Well I guess this is part of it...

**J85HUA** · 08-15-2012

Hello to all.
I'm never great at introductions but ill give it a go.
I've been struggling with my abilities for as long as I can remember, I see and feel things that I can't even explain, pick up all kinds of stuff from people around, my moods always seem to have a great impact on those around me. So for the last several years I tried to hide from my abilities and the world but to no avail, you can never really hide from yourself. I'm not sure if I'm an Indigo adult or not, but a lot of the traits certainly hit home for my personality and the way that I perceive the world. I'm definitely and old soul. I've been a mature adult since I was a child, with an understanding of the world that comes from deep within, it's dealing with people and the day to day things I struggle with.
recently I've made a decision to accept myself and start to make positive changes in my life to allow myself to "come out of my shell". I've started walking a new path, not sure where it's leading me just yet but I'm sure it's going to be an interesting journey.
One of the things I want to do is start communicating with other more spiritually aware people. like many of you here, I struggle to get along with the un-awakened, I prefer meaningful discussions over idle chit chat.
I keep being drawn back this website, Reading through forum posts and thinking "I know how you feel". so I'm biting the bullet, diving in, feels like joining this community is part of my journey.
would be interested to know if there are any other members here, down on the bottom of the world near me in Melbourne, Australia.

**beingofindigolight** · 08-18-2012

I live in Ohio but I am right where your at figuratively speaking. You sound like me. Welcome to I.S.

**J85HUA** · 08-19-2012

It certainly seems to be a common theme on here.
I think for many of us, we try our best to see if we can live a "normal" life first, before we are willing to accept that we are far from normal.
I think it's more about us working out what we don't want, so that we can start finally start accepting ourselves and moving forward to what we know is right.

**MrsJD** · 08-19-2012

I was just saying the same thing the other day! I keep being drawn back this website, Reading through forum posts and thinking "I know how you feel". so I'm biting the bullet, diving in, feels like joining this community is part of my journey....

**sentienne** · 08-19-2012

Welcome! This is actually my 2nd incarnation here (on the site). It had been about 3 years since I was on here before. I'm glad I came back.
There really is no point in denying who you are. Embrace it. Wonderful things will happen. <3

**Cryptotich** · 08-19-2012

Originally Posted by J85HUA

Hello to all.
I'm never great at introductions but ill give it a go.
I've been struggling with my abilities for as long as I can remember, I see and feel things that I can't even explain, pick up all kinds of stuff from people around, my moods always seem to have a great impact on those around me. So for the last several years I tried to hide from my abilities and the world but to no avail, you can never really hide from yourself. I'm not sure if I'm an Indigo adult or not, but a lot of the traits certainly hit home for my personality and the way that I perceive the world. I'm definitely and old soul. I've been a mature adult since I was a child, with an understanding of the world that comes from deep within, it's dealing with people and the day to day things I struggle with.
recently I've made a decision to accept myself and start to make positive changes in my life to allow myself to "come out of my shell". I've started walking a new path, not sure where it's leading me just yet but I'm sure it's going to be an interesting journey.
One of the things I want to do is start communicating with other more spiritually aware people. like many of you here, I struggle to get along with the un-awakened, I prefer meaningful discussions over idle chit chat.
I keep being drawn back this website, Reading through forum posts and thinking "I know how you feel". so I'm biting the bullet, diving in, feels like joining this community is part of my journey.
would be interested to know if there are any other members here, down on the bottom of the world near me in Melbourne, Australia.

A few weeks ago I posted something that was almost exactly what you posted.

Mine was a request for help. I was confused about my so called "Abilities". I am afraid that people will think of them as a joke.

So far, I am still struggling with that here. No one has exactly stepped up and offered to help me, so I will do that for you. I can share my experiences, but unfortunately they wont let us do that in a PM till we both have 50 posts. So, you will have to post here again.

You are not alone, and you can post ALL of the things you have seen, and experienced here. For example, I fight daemons. How can I judge you, for anything else?

**sentienne** · 08-19-2012

We are all here to help. Please do not hesitate to ask. Some of us are very old souls, multiple incarnations. Many are extremely comfortable with their abilities. Most, I would say, are still discovering and getting comfortable with new ones. <3

**Cryptotich** · 08-19-2012

I can verify that sentienne is an old soul, and on the side of light.

**J85HUA** · 08-19-2012

I am totally an old soul, wisdom and knowledge that seems to come from nowhere.
I am also extremely intense, lots of energy, enough to affect those around me easily, i have to be really careful with my moods.

