my screen name on here has become a bit of a sensitive subject. it was pretty foolish to use it as a screen name on a website where i felt comfortable sharing information about myself.. but at the time i didn't think it would become so important to me.
i use it as my name now. its pretty unique and if you google it you find all my accounts, including conversations here.
i'm getting more traffic as my art gets around the internet and freelancing picks up... i have fans now who google me lol... which is weird but i also have had a lot of anxiety of sensitive information getting around.
i felt comfortable with the people i was sharing it with, but now i'm sort of panicking at how available these "special" moments in the past are. like this record that's too accessible.
i've messaged DF a couple times over the past couple months or whatever with no response.
i tried looking it up and it seems like i can't have my username changed?
is the only solution deleting my account?
i have been stressing out about this a lot. the things i've said here are very important to me but i didnt have the foresight to protect these things and thoughts and experiences.
eventually i will probably change my name legally to oreides, since it feels more like my name than my birth name. ive transitioned as a trans man btw, so name change/legal documentation is definitely in my future.
i have a lot of anxiety over this and i need help.