Oh there is the truth now :'(

[erikomaxie]

i just talked to that guy today again and we found out there is one possiblity of how come i could feel him and yet i might not be anything but a normal person. :'(

that is .. if he really wanted me to feel what he was feeling then i wuld feel it even tho i m a typical girl ...coz once he was disconnected from me i felt nth but normal again . ah this sucks....i m a muggle!!!

but then i would think .. he wouldnt want me o feel he was anxious ...? coz idid feel that before he disconnected with me. he said i was different ... and yet duno what is different about me. yea i wold think it would be my soul is crooked or sth like that lol

but yea thats what i come up with right now!

i m so sad coz i was gonna go out tonight but my fds just called right after i finished with my makeup that its cancelled!! i m so pissed and upset !!

[LunarKismet]

I wouldn't go by the single opinion of someone, personally, and there's nothing wrong with being "normal", if you are. Don't worry about labels. It is infinitely more important that you are using your head and thinking, knowing, and feeling what is around you, in all its glory, than if you are an "indigo" or whatnot.

We all have our place in this world and the next, and are all meant to serve some purpose, whatever that might be; none lesser than the other.

Don't panic.

[erikomaxie]

thanks but i guss i have trouble figuring out what my purpose is in this world .. coz i have always felt i m going to be something . and yet it seems like i m getting older and older and older and i m losing hope.

anything special about me woud be that i hav ethe ability to mak ppl feel extremely bad when i m feeling bad... its like they can sense a huge black cloud around me and when theyre with me theyre all sad and depressed too... ha but i guess it snot godo lik ethat

or i might just be a hella depressed person. i m pessimistic i know that and i dun have much friends.

[Gyd]

thanks but i guss i have trouble figuring out what my purpose is in this world .. coz i have always felt i m going to be something . and yet it seems like i m getting older and older and older and i m losing hope.

anything special about me woud be that i hav ethe ability to mak ppl feel extremely bad when i m feeling bad... its like they can sense a huge black cloud around me and when theyre with me theyre all sad and depressed too... ha but i guess it snot godo lik ethat

or i might just be a hella depressed person. i m pessimistic i know that and i dun have much friends.

Good morning world....its 4:20 and I'm fighting Southern Cal freeway traffic
on my way to work....KGO blasting on my radio.....oooooo
just saw some road rage....anyway..lol..lol..

have you been tested for bipolarity?

[erikomaxie]

no . i dun think i have it ~ i heard ppl with that are a lil bit scarier than how i m ..i m more like very depressed right now
i feel liek i want to suck everytihing into me or draw everything i can find to me.. this feeling is terrible...

[t1mb3rl1n3]

namaste friend
be well....rest your head and dream of trees
Gaia holds you close, your pain is felt
you are not alone

adumbrae otium


namaste

[LunarKismet]

You are not alone, Erikomaxie. Relax and feel and it will pass; encompass.

I am sending loving energy and light your way. I hope you receive it well

[erikomaxie]

Thanks u guys... loving energy .. is just what i need right now.. a lot of it .. and i m afraid i would suck ppl dry of it .. like if i could,,, coz the feeling i m feeling right now is like.. my mind went insane and wants to just SUCK EVERYONES SOUL OUT .. i know that snot what i want to do literally or else i would be ,,,, crazy. i just like to visualize stuff..

i m like other girls i need to talk talk talk talk talk and talk and talk talk talk .................................................. .........................

i dunno if i really felt your energy .. but i did feeel better ... whoa.. !

i wish someone can just tel me what is wrong with me. ugh what am i other than being just a skin sag~

[LunarKismet]

Would you like to talk about it over an IM program? Whatever you're going through right now, I've most likely been through it, and I'm a natural empath/healer.

Driven to help.

[erikomaxie]

Would you like to talk about it over an IM program? Whatever you're going through right now, I've most likely been through it, and I'm a natural empath/healer.

Driven to help.

i will pm u then... thx..

[Gyd]

no . i dun think i have it ~ i heard ppl with that are a lil bit scarier than how i m ..i m more like very depressed right now
i feel liek i want to suck everytihing into me or draw everything i can find to me.. this feeling is terrible...

"scarier than how i am"

Ya tell me about it...those type of people are really scary....
get a load of this guy for example...he is really
scary.

But you don't have to worry about that...U R not evil...
U R a good person....your eye lids R getting tired...as you hear s e kid
my voice...etc.. ..lol...lol

but all seriousness aside...don't let people scare you away from here.

U have the right to be here and learn too.

[Hearsekid]

hell yeah im tired man ive been up all night homie, at a serious jam session tearing it up, I could stay up for another few hours tho cuz I am kinda hungry and I am feeling breakfast

[erikomaxie]

hell yeah im tired man ive been up all night homie, at a serious jam session tearing it up, I could stay up for another few hours tho cuz I am kinda hungry and I am feeling breakfast

SLEEP DUDE NOW@!!!!
u gota wake up in time for my dream !!!!!!!!!!

[erikomaxie]

"scarier than how i am"

Ya tell me about it...those type of people are really scary....
get a load of this guy for example...he is really
scary.

But you don't have to worry about that...U R not evil...
U R a good person....your eye lids R getting tired...as you hear s e kid
my voice...etc.. ..lol...lol

but all seriousness aside...don't let people scare you away from here.

U have the right to be here and learn too.

JESUS!!!!????????????????????????what the hell is that !

[Gyd]

today is your lucky day...Raul was just here from vegas (passing thru)
...he gave me his phone# to forward to people looking for an electrician...
I pm'd U with his private home # there (at willis' home) like I said..
we will have fun with raul ...but keep it clean....


raul will be heading back to Vegas om Nonday.
I mean on Monday.

[Hearsekid]

Okie doke man.....he's not a tweaker is he?

[Gyd]

why R U?

[Gyd]

JESUS!!!!????????????????????????what the hell is that !

So U see, We all need to understand more of what we all need to undersatnd
so we all then understand what we all know, to be true..?

forget it...it wasn't that important anyway..

[erikomaxie]

do we need to understand that guy ?

i want to understand myself more be4 i understand him??

[Gyd]

do we need to understand that guy ?

i want to understand myself more be4 i understand him??

ya if you mean that crazy antiClaus guy...then no

Just ignore him and he will go away...I promise.