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wow. i normally dont read the really long ones all the way through but your story intrested me. first of all, i am so very sorry this is happening to you. no person should have to go through this. this is an extremely tough posistion and im not really sure what to do. all i can really say is to ask your spirit guide to help you handle all the talking and help block out eveyone's words and stop your thoughts from leaving you. also, you could meditate and just concentrate on closing the voices out. maybe concentrate on one voice that you want to hear, the voice that will help you make it through. even if you have to make up this voice. maybe working with your chakras will help. im not really sure.

i hope you can find peace and quiet in your mind soon
and if you need anyone to talk to, im always here to listen
best of luck

too late for me to read all that :P

in a skim, where do you live? i mean the exact community/suburb. i don't think it's normal, so you probably live somewhere people don't want to know.

if they're willing to put you through crap, then they deserve to be known, even if it breaks their "law."

let the world know. bullying isn't cool.

i've broadcasted "early in my career" and was shocked to see a guy in amsterdam posting that he heard me.

wow, I dont know what you can do Im very sorry, I hate not being able to help people. I have a small amount of telepathy, but not much. I agree with Lauren, your spirit guide gave you this, s/he can take it away. But maybe s/he was trying to teach a lesson, you know the "be careful what you wish for" one, or somthing about gaining things through hard work rather then wishing so you learn control? Sorry, I dont mean to offend you, or anything but Im just thinking why this would happen...

indeed - its sometimes much easier not to be able to hear :/

Ok Kryptics - correct me if I am wrong, but didn't you say that you had initial made contact with a spirit that you later discovered was your spirit guide? Here's the question, are you entierly certain that he was your spirit guide and not a negative energy posing as a spirit guide? I ask this because your problems seem to stem from the time of your having made contact with this being.

A real spirit guide would never help you to initate a level of power that you are not ready to handle.

I would strongly reccomend using your chakra meditations to eject the guid and initiate a cleansing and clearing of your mind and physical space and surround yourself with your choice of protection. Then to try it again - not fishing for a spirit to guide you, but waiting for one who is there to help and not to harm or expirament.

I don't pretend to have all the answers, but this is the answer that struck me when I read your post.

Hope it helps

Are you suuuuuure all these people are so mean? I mean they could just be a bunch of assholes. You know? People who like to get your goat... in a good-ish sort of way. You have to acquire a taste for it. Don't take their judgement so seriously; they don't put hours of study into what they say and they realize it and are fine with it. I think they want you to be that way as well.

I completely agree with sshenry, your higher self loves you, there's no way they would put you through this kind of torture, are you 100% sure that you are telepathic and that there isnt just a spirit fucking with your mind?
Either way, sounds more like possession than a gift to me.
I'd go see a healer, or somebody that teaches meditation that would know what is going on, perhaps there have been cases of this documented before.

Anyway I wish you the best of luck, IS is here for you.

Much love

teasing someone who is under duress (or is not clearly appreciative thereof) is not cool, under any circumstances.

anyone who bullies people better fucking not do it in front of me, because i will hurt them.

idk. kryptics said they don't get a proper read on him and I think most people are too numb to consider things like "were they appreciative?" or "is this person who is just standing around under some kind of duress?" before they react to the queer experience of a telepathic invite the only way they know how. I just think kryptic's capability to put their reactions aside is possible. Because I assume this is a novel experience for everyone involved, why not forgive them for acting confused and afraid? I have to think kryptics fearful reactions to his {subjects} makes kryptics appear insidious to them. An incidious person who can read minds? It seems obvious they would be responded to in this way. I don't know about Kryptics, but thinking about it in that light would help me out with the whole thing.

all that said, I really dont know the environent. grains of salt :O

Kryptics, do these people act the same way to you verbally?

points in reading:

don't be ashamed of your impulses - observe them and don't dwell on them. if you feel like flirting, even if the instinct doesn't make sense to you intellectually, it's part of your experience (whether natural, or only a matter of environmental suggestion) so just see it and let it pass.. "i wanted to flirt because i felt like i wanted to" or whatever.. being ashamed will hold it to you..

