[QUOTE=April Fool;1092363]Falien, you are much stronger than you perceive to be.
They tried to crush your mind, but you didn't give the emotional reaction they need, it was of no use, you are beyond them.
It is not as bad as you think because you had been given a much higher power.
The 24/7 pain that you feel, you must be used to it, after a certain time, it must get normal, because that is the nature of mind.
Oh, no, now I sound like a sick psychopath sorry.
I don't know your place, I shouldn't be talking like that.
But that is the only thing you can do, in case of physical pain. Get used to it, stop getting bothered by it.
Sometimes you are supposed to feel pain, and you don't because it gets unconscious.
Sometimes, you can be hypnotized to feel pain, it is all a game of mind.
So try to not bother with the pain, don't give it any attention, also stop seeing pain as something to suffer from,
open your mind, and just percieve pain from a neutral perspective, going beyond the conditionings set by evolution.
I feel genuine sympathy for you. I feel sympathy after a long time, because I had realized many create their suffering by personally attaching themselves to trivial matters,
and when they are adviced about the solution, they don't like it, as if like they choose to suffer instead, though I know more than choice it is about how they are conditioned to be.
But your case sounds to be extremely difficult and serious.
But you still are given the power to combat it.
A normal person, might have killed himself\herself.
They are trying to break you, don't let them.
Know your power.
Psychic powers, telekinesis, psychokinesis, are not the real deal, you have the real power.
First you have to detach yourself a bit more.
Love thy enemies.
Your parents seems to be addicted to emotional reactions, they need emotions of hatred and all that,
instead give them love, give them what they don't expect and don't want,
love is what they need, to heal their soul.
Develop compassion even for the twisted ones at the top.
If people really conspired against you to put you through all these, they are actually in a bigger inner hell than you are.
They are poorer than you.
Love them too. Give them what they don't want. Develop an inner smile.
At first may be fake it, some times letter you may become what you pretend.
Even if the love don't do any good, and all the abrasiveness continues (it can be very likely in this type of world), it can still heal you yourself. ^_^
But love doesn't mean you will accept everything.
Forgive them, and remove the burdens from yourself.
Don't do what they want you to do, express anger, being rude, and all that, dont get stuck in the vicious cycle they want to make you get stuck to,
You may feel like I am a sick psychopath or deluded someone, to tell, these type of things, to love someone who put you through this hell,
well my point is, that I don't know if the suffering has any point or not, I am not saying that there was any point of you going through this hell,
when you get attacked by the arrow, it does not matter, who put you the arrow, or in what intent the arrow was hit, or why the arrow was hit or anything,
the highest priority will be to get the arrow removed and to be healed by a doctor, if you dont do that you will just die pondering.
One can only show you the way, you have to walk it.
It doesnt matter why you were put to this suffering, WHAT MATTERS IN THE IMMEDIATE SITUATION is how to escape from it,
and the way to escape the curse of the twisted is to become twisted as Nameless said, instead of hating them, twist yourself and love them.
Silence your mind, chill down, and develop some inner smile, and universal love, the aura itself can change how people behave with you.
Be nice to everyone,
by being nice to everyone you can be nice to yourself.
You can be rude to me, and you can vent all your anger to me, I won't bother, I will still be always with you. ^_^[/QUOTE]
I don't give a damn about your god or your evolution.
Your kind never change your kind always worship evil.
You want people to love those that do horrible wicked things more wicked more love and compassion you want to be shown to them.
Those that are lesser someone with miss fortune go through horrible things you want more and more agony to come to them.
Your ideal universe is a universe that will always reward evil wicked deeds upon other.
You don't want any hate or anything bad to come to those that harm other
Yet that a different story for those on the receiving side of things.
Your kind worship evil and always say it good for the people they hurt to suffer as they have it coming.
Don't dare to tell me what good for me or who and what i am!