Prozac Destroys Your You

[Austin]

I realized that the prozac took away everything I had in my mind that I loved. It took away all of my talents and I was left with no emotions except for extreme numbness, and dreadful cycles of anxiety and fear. I have just been off prozac for almost 3 weeks. The first week I felt amazing and completely like my self again. Around the second week I think I turned into how the prozac made me feel when I was on it, again even though I wasn't taking it. I feel numb, lost, dreadful, painful, lost all creativity, lost my eye for "beauty," my artisitic vision, I feel like I have completely turned into another human being with some some mundane strengths completely different and much weaker than the ones I had without prozac before. How come I started to feel like myself again, and it was so violently taken away from me? What is most horrifying is that this is how I felt when I was on the damn drug. I don't even know if it is in my system anymore, it probably is. Why I am I the only one who suffers from this half ass pill? Please just help me. Will this other person go away. I want myself effing back! I look at pictures of my twinflame i have talked about, and I hate my TWINFLAME now. I still feel a really odd connection though. The last thing I did before this bizarre backlash was a reading speed increasing exercise (eye-q) which was really tiring on my eyes, but I don't know how it could have possibly triggered the prozac in me or made me feel like I was on prozac. I have also been to this arrowsmith school, which increases brain activity, which may have done this to me, but how come I felt better when I was getting off of the pill and nothing when getting off of arrowsmith program. I quit arrosmith long before I quit Prozac. Actually prozac doesn't deserve to be capitalized. Just help me please.

[Thomas12]

I realized that the prozac took away everything I had in my mind that I loved. It took away all of my talents and I was left with no emotions except for extreme numbness, and dreadful cycles of anxiety and fear. I have just been off prozac for almost 3 weeks. The first week I felt amazing and completely like my self again. Around the second week I think I turned into how the prozac made me feel when I was on it, again even though I wasn't taking it. I feel numb, lost, dreadful, painful, lost all creativity, lost my eye for "beauty," my artisitic vision, I feel like I have completely turned into another human being with some some mundane strengths completely different and much weaker than the ones I had without prozac before. How come I started to feel like myself again, and it was so violently taken away from me? What is most horrifying is that this is how I felt when I was on the damn drug. I don't even know if it is in my system anymore, it probably is. Why I am I the only one who suffers from this half ass pill? Please just help me. Will this other person go away. I want myself effing back! I look at pictures of my twinflame i have talked about, and I hate my TWINFLAME now. I still feel a really odd connection though. The last thing I did before this bizarre backlash was a reading speed increasing exercise (eye-q) which was really tiring on my eyes, but I don't know how it could have possibly triggered the prozac in me or made me feel like I was on prozac. I have also been to this arrowsmith school, which increases brain activity, which may have done this to me, but how come I felt better when I was getting off of the pill and nothing when getting off of arrowsmith program. I quit arrosmith long before I quit Prozac. Actually prozac doesn't deserve to be capitalized. Just help me please.

I have never taken any anti-depressants myself, but I highly recommend that you check all internet-pages which relate to prozac and the symptoms of taking it and getting off. I am sure you will get many insights (should you not have already done it). My body does not agree with intake of medicaments, I only take natural stuff, and there are really great things which are free to buy and which equalize the feelings and moods to the better.

[taichimaster]

hi there austin

there is a wonderful cure for depression, where ar eyou located, city and state?

I am a student of acupuncture and chinese medicine and i've seen my acupuncturist treat many cases of depression, people who were on many medications..... who go on to live their own happy lives, without any medication.

but you have to find a good acupucntuirst, which is hard but i am sure i can help you find one.

email me

ChineseMedicine@GMail.com =]

[Austin]