"apples" there's adam and eve.. then there's eris and "kallisti"

karma.. that was my response to similar circumstances.. tho if so, it must be from a past life, because there is no justification for it in this one.

i had an experience about a month ago with a local musician who seemed eager to meet me in person.. i spoke to him briefly on the phone for directions, i put the phone down and he was still talking.. since i work in audio, which is my "affectation," i immediately put on some music with singing, found some comedy on youtube and soaked that up for 10 minutes, it did the trick and i haven't been bothered by him since.

about the word "idiot.."

idio- means self. i am a sincere idiot. i don't need anyone else, i am extremely capable and independent and would live a fulfilling and joyous life if every human being vanished forever. the term is used to indicate stupidity because sometimes those who ignore others forego wisdom. not always..

morons ("more-ons") don't like idiots. moron has to homogenise, ensure that others are like they are and bully them if they aren't.

CSU - colorado state? fort collins?

okay - here's my "i read it" response -

you probably have jain dharma. a 'jain' is a 'conqueror,' one who is preparing to ascend in this lifetime.

people bandy the word 'ascend' around and i sincerely believe that few people have any realisation of what it means to be prepared to leave EVERYTHING behind.

solipsism.. lila.. tonal/nagual.. concepts you may appreciate..

from the solipsist perspective, these people, these enemies, are, solipsistically, aspects of yourself, agitating you, honing you down like a pearl, until NOTHING they say causes you to react.

congratulations.

they can torment you, they cannot destroy you, and you will discover that you have more potential than they can achieve. if they pissed you off sufficiently.. well.. you've probably seen akira. (i haven't, i just read the synopsis at wikipedia)

this process.. you invited upon yourself, you were brave enough to open the door to change.

my experience is as such.. except i still have worldly ambitions, and i "have to" exist in this world.. because i want to!

the world is a jealous lover, it doesn't want you to leave it's bed. it was well-designed to give a fulfilling experience.

i'm guessing, since you're brave, you're probably physically healthy.. maybe not too short.. physically able to hold your own against most comers.

i can't tell you how to react to this situation, because i am still enduring it. if you want to treat it inclusively, and accept these assholes as parts of yourself (as they are) you can, it's just tough.

the solution to the solipsist world (tonal/nagual or lila) aka ascension is complete indifference.. i don't have that.. i've walked in peace for a long time, and i've found, sadly, that the most effective way to shut them up is violence, which is a way back into the world..

i can't tell you what to do, and you shouldn't listen to my advie or anyones.. only yourself.. at least that's what i beleive...

i can tell you that teasing people isn't friendly. if you can tolerate them or treat them kindly, do so. personally there's a few people who wouldn't walk away if we met.

i've had dead dumbass and company in my face for three fucking years.

they probably addicted her to meth, convinced her that we were married, then murdered her, because she won't leave me alone, and i only saw her for ~15 seconds in my life.

i will tell you this, though. if you blow your top, they're in for some real shit. you're the godstar, and they're pimps riding the earthwave.

i'm hoping that they will accept a more peacable solution and release the arrogance of their jealousy. they think they can be me! sorry, it doesn't work like that.

if you get pissed off, use your imagination. you can really really really hurt them. you can rewrite their world with the power of imaginative conception. the best they can do is keep you worried, they don't have the soul.

if that's the sort of thing that you enjoy :P sorry to describe my own sorry state of affairs.

or on the flipside, immagine a concept for them to better understand you with, Kryptics

lighty and shifty -

i don't know what the situation is (dealing with this "less-solipsistically")

kryptiks did mention that the physical interaction did correspond with the psychic.

from "what i can gather" about other peoples experiences, there are hot spots.. all in the u.s., where gifted people are harassed. i dunno.. maybe the whole reptile thing is true.. someone told me that in the s.e. u.s. they're called "red stars" (subterranean reptiles who 'zap' people psychically for energy, he also called them "shockers")

some people, may people who are psychically gifted have no experiences like this..

