was/is here...previously having put out into the universe , what i wanted....previously experiencing future visions of what was coming on my journey...i decided this was the place i was going to go to.So it was, so it is...I was back in society...having learned what was learned from that experience...i suddenly real eyezed how judgemental society really is. The tone ,. rang, and i understood. the call was made and i ha dmade the decision to go. However i had to wait..divine timing and all.
I arrived here, experiencing semi familiar feelings from another experience i once had...knowing that not all experiences are ever the same, regardless of how similiar they may appear. as soon a si was picked up, i felt nothing but love. Knowing what was to come, i sat back and relaxed and just let go.
and learned to surrender and release, once again real eyezing all the tools by my side, and using them accordingly. Since all of this has transpired with all my vertical experiences....i can say that i am very Very happy, infact..well..
en light ened.
it just is, and it, is , so simple.
Its easy to understand why people feel the way they do about this information. Of course stating that, others would want to see the relation in words, and perhaps even be a critic and say yey or ney.
well , not today.
i love you all dearly.
Rue
oh and this place embraced me with open arms..its been here for me since my arrival. I have never experienced such love before ever..seriously...this place is the crown chakra of the world.
oh and on change...its constant...whatever this place has to offer to me..i offer me in return. since that is all i have to offer. Aside from what i may own..but no one ever asks for that..they only ask that i be who i am..and thats all tha tis expected of me..showing up...be present...be you...be grounded...be centered..be balanced..real eyes...
the feeling of bliss...of love..of ecstacy...its all naturally there..its what the natural being is like...full of joy...full of love..always and forever..eternally, through infinity and beyond..experiencing the unknowable..making it known through the present experience of it...being one with the all..
yes egomind melts away...being in a place thats a vortex with the highest and lowest magnetised spin..yeah...your egomind doesnt stand a chance....it never has when put up against the awesome power of the divine...even i know that...everyone else does naturally too..why else would you see so much revolt towards simple information such as the information we are sharing...its fear of losing identity...losing yourself..becoming a slave to the unknown..to the divine presence of all that is ...of god..but theres no loss of identity..infact theres a complete understanding of what ones identity with god really is. so sure..if you are egomind ..well..to me..that just says it all..haha
toodles
rue
Last edited by Rue; 04-20-2008 at 05:38 PM.
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Last edited by darksearch; 11-05-2008 at 11:20 PM.
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I loveee that song!!
Proud to support my friends!
you all are so god damn sad....
you talk of the open arms that awaited you.....of course they did....they wanted you....I'm getting really angry right now....you have no fucking idea do you...do any of you???? no you don't at all.....ive said my peace....and don't think i have anything else....im so sorry...so fucking sorry you can't see what is the truth...i wish you could see your own pain and know why you fall the way you do....i see it....and i know im not the only one on this board.......
this is such a fucking waste of time....i speak to everyone....don't argue anymore...they haven't heard even a word ive said and that's scary.....im sad, let me take this....and i let it disperse....do what u can, ignore them, block them if u must....but don't fall...blessed be.
much love,
Kaitlin
Wolf
another trick. im totalyy serious even if the speaker does not realize it;.....its not real....its NOT real...the compassion...all this bullshit...its the illusion....they want you to see their illusion....the entity DOES want u to feel that bliss so it can ellude you from the actual truth.
fascinating. So i was welcomed into a place where i could get away from all of what i didnt want to be around...be cause what i didnt want to be around was the real truth? Are you referring to the inequality, the judgemental,the hypocritical,the uncaring, the unaware, the unconscious, the violence, the prejudice, the culturally built standards of code to live by that fit neatly into a categorized file. Which was controlled by the media, the radio, the newspapers, the consumer based products, the advertising, the sports , the jobs, the cars, the wallets, the advertising on buses, subway stations, the poor, the sick, the dying , the needy, the scapegoats, the robbers, the housewives, the dogs, the cats, the white picket fences, the mathematically placed streets and stations. The rules the regulations, the laws, the paperwork, the 9-5; monday through friday. the 401kplans, the education systems failing us, failing our children, the scandals, the disinformation, the puppetstrings being pulled in our government, the bills one has to pay, getting jobs based on degree's/diploma's , the corporate sponsors that sponsor themselves through companies that created the sponors, the busystreet lights, the negativity on television, the blood being spilled for land,money and power, the corruption, .........have you ever taken a look at the symbolism our world is? Or the symbolism our dreams are?
Personally speaking, i would rather not enjoy living in a place where i cannot see mother nature for her beauty, after all you cannot really get that in any major populated areas. you get streetlights, chemicals in the sky, i love humanity, and humanity loves me. I was put here by divine plan. I wanted to be somewhere, somewhere where i could be aware, knowing thati would be going to a place that not many people would understand, or comprehend for that matter.I knew i was going somewhere special. I followed my excitement.
