so, from a western clinical standing, my condition is steadily worsening, but from an eastern spiritual standing, i'm doin just fine, all just drama to burn away the baggage.
the depression causing big ups (LETS BUILD A BOAT!!!) & downs (F**k everything in particular *stare at ceiling*).
takes me about 2 hours to muster the strength to get out of bed every morning
the anxiety... socializing feels pointless meaningless. I live in SE England where not partaking in small talk seems almost seems rude.
when interacting i cant help but home-in on (and expand) the subtle awkwardness, then its like *lets partake in this awkwardness together...PANIC TIME!*
i try to get out and about every other day (dog helps, he takes me for walks)
a while ago, I reached a point of not being able to do employed work, job center recommended self employment (starting a wood-craft workshop). I jumped on fast-track business start-up course, blitz-ed a business plan, then had to drop out due to worsening depression.
my hopes and dreams of starting woodwork business went poof.
but now im left with a semi-functional workshop, and am mustering the strength to do about 10 mins work a day. it feels really great.
first project is a small, simple wooden box.
so yea. despite the continuous downward spiral, i still want to keep moving forward. i'm noticing patterns of Ups/Downs, periods of productivity and hopelessness. its something i can work with.
(often 2 week cycle. start high, end low)
I would like to hear your experience in working with/around depression & Anxiety?
how do you plan work schedules? (how flexible?)
have you been able to structure the work around supporting you? (in the past its often been the other way around for me)
very grateful for any advise or stories