Metaphysics

[Soulsearcher29]

Hi everyone, okay, we were discussing something on another board and that is why I wanted to post this site. Just for you (FYI) I personally believe that science, religion and spirituality all are the same thing, people are just looking at them with different perspections, some by faith, some by word of their religion and some by physical proof. I wanted to post this site to give some insight on this, this doesnt explain everything, but there is some good material in here that might be helpful to some of you on your journey.

http://www.whatismetaphysics.com/met...God.htmlourney.

Why I believe what I do

I was raised in a baptist church, never understood it as a child, but got the basic principles...ten commandments and such. My dad also attended the pentacostal church because his best friend was a preacher, but if I didnt have to go, I didnt. I carried only from what I was taught as a kid into my adulthood and something very extraordinary happened about 5 years ago that changed the way I would think forever. Please read my story

About 8 years ago, I came across a website dedicated to a murdered toddler, it was a world wide national headline at the time it happened, but I was a kid when it happened and didnt pay much attention to it. This time, I came upon this website by accident was drawn in to read all the details. I read them and cried so hard I could barely read the screen. This story is one that is still circulating through chainletters and all through the web. It is still one that so many people are drawn to, it brought the best and worst out in a whole nation. I probably had my faith tested, after all, if God couldnt or didnt help this little boy, how could he help me or anyone else? I prayed anyways, probably because I wanted to believe he was safe, that their was something out there, but I have to be honest with you, from my own life, I had learned to rely on myself and thought I didnt need God or that he didnt exist, besides if he cared about me, why would he let all these bad things happen to me through out my childhood, why is there so much suffering in this world??? Why do children have to die? Why are innocent people abused, tortured and murdered? Besides all these questions, I still prayed and prayed, I dont know why, hoping I guess that something was there. I was not attending church and had not attended church in well over 10 years. A few years later after I read about this child I had forgotten because of my own life and dealing with my own issues that I had completely forgotten him, if only momentarily.

I was up late one night, going over some bills and finally getting some of them paid off. It was getting late and my boys had school in the morning and my husband leaves for work at 6 a.m. I started putting all the bills away, but I wasnt tired, I feeling very energetic, very happy to finally be getting those bills paid that have kept me awake for so many nights. I put everything up, did my rounds, locked doors, checked on my boys and got in my nightgown and went to my room. I saw my husband was asleep and pulled up the covers and laid down. No sooner than I shut my eyes, I saw something very weird. It wasnt the usual darkness I see, It was light, like grey and white fog. It was if, I wasnt even in my body, it was like I was nowhere...but somewhere at the same time. I wasnt scared, but caught off guard because then the fog started to move and as it did, two little round blue eyes came out of this fog, they were a darker hue of blue, with light shining out from them. The fog kept moving to the left, and as it did, there stood the outlining of a child, he took the form of an electrical outlining, or the only way I can explain this is, he was energy taking form. I could see his clothing, which were knee knocker shorts, a white shirt of somesort and socks pulled up to his knees. I would estimate his age of about 2 or 3 years of age. There he stood staring at me...I will never forget that, like he was looking straight through me, to my soul. I could see wind blowing through his hair, although I couldnt feel anything. The fog kept passing and as it did, there stood an angel, glowing with light all around her. She wasnt like the angels I had seen in Sunday school growing up, she was much taller, and her wings were huge, way bigger than her body, they rose way above her head, about twice the size of her body. The texture of them were like those on a dove. She was glowing, light was coming from everywhere on her, it was as if this light was glowing from inside out. She was facing the little boy as he stared at me, then the little boy turned around to skip off and as he skipped up the second time, she grabbed him from under his arms playfully,like a mother would her child and lifted him up towards the sky and they both disappeard into what seemed like an orb of light. Everything went black or back to normal. That was the first time I had ever seen anything like that. I sat straight up in bed, not knowing what had happened. I had no time to be scared or even think as this was happening as it happened so fast. It was probably an estimated time of maybe 5 or 6 seconds, but it seemed much longer. I cant even describe how I felt because I didnt know what had happened, and I questioned right after if it was real or not because my mind could not comprehend it. Instead of staying up and pondering it, I couldnt comprehend it so I decided to not think about it and went on to bed. Now the next day I woke up and it was still in the back of my mind, but I still couldnt grasp it, let alone tell anyone about it. I had no idea who the child was at all, I had no idea what happened. I guess you could say, in hindsight, I might have been in
"shock" as I couldnt deal with it and didnt really acknowledge that it happened until several days later. I couldnt understand in my mind, if I was hallucinating, which this would be the first time that happened and the last. Another thing I couldnt understand after I did accept several days or weeks later, was why the little boy looked like energy? I had never even heard of that before, never heard anything about God being energy or vibrations, never heard about science and religion going hand in hand, never saw the correlation. It wasnt until much time later, that I accepted the experience, whether it was a hallucination or a vision from God really didnt matter at this point, I knew nobody would believe me so I never told anyone. It wasnt until much later that I pulled up energy and the word God that I found out that many spiritual teachings already knew this, or it was what they believed. I never knew this as my idea of spirits, were like ghost, they would be somewhat transparent or hazy and God was like this King that sat on a throne in the sky, deciding who was worthy to stay and who wasnt. This is what set me on my journey to find out more about science, spirituality even religion...and honestly for me, religion has been the most difficult to put into perspective because I have a bible and I never even thought to look at things symbolically or metaphorically...I just took it as the word. Now looking back, I can see on my own journey, how it correlates to my life. I have learned through many experiences not to label or put things in a box, to keep an open mind, to see things from everyones perspective and just because it didnt happen to me, doesnt mean it didnt happen at all. Just keep searching, keep an open mind about all possibilities, dont shut down for too long and wave away somebodys experience because oneday it could happen to you, and nobody will believe it. These are miracles that people talk about everyday, and yet, we miss them, because somebody else has told us it wasnt real, it is impossible, we alone tell ourselves that, because nobody else believes. What happens to you, is between you and God....and it is meant for you. We will never know until we die, as far as we know right now, how God works, how all things are related, how all these different things play out in our universe. Dont let anybody tell you that there is no God, or there is nothing, that is the path they are walking, it is not yours. You will see things, hear things, dream things, have visions, have many things that were meant for you when the time is right...when the student is ready, the teacher will teach. We are not always ready when we think we are, because we want proof, or because we have convinced ourselves the time is right, we are not always ready because what we will learn will go beyond our five senses, beyond our perceptions of what is normal to us. It is a Godly experience...not a humanly experience.