Hi. I guess I am here, barely. My thougts are so distant and I call them, in what seems through a grey pulpy mess. Besides my body there is the other world in me, yet covered in black veins. That world, my other self (maybe the remaining bits of my soul), with veins black, with spitting darkness, over the crying broken shards, of the same grey, sick color!!!! I have never felt a disconnection from god, when I cared. I am pretty much gone, depleted of my rights of pleasure here on this dry plain. I literally feel sick as well. All of the time. I am wounded and it doesn't feel like I could ever get up. But I will never loose hope. I have loved unconditionally a person who I have never met. Now, completely cut off from that euphoria, I feel even more empty. Anyway... I have tried acupuncture. I really apreciate you guys replying to this by the way. Even if it is morbid. I have not been on here for so long, I haven't even read what I wrote at the begining of this thread. It is too painful. Anyway, I am seeing my acupuncturist tommorrow again. I am just writing because I need to write. I need to actually feel again and know that people somewhere are listening. This, what I am going through isn't depression. It is making me depressed, morbidly, but it in itself is not depression. Trust me, I have experienced plenty enough of depression to know the difference anyway

I wish I could write more but you would have to flip pages by the end of it.

[rary7]

Many are listening here,it is good that you can talk and write of your pain,hard but it helps alot to let it out and face it.

[taichimaster]

hey people, a good acupuncturist should give you huge differences within 1-2 weeks and most of the treatmetn should be done in a month.

if it's taking longer than that, email me and i can refer someone good to you. just let me know the location/state

Chinesemedicine@gmail.com

[EnemyAtLineSix]

hey people, a good acupuncturist should give you huge differences within 1-2 weeks and most of the treatmetn should be done in a month.

if it's taking longer than that, email me and i can refer someone good to you. just let me know the location/state

Chinesemedicine@gmail.com

think you could show me some tai chi?

[ethtardo]

yeah,taichi seems interesting...

[Austin]

For some reason my life energy is depleted. I feel like I can't even move sometimes, and all I see is black cloaked figures that looked like death. My nerves, my senses, everything is poisoned and are tense, darting, high, and confused. My thoughts are a blur, and literally everything around me is a blur. I can not impress apon you how much I loved someone, without even us meeting! How can I suddenly hate this person so much and feel like I can't connect AT ALL, with that "me" inside me, my inner peace or wisdom, my guides, my love, my inspiration, my beauty, ANYTHING! NEVER have I felt this before. And I have experienced serious phobias, and severe anxiety attacks, and I mean SERIOUS. I want to love. I want to feel like I can do things again. I can't do anything! I am so lost and hopeless. My eyes feel weird and druggy and fuzzy and are pulsing. My tinnitus is there all of the time. I can't picture anything insde my head. OH GOD!! What has happened? Will this go away? I have read that if you have a bad reaction to coming off the drug you experience severe hypersensitivity of the nervous system, and your mind literally plays tricks on you, and your serotonin is completely confused. It takes 18 months for you to feel better. I feel better than when I first came off but I am still suffering beyond any kind of fairness. I can barely cope with this anymore, AND I DON'T CARE IF THIS SOUNDS MELODRAMATIC! I just need to write, and talk. I know smart people are listening. I tried the acupuncture for one day. I think I felt pretty good after, didn't cure anything and there wasn't a big change, but I felt a little better. I think I am going to go back tommorrow.

[Austin]

Hey, I need to know, if I am really going to do acupuncture, does acupuncture have a stimulating or sedating effect on your body? A website I read about people who have a bad reaction to coming of an SSRI says that our nervous systems are completely @#$%^% up, and can't handle really any kind of stimulation. Even eating acidic foods will be too stimulating to my body. My nervous system is so screwy that I feel prickling sensations and weird uncomfortable brain shivers a lot. Its scary. I am also cold all of the time, but I don't know if that has to do with my nervous system. Its probably a little more complicated about the acupuncture, but taichimaster or anyone, could you let me me know please? Thanks.

[ethtardo]

if im getting this correctly..u lost a loved one?at least someone u loved?

if thats the case,ive went thru that and maybe still is going thru that..
i went into drugs and at that time i believed that drugs was the one thing that i owe my life to.i did notice that i lost my sense of "self".my worldly body and mind lost its bond with my soul.my intuition was practically shut off (or i just couldnt make it out)..

to cut the long process short..i decided i missed myself so damn much,im gonna quit the drugs even if i have to die doing that.
so i checked into rehab,where i really had no friends (readeople who stood by me and gave me more drugs for the sake of fun and getting high).all i had was silence,and in those time of silence,i learned that when i did drugs,i did more damage to my soul other than my body and mind and brain cells,etc..i had to by myself,gain back the trust of my soul towards my mind and everyone else.