One of the past life readings that i had done was an interesting one.
They told me that long ago, one of my incarnations was a giant sea creature that roamed the earth before the tides receaded.
When i asked questions like, "how spiritually in tune was i?" and "how intelligent?", the entire room of people gasped and got thrown back in there chairs.
But something terrible happened in that life that i couldn't deal with, i was separated from the ones i loved and spent the rest of that life wandering alone.
After i passed on, i still couldn't deal with what had happened and went into a "void" to hide for a long time.
Apparently i didn't come back to this planet again until humans were around, so that's a very long time.

I know i was around a few times in some of the more ancient cultures, the Egyptians and similar cultures speak to me in a way that i can't understand.
There is a knowledge that they had that has been lost/burried over time, the way we live now is no where near as in-tune as what they were.
In my heart i know what it is, but my mind is not ready for it yet, when i re-discover it, i want to share it with the world.

I'm getting all kinds of energy waves and shivers writing this today.

**Cryptotich** · 08-19-2012

J8SHUA,

I have no doubt, that you are one of us. But Also believe you are divorced, and you are very angry about it. Notice that you never said anything about your first wife. I am just working through what you said.

You are very angry about your divorce. You can't understand why she said yes to it. She actually did it because you asked for it, she loved you, and wanted to make you happy.

Now knowing that, you need to STOP, with the anger. It is hurting other people.

**J85HUA** · 08-19-2012

I'm not quite sure where you're getting that from. Did you go looking through some of my other posts and put pieces together?
I'm not angry about my divorce. I am freed by the end of that relationship. It was limiting both of us, we were holding each other back in different aspects of our lives.
I am the one who decided to end it, she did agree to it because she still has/had feelings for me, but if there is anger, it's coming from her and not me.

**Cryptotich** · 08-19-2012

J8SHUA,

I have no doubt, that you are one of us. But Also believe you are divorced, and you are very angry about it. Notice that you never said anything about your first wife. I am just working through what you said.

You are very angry about your divorce. You can't understand why she said yes to it. She actually did it because you asked for it, she loved you, and wanted to make you happy.

Now knowing that, you need to STOP, with the anger. It is hurting other people.

**J85HUA** · 08-19-2012

Was that an intentional double post?

**sentienne** · 08-19-2012

I'm wondering where all of this is coming from as well. There's a beautiful liberation that comes at the end of a relationship, even if you weren't the one that wanted it to end. Malice and resentment definitely never serve the purpose of progression, but sometimes take a while to dissipate - especially when there's residual contact with the former involvement.

i think many of us have dove into the void at one or another existence. Personally, when I started to really come into my own in this life - i was about 17.. it really freaked me out and I didn't have a clue what to do with things... so I hid.. and I did so for a long time.. but slowly, the reality of me started creeping back into my life and there wasn't any way I could deny it anymore. it happened slowly at first and then more and more.. I chose to abandon that which was my last connection to "normal". I guess what I'm trying to say is, you're in good company. Incidentally, it was the end of my marriage that really brought me back to my Self. I'm so grateful and honored to have moved on. Welcome, again.

**Cryptotich** · 08-19-2012

Originally Posted by J85HUA

Was that an intentional double post?

Not on purpose, but maybe that is just serendipity.

When I said that I "Sense" something, about you, it didn't come from looking at your other posts. I have never read any of them. And hell after 2 divorces that I forced(for their good?) I might understand where you are coming from.

**J85HUA** · 08-20-2012

It's fascinating that you sensed that. I haven't mentioned anything about my separation in this thread.
First divorce for me, i'll certainly be thinking a lot more about everything before i put a ring on anyone elses finger.
In retrospect though, it's been me that has been the one to end every romantic relationship i've ever had.
Still looking for the one that is going to compliment me and help me grow, not feed off me (subconsciously or otherwise).
I always seem to end up giving too much of myself, not getting what i need in return.

**sentienne** · 08-20-2012

You're not alone in that. I'm the same way - have ended every relationship that I've been in. I'll admit, I've been wary about relationships since my divorce - but at the same time, I've been very clear about what I needed/wanted and if it wasn't presenting itself, I bailed. There've been times when perhaps I could've stuck around a little bit longer, but I'm really glad I didn't.

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Originally Posted by J85HUA

It's fascinating that you sensed that. I haven't mentioned anything about my separation in this thread.
First divorce for me, i'll certainly be thinking a lot more about everything before i put a ring on anyone elses finger.
In retrospect though, it's been me that has been the one to end every romantic relationship i've ever had.
Still looking for the one that is going to compliment me and help me grow, not feed off me (subconsciously or otherwise).
I always seem to end up giving too much of myself, not getting what i need in return.