I fried on acid
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When I went into it I had wondered what would happen, I thought that perhaps I would experience something beyond my comprehension such as suddenly recieving a NEW sense of perception that would just boggle my mind. I thought I might be able to see auras and possibly I would have a vision of meating with God or an Angel or something of that nature.
However I was to be sorely disappointed. First of all it took a while before I knew that I had actually peaked. I was COMPLETELY open to whatever was going to happen to me, I was offering no resistance whatsoever, however I was very watchful of what was happening internally. I realized that I could still think, understand, and reason with the world around me. A friend of dustin came over and was supposed to be our "anchor" because the feeling of a body high came REALLY fast. Like seriously not ten minutes had gone by before we started feeling a body pressure and that made ronnie and dustin nervous.
I however was not nervous and so we continued on. It was about an hour and a half into it by the time Jonny arrived. He was still reeling from his realization that an overabundance of drugs is detrimental to life progression and so when he came over we were able to discuss these things and others. Fortunately right after he got there I had my first visual hallucination, I was playing with a "trip toy" which was to say a little stretchy rubber ball thing with all these little tentacles coming off it. They started moving and it appeared to me like the thing was alive. WOO HOO!! I was stoked.
After the hard realization that I was not going to experience a new sense perception but rather all my current perceptions were only going to be slightly messed with, I decided to have an enjoyable time regardless.
From acid I was able to take a highly critical look at the way my perceptions work and was able to make a small model of the layers of perception. And so that was cool. It was a nice breakthrough coming from bottom up but I didn't get too much information about how the universe works on the way down from the Source.
This trip apparently was not as visual as most acid is but I think the reason for that is that I made everyone THINK while frying.
That was actually dissapointing. I consider dustin to be a highly intelligent individual and so I soon came to realize that both he and his gal wanted to have an experience BEYOND comprehension and also wanted to spend the time NOT THINKING about what was going on under the pretense that "there was no way to understand it". Well I wasn't going to do that myself, especially when I still had the capacity to think. So after I realized I could still philosophize I had conversations with them and I think I snapped them out of their stupor, which was actually depressing to them, we ended having a conversation where we tried to convince ourselves that we would still have a good time regardless.
I had a blast the entire time, except for when I puked. I had a problem one time when we went to a local park, I had just eaten fruit and as I was walking around my sense of aight and balance started whirling around a bit, which made me a little queasy, thinking about it made it worse. I was able to stop the first few waves of queasiness but eventually I ended up puking. But I felt fine and I didn't let it affect the rest of my trip.
Although my mind was capable of thinking doesn't mean that it was very good at it. It was very hard to keep focus for long periods of time. When I went out to philosophize with my buddy erik, I was having a bitch of a time trying to remember the whole conversation. Motor skills were also affected, there was a delay between me wanting to move and being actually able to. My reaction time was terrible and of course while frying, if someone was to throw a lighter at me, it seemed very intense and the lighter appeared to move very fast. I didn't really let myself get too lost in the storylines in my head because everytime my imagination wanted to play, it would have taken me away from other people.
Which SUCKED because adventures kept calling all over the place and whenever I was looking a certain direction and adventure called, it was SO APPEALING! The whole world seem to be making a tunnel towards some direction and there was a pull that wanted to draw me away, but then I would remember that my buddies and I made a pact to stay together and so I would snap out of that adventure state and go over to dustin and whatnot.
THE WORLD WAS BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!
Everything was AMAZING to look at. The fluid movements the rapidly interchanging colors, things were amazing to look at.
I have a completely different perspective on life to the human nature, I can embody that perspective with one simple game; MARIO!
Playing an old style mario game just showed me exactly how life is. There are coins that you can collect, if you get enough of them you get something (another life) there are also things to avoid such as gumbas and the whole while the goal is to get from one place to another without dying. Once the level is completed it is time to go to another level and do the same thing again.
The were many other funny lessons I learned about life from that game. First of all if you stare at a ghost, who stops moving when you look their direction, eventually the ghost will make some crazy face and stick his tongue out at you. THAT WAS HILARIOUS. That ghost thereby became the symbol of HUMOR to me. The joke was in the pain. The ghost was funny but if he got you, you still got hurt.
Eventually though I played enough mario that I would spend time in just one level not really knowing what I should do. Not that I didn't understand the objective of the game but who is to say that mario must always be running? So I stopped running around and just watched badguys for a little bit. I realized that although there were many dangerous things in the levels that very few of them would go out of their way to try to hurt me. Most of them were just chilin and then hoo de ha mario comes along and SMASHES them into the ground. Of course mario professes that it is out of the need to preserve the self that he steps on so many creatures but there are deffinitely ways in which a level can be passed without killing a single gumba.
Of course mario also has levels with many secrets to them and so I spent a good amount of time in various levels trying to find all these little secrets. The formula for finding secrets is EXACTLY the same as it is in Life. You go up to something you have not manipulated before and then you fuck with it and see if anything happens! Thats pretty much how it goes.
The funny thing is that if you have never found some secret thing, you could run through the entire game and never think to yourself "I should spin attack that block right there with my cape". And as such you would never get to play many of the bonus games and go through secret portals or whatever it is.
The adept at life and at mario will tell you the same thing, "You don't actually know until you have tried". You don't know that the spoon you are eating your wheaties with can actually move a mountain until you have tried. And even if you try it may not work, but you don't know UNTIL you have tried. To assume that anything cannot do something is folly because for reasons unknown to you very simple things may have mind boggling power.
Another interesting thing happened after I got bored. I would tarry in the level and chill there not knowing what I should do. I could run through the level get all the coins, squish all the gumbas and find every secret passage on a level and I could do all this but none of it was necessary. Not only that but there was no force that could MAKE me do ANYTHING that I did not want to. So I just chilled in the level running around aimlessly not knowing what I should do. Eventually though I would be in the middle of aimlessness and I would die. TIME UP the game would say. How very fitting.
I feel like that a lot of the time. I am just another mario in this dangerous world running around. I see the gold coins, I know what they bring. I see bad guys and see that I can squish them. But there is no direct line telling me what I NEED to do, only various opinions on what I should do. But regardless of what I do, or even if I do nothing, eventually my time will be up.
Then there was the whole aspect of reincarnation that comes into play. Whenever facing a particularly difficult level, mario would die many times before being able to get past a particular obstacle. And even after one obstacle was passed, there would usually be another that would be just as daunting and so I would die again. With the perspective I had on life as being infinite with infinite retries, I never worried when mario died, because he would get right back up again and do the whole thing over.
However to dustin and everyone else, mario's death was HORRIBLE. Whem on acid EVERYTHING is intense so to die is SUCH A HORRIBLE THING in your life. It can make you not want to play mario for fear of death.
Another question arrises about what is the point of infinite lives. After beating a level once, then I could go back to the same level and try to beat it faster. I realized that the whole of life is like a game and that there IS a destination we are going for. Mario needed to rescue peach, my eternal life has some goal too. It becomes a waste of time then to do anything but RACE to the finish. Once the goal is completed then you just bask in glory of having done it, so why not do it as fast as possible? Why suffer to live in the worlds where you suffer and have all these trials? Well actually the trials are necessary for you to have earned the right to beat the game but still once you know you are capable, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR?
Thats pretty much the best thing I learned from acid. I gotta jet.
peace out
devin
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