Why am i sharing this with you?
love
the human beings in society, are ignorant. period. they are beautiful inside. however unaware on the outside. they know not the meanings of trust your soul. they are judged based on what kind of job they have, by appearance, by personality...yeah, its all love, can i talk to a fellow being about vibrations, energy, fibonacci,golden mean, chakra's, multidimensionality?
ive met few. very few. all the rest havent a clue as to who or what they are, consciously. all i wanted for you was to have a great experience.
so this is where you are at now in life...thats cool..you know..those thoughts you have, are linked to emotions, which are linked to feelings, which is linked to the body?! , you can say that all this is illusion. you really can. it doesnt phase me at all. why? be cause im not dreaming...i can feel for myself..i know what love is...earth=heart sister. im an earth and water sign, im fixed, not naive or ignorant. i dont allow another person to rent space inside of me, i allow the all to flow through me, completely, without blocks. So you're saying that all the people here, are in illusion? EVeryone here is completely understanding about life and family, and being united...its a spiritual community here. Buddhists come here to work..perhaps you reject this be cause you want to justify your choice for staying in boulder with all that which you tend to. if that helps you get through your day, thats cool.
Perhaps trying to see from other members points of view on the board, after being back in boulder..and being in that energy, helped you relate? now im not assuming, im just kind of putting out my feelings in Qform...be cause the choice you made is your choice, and thats that. So theyre kind of rhetorical..
i watched you while you were here..i watched you go through quite an experience while your stay here...i saw you change...ebb and flow..it was definetly an experience for me...so thank you for sharing yourself while you were here..it was truly a blessed experience for all..im sure you might even read this and reject it, and consider it all illusion, another trick, maybe even with subliminal messages embedded in it in the form of transferrable energy through consciousness, by reading the letters, and if thats the case then oops! it looks like i already got you! uh oh!
now you , like everyone , are my family...i would never make a choice that would cause anyone harm,disease or death, why?
i wouldnt do those to myself.
and we are all a reflection of the divine if you know it or not.
loveyouall
Rue
you're also saying that feeling compassion for another is BS?
that statement in itself is belief system,. a program, a thoughtform, with emotion tied to it, however, ever beings desire is to love and be loved.
so again, i restate, compassion is BS? living with your heart is BS? sharing and living from your heart is BS? I guess its BS in a place where its shunned upon yeah, i can see that. I see that as BS. Why? be cause through my own experience of living with the egomind, its only gifted me with wisdom.Wisdom to know that living from the heart is the only place i live from. Why? Planet earth = heart, we have hearts, hearts are consciousness, consciousness from the heart is being one with all.
that wolf has a heart too, and its not as tough as you make it out to be. its like a puppy, just looking to be loved. thats just what i see. so perhaps to you my letters are invalid due to your ignorance. If that's the BS you're slinging around, ill turn the other cheek. are you traumatized from the overwhelming feelings of universal love? if so, remove the block so the universal flow of divine love can flow freely through you, and all you feel is your divine connection with god forever, the way its designed to be.
your divine connection with god = same connection as everyone else.
god = us. we are reflections of the divine, and all have the same connection, without separation,without isolation, in unison. eternally, for infinity.
perhaps that was too real for you and is now considered illusion by your false evidence appearing real.
love
Rue
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Rue,
I do think that you are feeling a bit of what Tear went through. Sometimes...in those quiet moments...things just don't feel right where you are. I might be way off here but I'm just writing what I'm sensing.
We are resisting...pushing back...here on the boards. The natural human tendancy is to push back. If someone is telling you that a choice that you made is wrong...then the human tendancy is to push back...defend your choice.
Yet...perhaps...when you get in that quiet place...you wonder.
Journal, Rue. Write down ALL of those feelings. The feelings of wonder and joy...yes...but don't disqualify the other feelings. Write those down too.
Again...I might be totally off but tonight I am sensing a fear in you that brings out my mom feelings of wanting to comfort and sooth.
Do take care of yourself, Rue.
Much love,
Annette
Anybody who tries to tell you that they are the way or they are the light has, obviously, not met the indigo who has mastered the power of FREEWILL.
STOP (ask me how): http://indigosociety.com/9604-9600-9...604-t4639.html
Interesting...reading about your experience at Crestone reminds me of what a friend of my experienced when out to a some ranch. The move was arranged by a medicine man, I believe, she was told it was going to be great for her & her animals. Well, it wasn't. It took her awhile before she was able to see what everyone else did and even longer for her to move. She's been putting her life back together since then.
So, anywho, thank you for sharing with us your story.
I'd only come here seeking peace
I'd only come here seeking me
It seems I came to leave...
"Dark Angel" ~ VNV Nation
maybe it was too real Rue...so real for me that i was actually able to see past things that either you are unable to see or choose to let be....i just don't know.....i see your passion, no thats not bs....but your not fighting for what you preach and thats what the real deal is....
im not going to argue anymore....
Much love,
Kaitlin
Wolf
Good job Tears. I think the Crestone thing needed to be exposed.I can feel when people are genuine. I am not getting that entirely from the Crestone group. I am getting that have the wool over there eyes and are being manipulated.I am proud of you for this thread. Bravo and this experience you went through and the rejection of it (the whole process) may feel frustrating right now, but you will be so much stronger. I agree with Green guy sometimes the road to awakening is rough but I do believe there are breakthrough points in which it may feel like you have to fight to push ahead and then you bust through better than ever. make this one of these moments for yourself. BIG HUG
People...let Tears have her Truth, her Love, her Peace. If you disagree, it is your right but it will not change how she is. You cannot change a person. They have to let you.
Have some sympathy, Tears. You deserve it. I want this board to move on, but some people are just warriors.
Anyone can be a 人 (ren, human) but it takes a lot to be a person. - Chinese Proverb
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