I think I need some help here...

[peacestar]

Hi guys, it's nice to look around this society.
well, i'm not really sure where to put this thread actually. but i think i need some (your) help.

i'm not really sure if i'm an indigo, but most of the aura tests i took from the internet indicates that i'm an indigo or a crystal. i feel that my aura is crystal, referring to Pamala Oslie's website i score 12 on crystal and 10 on indigo and lavender.

however, recently i feel so spacy. i feel like my body and my soul are not really connected. i feel like floating. i feel like i don't belong to the place where i live -not exactly the earth, but here in my place-.
i often see something like 'flash' light -as in a camera- from behind me, left side more often. i also experience the unusual feelings where i think/sense that there is "something" around me. sometimes i would like to say it out loud to other people that i feel this or that way, but i sense that people will not understand me. i hesitated.
there are experiences where i kind of like knowing what people wants, especially those who are closely related to me, without them telling it to me. then they will react like: 'how do you know i was thinking about that?'
and i couldn't explain and plainly said: just guessing. but i think it was not that simple.
there are still many things that happened, but i felt so confuse to tell it.
i feel so confused, lonely, lost and cranky -but i don't express that crankiness in order not to make others cranky as well-.

can anyone help me by 'seeing' what is wrong with me? is it just my imagination, my unconsciousness arising, or is it something else?

PS: i'm a religious person, but i do believe that people have gifts from the 'Highest' no matter what/who they are. that's why i'm counting on your gifts. tell me if you need pictures.

thx a lot!

[Hearsekid]

if I can see you I can get a feel for you and maybe I can tell you something

[Calibas]

Sounds like you doubt yourself and aren't sure what to do with your life. Perhaps some big changes are in order.

[peacestar]

i'm not doubting, i just need some explanation on what is going on with myself. some people called me 'strange'... and i think that i have an explanation for it, i just can't express it by words.

[Hearsekid]

dude, trust me, ur not strange, everybody else is strange, we're not strange, I used to hate getting called strange......

[xoxos]

i'm counting on your gifts.

count on your own perhaps half the people on this forum are as likely to inhibit you instead of respect you. if there is a dark presence in your life, you have the best perspective to identify it.

[Calibas]

i'm not doubting, i just need some explanation on what is going on with myself. some people called me 'strange'... and i think that i have an explanation for it, i just can't express it by words.

You're transitioning into a higher dimensional consciousness.

[Patryc]

from what you said of the Aura you have high marks for both - that seems to come up for people in transition from Indigo to Crystal

really though, read the site thoroughly - there is a lot of info here

you are the best one to decide if you are, you know yourself better than anyone here

[Indigo Fire Dragon]

Sorry to be sensible check yourself first, hormones etc if you are female, ear problems and illness can cause stuff, if you are fine physically then I wouldn't worry you are just becoming more aware. Indigo, crystal lightworker to me they are all the same, don't get hung up on what you are as we all come from the same energy. Ground yourself by visualising a shield round you of white energy and visualise that energy going into the earth and anchoring you there. This is what I do, or and I know I keep saying this (other threads) get a black tourmaline or hematite crystal which will ground you. Smoky quartz is also good for this. (:

[TimeForm]

If you're feeling out of touch with your body, like you're not connected to it, gorunding can be like a miracle solution. I have the same problem. Try grounding yourself and see if that helps.

[peacestar]

ok. thx for replying.
i'm a female and am physically healthy. people said that it is my own imagination and it comes from my unconsciousness arousal. even some of them said that i'm being 'tricked' by evil spirits.

when i meditate, i feel like there is energy coming out of my hands, and i sense (i use the word 'sense' to differenciate it with 'see') indigo/violet colour in front of my forehead. often during my meditation, i sense some images of people i don't know / never met before. it seems they came from many places, different time and era, various age, etc.
who are they?

i twice had an experience of making people better from aches (not healing, but just better)
if 'these' are gifts, how do you use it?
-i don't have any indigo relatives or friends to ask, they are just rational people-

[peacestar]

thx lavella. guess what? when i read your reply, i was just reading the meditation thread that you mentioned....yieks....!!!

[{{d*@*b}}]

From what I have studied it sounds like you are transitioning. I am also going through similar types of changes. The color of the third eye chakra is a deep dark blue or purple, indigo basicly. The third eye is the pineal gland which is between the 2 hemispheres of the brain right behind the forhead a little above the end of the nose bone. Sounds like different things are activating. Study well and make your own conclusion but that is what I have found. Just keep pushing these gifts forward experiment with them and don't worry everyone is strange that is part of the beauty of being human.

[peacestar]

is it possible to have a transition into crystal without being indigo? i don't feel like an indigo, but during this past few years (since i'm 21-22 to be more exact) i feel 'different' --> maybe this is the one where i should use the word "indigo". FYI, the word indigo starts being popular in my country just a few years ago -again, when i'm 21-22-
i don't feel like a purely indigo, but crystal's characteristics do match me a lot.
so i am wondering....???

