Haroeris wrote: ↑
Mon Feb 26, 2018 12:29 am
Thank you Red Violet
I surely hope so, and I wish for every soul to find love. But maybe for us to be granted this, we must first create Love inside us, then the law of attraction could bring it in our lives, just a theory. If the Universe is all about balance, then it gives us what we project outside. Many people, including me, wait for the One that would heal and change everything....but what did I do all this time to change myself for the better ? If I was full of sadness and anger and frustration and self-loathing etc....the Universe brought similar souls into my path. I truly believe it's a matter of us really looking at the mirror, acknowledge our inner shadow and decide to change it. Then, we change our path, so it's logical for us to meet different people
I couldnt agree more with you Haroeris. Specially about doing the inner work in order to find the love. It is very true.
It is very easy, and to be honest, a bit unfair, that we expect another person to heal us inside and to do the work for us. It is not how it works, not even if we want to.
Most, if not all humans have their inner shadows and many times there is the fear of looking inside and acknowledging such darkness. Such darkness is a void that we try to cover with different things and substances. Sometimes we USE other people for this purpose. But external people cannot fill a void inside our consciousness.
In the best case, we can drag others down with us. In the worst case, we keep meeting reflections of our own failures.
Yes, I knew this for years already. I was living in darkness, carrying blocks and resentments. Of course I wanted balanced love, but would it have been possible with me being closed to it? Of course not! I attracted very toxic partners into my life and when I decided that it was time to break that "curse" and to find a more balanced relationship or experiences or whatever, I knew that it would not come until I did the respective work inside of myself.
So what I did for the next 4 or 5 years was to work on myself. On my interior, my consciousness, my emotions, my self image, etc. I am still in the process right now, but I am changing. The work I did on myself will pay off, I know this. However, it was a big sacrifice for me: While people were having fun and living their life, I was dealing with my inner darkness, preparing my inner light to shine. Difficult times for me, going through this process.
However, today I feel more ready to embrace new realities, to create them. To live my way: in freedom, joy and playfulness. I still have inner shadows of course, but never like when I started. I do feel the progress.
However, it really frustrates me that after I have done this hard work on myself, some external people feel in their right to throw their negativity and shadows to me. As if it was my responsibility to deal with their shadows, just because I feel love for them. This really frustrates me so much. I want to live well, I want to share this with others too.
But many times I get the impression that some people are not really doing their inner work; that some people are not taking real responsibility for their own well-being and that they expect others to deal with their shadows or to heal them without them having to do any effort for themselves.
By this behavior, I feel dragged down many times, or just frustrated and angry at this.