I feel that you have been allowing others to pull you down into their game. You as a soul have a power to play in the higher realms, and because of your forgetting this, you have somewhat fallen into abusing your power, knowing that you will be able to get what you want by doing this. Reconnect to who you are so that you realize that there is no longer a necessity for this game you have been playing. It's time to surrender all of those people you have been working with and move into your true calling. This may spark a lot of change and people may not understand you initially, however these people are only necessary pieces of the pyramid that is helping you to remember who you are. Call back your power, and remember the goddess that you are.
You are not here to be of service on the level that you have perceived yourself to be in the past. You are here to create big change by working with your soul family and playing a game you truly do enjoy.,
You are beautiful. And though others may not appreciate that in you, just remember that you don't need them to fully appreciate who you are. Seriously. Big change.
Was fun reading for you! AWESOME energy.