I feel you... I think I also know why you left when you did... I felt the same need many times in my relationship. My advice is to start working with yourself first. This will not take long. A day or two. You need to find this time somehow and spend it just with yourself. I recommend you start meditating. I know; it sounds challenging. Trust me, it is not so hard. I am also new to this and I found out it's quite a pleasurable and much needed activity. By meditation you will find healing of your soul and much more. Youtube will help you with the necessary techniques. Look for "guided meditation".
As far as your actions go, I would advise you to cool it down for the moment and suppress any attempt that you might have to get him to change his mind at this stage. It will not help you in any way if you do otherwise. I understand that yesterday you have established contact. This is good. Now he knows you still have the desire to be with him. But you have to understand. You have probably shocked this man to the core with your unusual behavior. If I were him I probably would have convinced myself during the time alone that you were never to come back, so I would have started the healing process... and you know what the first step is in this healing process, don't you? It's coping with the idea that from now on your life will go on without the other. So you start visualizing all kinds of situations that are to be in the future without your loved one... I know, it's a process that hurts like hell. I've been through it. So now put yourself in his shoes. You have visualized all this future existence without the other, you started to get used to the idea, you even had moments of optimism when you said to yourself that maybe it's a positive thing and that you should make some kind of masterplan in which to turn the negative into positive and switch your existence completely to the better. And one day what happens? This significant one (in this case you) calls you and announces you that they have changed their mind. For you, this is AGAIN another paradigm shift. It's like an emotional rollercoaster. That's why I say... leave him be for a while... just as you provided him the time to get used to the "without you" idea... now let him digest this new "with you" idea. Think about it... we are not robots. We can't switch that fast. We need a little bit of time...
Anyway, let me tell you something... we really are special in a lot of ways. Many people find it difficult not to love us
. Some can get really frustrated because of this, cause they also consider us a little bit crazy :confused:, but they can't stop the love from happening!
I love you and wish you much happiness!