[{{d*@*b}}]

Research online and off line. How is the universe presenting information to you? What does it mean? I don't like most of the descriptions of indigo myself they sound kind of like an ADD description. They don't sound like an indigo wrote them. So find out your truth and report back to us

[Benares]

Welcome to the great world of awakening. Some people will call it that and leave it at that, and tell you to get on with it. Many of those people are forgot the compassion of those who helped them when times were tough. Needless to say, I am not one of those people

My first suggestion would be to research into energetic grounding. That will help a lot with the spaciness issue, and make it easier to integrate the new and exciting things that are happening. Growth is a wonderful thing! However, we must always have periods of integration after growth, or else we will never be able to apply the new things we are learning and the gifts we are coming into.

There are many ways to ground. For me, there are two separate techniques that I like to combine to get myself fully grounded. I will regurgitate them from my memory, here.

Waterfall Grounding Method

Start by sitting in a comfortable chair or outside (outside, up against a tree may be best for attempting these exercises initially, to get used to the grounded feeling), with your feet on or near the ground if possible. Don't cross your legs. Take a few deep, relaxing breaths, and close your eyes. Envision yourself sitting underneath a waterfall, running even further beneath your feet than the location that you are sitting. While underneath this waterfall, feel and see all of the excess energy travel down your body, down your legs, and into the water and earth. Do this for as long as necessary until you feel more connected and focused. Eventually, you will be able to do this without even sitting down or closing your eyes.

Tree Roots Grounding Method

Again, start by sitting in a comfortable chair or outside (outside, up against a tree may be best for attempting these exercises initially, to get used to the grounded feeling), with your feet on or near the ground if possible. Don't cross your legs. Take a few deep, relaxing breaths, and close your eyes. Envision yourself sitting, as you are in your chair or on the ground. Now, see large tree-like roots extending from the bottoms of your feet and the base of your spine. See them extending into the Earth, all the way to the very core of the Earth. Now, as you travel back up these roots to your body, see infinite smaller roots coming out of these three main roots and into other parts of the Earth. As you come back into view of your body, see rainbow colors of energy flowing all the way down your body and down those roots, into the Earth. Ask your body to help you ground (Doesn't this sound quirky?). Sit with this as long as you need to.

Many times, like I mentioned, I will now combine these two methods when walking down the street or talking to someone. As you practice them more and more, they get easier.

The other great way to assist in grounding is by wearing gemstones that facilitate grounding. I would suggest hematite, as it is readily available and inexpensive. Possibly a hematite bracelet or necklace would do the trick. Periodically run the hematite under water for a few minutes to make sure that it stays clean.

While seeking help from others is alright, I have found that it was always within my best interest if someone taught me how to take matters into my own hands. It helped empower me, and I hope that it helps you do the same.

This is a great life we live, Peacestar. One full of love and wonder. I hope this helps you on your journeys.

Blessings,
John

[peacestar]

thank you, i'll try that. wierd enough, i think i had done it sometime and somewhere before....hmm..

[Benares]

Peace Star....
welcome to IS....you found a spot that is very supportive and provides a lot of information...
there is a search box,,,,,for specific questions...
it sounds like you are awakening.
aware people are more likely to see things ,,,,,"normal" people dont see.
and able to sense things "normal" people dont sense.
I prefer to think normal is the setting on a washing machine..but there are some very spirited people in here that are fun,,,,,funny and not likey to be normal....and dang proud of it.

relax,,,,,and let it come...
I recomend you read the mediation thread posted by sshenry,,,,there is a rush of things going on and medation slows down the noise....and gives a person much clarity.
there is many people that have the sensing you speak of.
poke around the threads for a bit.
you are going to find some amazing people in here,,,,and a few of them are going to sound like they peeked in your diary,,,
start by picking a topic and when you have a question jump in on a thread and ask.

the people you are seeing from different eras,,,,,are just that.
the answers to all your questions are within you...
i can tell you not to be scared....what is happening is very good..and a lot of people will not understand what you are talking about..
the people in here do.
welcome to the group.
peace
lavella

All very wise words from a very wise person. <3

I wouldn't be surprised if you had done some of these things subconsciously, or in another life, if you believe in that sort of thing.

John

[heartcurves]

i'm not doubting, i just need some explanation on what is going on with myself. some people called me 'strange'... and i think that i have an explanation for it, i just can't express it by words.

I think you're awakening your enlightened state of being. It's a good thing, try not to fear it, or the spirit world. If you think you see light behind you, it's possible angels might be following you around. The feeling of a presence can mean many things. Spirit Guide, Angels, A ghost that hasn't moved on yet... There's a lot of possibilities. Maybe even spirits who have moved on. The floating feeling could be partial astral projection.

[peacestar]

hmm...sounds awesome!...