everyone's entitled to their opinion.. for me, this has been happening 3+ years and i've still been able to code award-winning software, so i'm probably not that crazy :P i feel i still treat people well.. when they're not trying to mess with me..

apparently, there are just nests of evil bitches here and there. i've "always had an interest in the supernatural" but maintained a scientific, doubtful mind for over 30 years.. i've had way to many constant, daily, hourly experiences with real people, in the flesh to doubt it, though oc i can't prove it to you.

atm my neighbor is moving out. i've been gaining some ground in my ability to shut them up lately.. maybe they're "done" with me or moving onto the next phase.. i know my neighbor talks to the dead piece of feces that hangs around here by name.

i've also had coinciding local activity with online activity.. when my neighbors were harassing me, a group of witches in the u.k. were harassing me online and posted pictures of themselves as a coven.

i don't have the answers.. worldwide network, universewide, local, coincidence..

all i know is peter tosh lyrics, "if you want to live, treat me good, i'm the steppin razor."

and one of these days i'm going to ride a mile wide steamroller down 29th street if these pissfingers don't keep to themselves.

these people aren't capable of understanding.

shitface has said her name in my face repeatedly day and night for three years.

she was murdered (either physically or by overdose, ala a stronger dose known as a "hotshot") with the intent of binding her spirit in pain.

she's not capable of understanding things.

some days it's like a courtroom.. i've had angels, the allstar johnny cochran team of arbiters.. imploring her, reasoning with her..

five minutes later she's forgotten and back to saying her name over and over again, thinking she's my wife.

perhaps because she's got an army of shitheads making her do it, perhaps she's mentally retarded. i don't know how a spirit gets this way.

i do know that her name is extremely close to one of the oldest demons shared by many cultures.

this is no fun at all, no sir.

i was patient and tolerant for almost 3 years, never lifted a finger in hatred.

then i found out that i could hurt them.

i've been a lot angrier the last few months. otoh, i've actually had some quiet moments.

really, and respectfully, i don't think you have a clue what this is like

the magnitude of their atrocity is off the scale.

off the freaking scale.

and another thing..

they don't know what you are. they're not capable of understanding it, because they look to you and not to themselves.

hth

I was thinking that if Kryptics can manipulate world views of others with his own thoughts, then he could find bits of what is important to these people when they look to another person and somehow attach that to his abilities. Is that so strange? It might be easier for Kryptics given his abilities.

If you try to get others to understand you using what you understand the world to be, it won't work.

I also agree with SSHenry. I was sort of drawn to this post for some reason, so let me give my two cents.

Everyday people could not handle the amount of psychic psychobabble that you are proposing here. This being said, I think that if you are talking to an actual person, then this person has maliciously connected to you with the intent to drive you nuts. Feeling into this person's energy, especially up against yours, I would say that this is true.

There are people in the world, many of them psychic and telepathic, that get off on making peoples' lives miserable. I believe you have had someone following you psychically, whether or not it was a physical vacinity, since you first accidentally connected with this person. If I understand correctly, you said you were tripping when things finally got out of control? That could help explain a lot, as you broadcast and receive much more when on psychoactives. I also believe there is some spirit attention here, which has already been dealt with.

This situation is one hell of a mess, and it's true that you've dug yourself into a hole. Thankfully, there are those of us here that can help pull you out.

What exactly would you like for the resolution of this conflict to be? Do you want to retain your gifts and lose the nutjobs, or just shut everything down completely?

Blessings,
John

for myself (i know you were speaking to kryptics) i'd just like to put L to her grave, or get a 200ft. spiritual restraining order or something...

..however, if you volunteer, be well aware that there are an army of bastards attempting to conceal the situation, investing time and energy into keeping it going.

i don't care about the occasional hostilities, i want that one out of my face for good and forever. i don't ever want to hear her voice or her name again.

all i did was buy groceries at the cornershop.