i know for sure,the soul i have right now is stronger than ever,and i owe it all to those times.its a process..its gonna be one hell of a ride,but itll be worth it..its gonna take up lots of ur time,emotions,tears,etc,but ull gain a self-respect for urself.

noone will love me more than i love my soul.narcism?lol..i dont think so..

and btw,im still in rehab right now..so i still remember all the feelings ur going thru,the pain,the "i cant take another day of this"...i remember those feelings as if it happened yesterday..lol maybe it did happen yesterday..
learning is a never ending process..

all the best,

Ethan

sorry for rambling on

[ocean_soul]

Austin, your complaints of constantly being tired makes me wonder if perhaps you have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. There are lots of other things that could be causing you to be drained, perhaps you want to see a doctor and get a diagnosis? And if you're a bit leary going to a doctor about this (given your reaction to Prozac), just remember that they can write you a prescription for every medicine in the world...you don't have to fill a single one of them. Getting the problem diagnosed allows you to find treatment that you're comfortable with.

I also can't help but wonder if it might be that something negative is feeding off of your energies. At least that's what your descriptions of seeing hooded figures, the anxiety attacks, phobias, being unable to connect with your "you," and hating the person you loved makes me think of. Perhaps you might want to get some sort of energy healing as well to get rid of any negativite entity that might be attached to you? Of course, since all these treatments could get quite pricy, perhaps doing something as simple as eating more garlic might be able to help with getting rid of negative attachments. It also acts as a natural antibiotic, so if nothing else I don't think it would be bad for you...

Well, those are my thoughts at least. I'm far from qualified to be diagnosing anyone with anything...but I totally sympathize with anyone who's had a negative reaction to a med that was supposed to help them. *pats* Hope things get better for you soon.

[Austin]

Ethan, I know what you mean. Thanks for sharing that with me I really apreciate it. When I do feel myself, and I actually feel my soul again, I feel like I am made of steel. So I totally agree. I really wish you the best in your recovery, and in a way going through this will make us strong powerful human beings I know it. Dealing with drugs of any kind, WILL alter your mind and body which will obviously effect your connection with your soul. But I have felt my soul brefly here and there so I know it is not gone. Even SSRI have profound changes on your brain, especially if you have a bad reaction to it, I can't imagine what "high" drugs could do to your body and peace of mind. I know that it is not that common for someone to have this kind of reaction to an SSRI, but there are still lots of them who are and they are suffering. It will be a very slow and long process but I know in my heart, that I will feel myself fully again and be much more of a stronger person. It shouldn't take too long. According to a website it takes about 18 months for your body to find some sort of balance. Scary isn't it? I MIGHT EVEN SUE THE DRUG COMPANY! (When I am older) Anyway, thanks for sharing that with me. I know I will make a full recovery. And you didn't ramble! You haven't damaged your soul, your soul is invincible, but it can be covered or muffled a little sometimes, like when your body is dealing with toxic substances like drugs, but that is NOT permanent damage to your soul in any way.

[Austin]

Austin, your complaints of constantly being tired makes me wonder if perhaps you have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. There are lots of other things that could be causing you to be drained, perhaps you want to see a doctor and get a diagnosis? And if you're a bit leary going to a doctor about this (given your reaction to Prozac), just remember that they can write you a prescription for every medicine in the world...you don't have to fill a single one of them. Getting the problem diagnosed allows you to find treatment that you're comfortable with.

I also can't help but wonder if it might be that something negative is feeding off of your energies. At least that's what your descriptions of seeing hooded figures, the anxiety attacks, phobias, being unable to connect with your "you," and hating the person you loved makes me think of. Perhaps you might want to get some sort of energy healing as well to get rid of any negativite entity that might be attached to you? Of course, since all these treatments could get quite pricy, perhaps doing something as simple as eating more garlic might be able to help with getting rid of negative attachments. It also acts as a natural antibiotic, so if nothing else I don't think it would be bad for you...

Well, those are my thoughts at least. I'm far from qualified to be diagnosing anyone with anything...but I totally sympathize with anyone who's had a negative reaction to a med that was supposed to help them. *pats* Hope things get better for you soon.

