" wrote:Thank you... I've never been "Read" before and actually told about it. I am very curious.
Hello pumpzen, and thank you for being so patient!
pumpzen...aprehensiveness. There is something you are waiting for, and you're not sure if you want it to happen or not, or maybe not in the way that it looks like its going to happen. Sort of an "I'm excited but a little scared at the same time" mix. Not sure what this would be about - but whatever it is, you know its going to change the way your life is going right now.
As to your energy itself, Have you ever blown a baloon up to the point where you feel sure that it's going to pop? Where the latex is strained to the very limit? That is how I see your energy, only imgaine that instead of air, the baloon is full of liquid, multi-colored liquid that is constantly on the move, shifting and changing and pressing up against the "skin" of the balloon, and you go through moments - days - weeks even when you're sure that you're going to loose it altogether, and then everything will be all right for a while, only to have it bulge out somewhere else entirely. And there's times when you want to just take a pin to it - because then the pressure would be released. But you don't really want that either because you're concerned that just letting go like that might actually hurt some people unintentionally, people who wouldn't understand.
I guess the question is, do you want to go on feeling restrained and contained, or do you want to let it out and be who you really are?