Maybe I Just Made the Switch

[Silverhaze]

Maybe I just made the switch...

I don't know how to explain this change in me but I suddenly feel so deeper and I am finding less and less reason to use words when communicating...

I feel so innocent. Like I forgave everything completely.
But at the same time it makes me feel unhuman like I said in the other thread.

I don't know that much about Crystals but aren't they suppose to be like that? innocent and forgiving and they have this other way of loving and communicating?

Maybe that is what happened? I'm still trying to adjust. But the harder I try to look back the more I feel I've always been this way I just hadn't been able to completely let go of the pain that tainted my innocence.

[Indigo Dog]

Maybe I just made the switch...

I don't know how to explain this change in me but I suddenly feel so deeper and I am finding less and less reason to use words when communicating...

I feel so innocent. Like I forgave everything completely.
But at the same time it makes me feel unhuman like I said in the other thread.

I don't know that much about Crystals but aren't they suppose to be like that? innocent and forgiving and they have this other way of loving and communicating?

Maybe that is what happened? I'm still trying to adjust. But the harder I try to look back the more I feel I've always been this way I just hadn't been able to completely let go of the pain that tainted my innocence.

Hi,
Take some time to check out the threads on transitioning, octerine and crystal children. I found it very helpful.
Hug.

[Silverhaze]

I think this sums it up quite well:

In the morning I awake
And I couldn't remember
What is love and what is hate
The calculations error

Oh, what is love and what is hate?
And why does it matter?
Is to love just a waste?
And how can it matter?
Oh.....

As the dawn began to break
I had to surrender
The universe will have it's way
Too powerful to master
Oh.....

What is love and what is hate?
And why does it matter?
Oh.....
What is love and what is hate?
And how can it matter?
Oh.....

~ The Flaming Lips

[{{d*@*b}}]

great song great band, I listened to that over and over for a period in my life

[Patryc]

they are very much crystal traits Silverhaze, the switch is never instantaneous although there are several phases in it which make u feel like you have just become a new person, you are still you, just a remade, slightly different you and of course a more connected you which makes things feel all so much better

wishing you the bliss that came to me, love and cosmic cuddles

[Silverhaze]

they are very much crystal traits Silverhaze, the switch is never instantaneous although there are several phases in it which make u feel like you have just become a new person, you are still you, just a remade, slightly different you and of course a more connected you which makes things feel all so much better

wishing you the bliss that came to me, love and cosmic cuddles

thank you
I'm starting to feel better now

[Patryc]

your welcome, the more you understand about it the easier it is

my biggest problem at the start was perhaps the fear of the unknown, the what is happening to me OMG, just remember love and letting go are vital parts of the process

[dude]

maybe this has been posted else where but i'll put it here as a resource. from Celia Fenn http://www.starchild.co.za/crisis.html


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[Everything is ok]

Is it like adding 1+1 and getting 11 instead of 2?

I went through a period of what I call the void. Now it sounds like void but I only called it that because it was so quiet and deep it felt like there was nothing happening at all. The only thing that felt right was to sit silent and remain centered, I didn't have much of a choice. All inner motion felt not-so-good compared to the deep silence.

Maybe your having something like this go on too? I been seeing it in a lot of peoples lately.

I find the reason some problems or questions never get solved is that sometimes those questions/problems are really nonexistent. no answers exist for imaginary problems.

I find that the best type of love (for me) is one that does not obstruct or expect, Offers space, grace, peace, and acceptance. Most people consider this type of love useless because its not needy or greedy. This love looks, outwardly, just like respect. I would rather sit in silence with someone I love rather than talk.

Good luck with your thing.

[Fjoem]

Is it like adding 1+1 and getting 11 instead of 2?

Ha, that is one of the coolest metaphor's I've ever heard on IS, good stuff!

[Onlooker]

Silverhaze, have you read The Celestine Prophecy?
It just popped into my head when I read your post

[Silverhaze]

I am certain now that this is what has happened. That I made the switch.