Thanks, I honestly think those feelings are bodily connected. I think the negative energy is the toxins in my body, and I have trouble detoxing. Scientifically, I have read that it is all serotonin related. BY THE WAY, do you know SSRI's does the exact same thing to your serotonin as cocaine does to your dopamine!!! Yeah. I will be interesting to try that garlic thing, because I totally beleive in those kinds of things. But I feel like something like that wouldn't bring me down into this mental confusion. I also haven't had one of those moments in a while. Withdrawal symptoms also include serious fatigue problems, so I am not sure I have a syndrome, I can still ask my doctor though . I still feel weak all of the time, and my heart is pounding against my chest all of the time (I can also hear it in my ears). My chest hurts. My vision is a mess. And I constantly feel brain shivers, like weird tickling sensations all over my head, and I feel like I have been held upside down for five minutes and all the blood has rushed to it. I also have really annoying tinnitus, 24/7. Every time I eat it makes everything worse, and I don't know why! My whole head is high but heavy, like I have a head rush 24/7. I can't picture anything in my head barely, so I can't make art or use my imagination barely. Sorry, I hate to bore you (if I am), it helps me when I write though. It really does! I really want to see a spiritualist though. One told me that I had thousands of angels protecting me, and I can have anything I want. Are they gone? Did they leave me? I haven't gone to school in a year and a half, first because of clinical depression, now because these horrble freak zone symptoms that never seem to go away, after discontinuing a stupid anti-depressant! I can barely handle sitting on my $!@ and watching tv, so going to school will be very overwhelming for me. When I try relaxing and deep breathing I almost black out, so obviously thats not a great idea. Anyway I really appreciate your help. I really do. You bring me comfort and hope. Thank you

[ethtardo]

agree..thanks

[Marie]

I think that grief can make us tired sometimes. Sometimes we think that we can have a loss and then move on without any effects-whether it be emotially or physically. However much we try to hide/cover/blunt pain from grief/loss, it will always manifest in other ways. I know. I lost my aunt to cancer, whom I was extremely close to. In fact I was closer to her than my own mother. She was like my mum. I tried many ways to not feel the pain/blunt the pain. What happened? I became physicall ill. I only began to feel better after I went to counselling and had a big fat cry.

Marie

[Austin]

I am in more greif now of couse. But it is hard to explain. Thanks for all of your replies, I really apreciate it. I am sorry I wasn't very clear, I haven't exactly lost someone, I was in love with someone who I haven't met, sounds kind of silly right, I really thought this person was my soulmate! I still sort of think we have some sort of connection spiritually I guess, though. But this person is with someone else now . So I am really happy now. I hope you pick up on my sarcasm . I am very hurt, yet the information about them actually being a couple and living with eachother is not quite clear and possibly might not be true so I am still sort of waiting (It based on "sources" and not actually their words, they say they aren't dating, but still... people lie about dating in that business all of the time!), but then I start to feel like I am in denial about them and kind get resentful. Anyway, I know I haven't met this person but technically according to the stars we are twinflames. Sure you could say our planets being linked is a coincidence and I reading too much into it, but I found out about the planets after I felt really bizarre feelings while looking at footage and pictures of TF. Heh, but I guess it isn't going to work out right!!!! Maybe one day. I am sure I sound exremely confusing, But I love writing. I feel kinda better already. I can't beleive I am actually sharing this. Its kind of embarassing!!!

Marie, I know what you mean about crying and feeling better

[Thomas12]

Hi Austin,

Of course I can not judge if that person is really your twinflame. But eeven if one meets the twinflame in many cases it just does not work out as the two are two similiar.

Just a thought here. BTW my twinflame is in the heavens and I can contact her anytime.

[GUy]

ddg

[Amur]

Most drugs seem to have negative adverse effects on the body/psyche and seems to zombify more than doing good (well it also of course has something to do with how one perceives the world and medication in general, as most would get healed by only eating placebos I think it already illustrates something about what people believe about medication). But now that I'm over with all medication I definately feel alot better and can start actually living my own life again (Thanks again to the fuckers prescribing that medicine keeping me thinking that I need it lol).

Got a technique which you can use to heal up all blockages and clockages inside and definately those black hoaded figures will vanish in a snap, pm me if you want it / interested and I can tell you more about it...