I think it's been a long time coming and I fought it a bit in my indigo ways but I finally let it be and now I feel so much better.

The will to really fight has died down in me. The need to forcefully change things has passed. I now feel that would rather guide people to become who they wish to be. perhaps through example.

I want to spread the light.
I am much happier now.
I feel like the darkness can no longer touch me. My depression is gone for good.

[Satisfiction]

YAY! Gone for good!!! Thats awesome!

I've found that mine only comes back when I stop living in the moment...

[Quiet Knight]

I find that when I make a change, if I look back, it was happening all along. It is sort of like a hatching egg, it was a process, but not until you filly break free, do you realize it. Your head may of been out for some time, but until you whole body is out, it does not fully dawn on you. That has been my usual experience.

But I have been enveloped by spirit and light a couple times, which lasted for a couple weeks, after wards I was not the same person, but this has never been the norm.

I have noticed that it usually comes after a great trial or stress point in my life, and afterward it feels like my abilities and level of perfection has make a back slide, then I realize things are now even better then before, for a better way to say.

I have noticed something similar with my daughter, as well as other kids, as they are growing up when young. At a young age, there would be things or personality changes which she was not capable of doing yet. Then I would notice a regression in her personality or in some mental ability, then a few weeks later she is back to par, with new abilites. It was interesting to see her regressive behavior, knowing that she was getting ready for a change, then to see it happen too; purely amazing to watch the process in a child as new parts of their brain develop and kick in.

[Satisfiction]

purely amazing to watch the process in a child as new parts of their brain develop and kick in.

This is a process I LOVE to watch, both in myself (retrospectively) and in others. Simply awesome... yay for personal and spiritual growth.

[WingedDefender]

Maybe I just made the switch...

I don't know how to explain this change in me but I suddenly feel so deeper and I am finding less and less reason to use words when communicating...

I feel so innocent. Like I forgave everything completely.
But at the same time it makes me feel unhuman like I said in the other thread.

I don't know that much about Crystals but aren't they suppose to be like that? innocent and forgiving and they have this other way of loving and communicating?

Maybe that is what happened? I'm still trying to adjust. But the harder I try to look back the more I feel I've always been this way I just hadn't been able to completely let go of the pain that tainted my innocence.

The way it seems too me, is people are starting with blank slates everyday,
Lately i am the sameway too, i'll get up happy joyful, dance too, Data da da can't touch this, and than i go to school.

I've always been that day, what ever happened yesterday doesn't matter, it is the past, and unchangeable, but always to the future, always optimistic, even when i know, things are not going to turn out the way i wish. Always optimistic.


CJ-

[WingedDefender]

I think I'm undergoing this switch myself. Does anyone know any other web pages or links to threads about this topic? I did some searching but couldn't find too much. The link dude posted almost completely describes what I've been going through, I read it and was like WOAHHHH!!!! I even started another thread about it it effected me so much, but no one responded. Any more resources would be appreciated. I'm trying to learn how to care about myself during this process.

Thanks for the link, dude.

Its not a switch, its not a label. Its maturity, and immaturity at the same time, i wish people would stop making things, so so. (you have to be a level 43 to get that), i'm sorry people but this is not God of War, or dungeons and dragons. This isn't a make believe video game, people whether we like it or not, this is life.

Its maturity, enough to forgive, a wise man once said, to not forgive, is to anchor yourself down, and hurt you. I agree. All this talk latley about vengeance, all this B.S. about how groups are hurting other groups, its seriously annoying, just get over yourselves. Seriously, who cares if you have serious amounts of power, whats the point if you truly have that much power, to constantly bicker and argue, and complain, Seriously get a life.

you have not reached understanding, you have not reached enlightnement, you had a realization, (the above refers to everyone on the site) Silverhaze if only more people realized what you have. Heck if even a group of 40 people would realize that, i'd be a happy camper.


CJ-

[WingedDefender]

No no, just the first part. maturity and the label part, to those that it was directed at they will not post on it.

CJ-