#251
[QUOTE=Nea Emris;1038901]Xanai, I can relate to feeling like an equally polarized magnet in regards to relationships. It's like there an invisible fence around me. Sometimes I take steps back by myself, because even though I would be tempted to get closer to a person, I see them, what they want and what they need and I know I can't give that to them. So I take a step back to protect them. It's not even that dramatic, I just see it for what it is. I don't usually even let me think I could fall in love. However I do love people, I just can't be with them. It should feel really strange, but it doesn't. I guess that is strange, no?[/QUOTE]

I don't find it that strange, many of us truly love people but are not "in love" with anyone in particular or inclined to. It's a bit common in people like us I guess... It's awkward to know in advance what others need without them telling isn't it?... I see what you mean.
I find my case odd. Usually from what I've seen its rare to one of us wanting to really live romatic love as almost a mission.

#252
[QUOTE=Xanai;1039071]I don't find it that strange, many of us truly love people but are not "in love" with anyone in particular or inclined to. It's a bit common in people like us I guess... It's awkward to know in advance what others need without them telling isn't it?... I see what you mean.
I find my case odd. Usually from what I've seen its rare to one of us wanting to really live romatic love as almost a mission.[/QUOTE]

Yeah maybe, I haven't really met any other people like me, so I don't know what is rare or not. :) I've always felt so different.

#253
[QUOTE=Astara;447523]Hehehe...I like this rave chatter. :) That's cool, d @ b and flyingkittycat!!

I'm very familiar with the Rave Act and it's hypocrisy. Interestingly enough, Biden signed off on said act. *shrug* Kinda let me down to find that out. I did a highschool essay my junior or senior year about the Rave Act and Crackhouse laws. Ugh, it was very upsetting for me but you know the media completely sensationalized it and poof, then law enforcement immediately became over-eager to bust people.

I went to raves from 2000-03 but have kept up with a lot of my friends and contacts from that scene, so I still kinda consider myself a raver. It's where I felt most accepted and comfortable, after all. I can identify though with you, d @ b, I still feel a little weird going back, you know. I mean it's still attracting young teenagers and I guess I have to admit that would feel a little awkward to me.

I have raves in my living room now...with my cats. :cool: Also, luckily, I live in a city with a great amount of live music so I can usually pick and choose who I want to go see. I love that![/QUOTE]
Please don't call EDM events 'raves'. I know they were called that in 98-00's. They were different than gigs of today. Now shows can be legal and also medically safer.Check out my blog on my most happy time at a show. The EDM community is welcome and warm to people of all ages and creeds. I took a friend to see Dash Berlin and she was blown away. She made friends with Korean computer nerds, models, visitors from Taiwan. The scene is alive and well. Please rejoin the fun!
I'm a 1978 indigo btw. Older people don't get hated on. The younger kids tend to give you extra cool points the older you are.

#254
Hello all. I've been a member here for quite sometime now, but I just seemed to locate the "adult" section? Guess I needed to wait. 1982 here. I've always been an empath and "seer". I used to share some of the things I saw with my mom, but she was adamantly against hearing any of it. Such is life! I didn't actively focus on learning about my gifts in depth until my early 20s. I can see musical vibrations as well as telepathically communicate with my other Indigo friends. I'm a breath away from the ripe ole age of 32 and I am a new(ish) mother to my first born child. I must admit the past 11 months, my attention and sole focus has been for her physical and spiritual well being. Are there any other Indigo parents here willing to discuss your choices about your open (or closed) spirituality/religion/beliefs with your children?

#255
[QUOTE=CherryGreen;342559]I was born in 81. I don't think I know my right purpose yet, but I made serious progress in the last years. I always thought I was supposed to do something big, something that changes people or the world for the better. Even when I was a kid.

Now I still want that but I think it doesn't need to be obviously huge like becoming a politician or so :-) but that I can make the world a better place by positively affecting the people I meet. This may cause a chain reaction or something like that :-)
I will definitely change my job soon and most probably move away or travel for a while beause I feel stuck at the moment. And I think I can learn more by making another big experience like this.

What about yourself?[/QUOTE]

Moving on is always a good idea: we never know why we have this feeling that we have to move on towards where we are needed...Success , mastery of our fate and destiny fulfilled are all journeys of some kind..... Be gentle with yourself, never be selfish or self absorbed, avoid noise and crowds as the negativity is energy draining. Imagination is your powerful faculty
use it carefully. There has long been a saying " Be careful what you wish for..." Most people don't understand that it works.

#256
I was born in 1975. I've always felt that I was "different"; just discovered the concept of the indigo in the last couple of years when a friend asked me if I was an Indigo. I have come to find that I am. I was also diagnosed ADHD at 37.

About three years ago I got involved with politics, and became a delegate for Ron Paul, who I believe to be someone with a powerful message of peace. I didn't stop after the election...I was ignored and ostracized then by many around me, and am now co-chair of my county party as of a couple of months ago. Many in what we call the "Liberty Movement" are very despondent...we have had a lot of setbacks. I am still moving forward...I think this is my purpose...to bring the world back to one that I recognize for my children.

Around that time I also started making homemade soap. It has started to become somewhat profitable, though sporadic. My husband is having health problems that no one can pin down (or listen to what I believe it is), so it has helped us a little financially.

I think my 12 year old is Indigo for sure; he has been diagnosed bipolar and ADHD. What's even more amazing is that I am almost 100% positive that my youngest is a Crystal. He will be six next month (shares my birthday, down to the day of the week and 4 minutes apart!) He is a rare little soul...very much like I was at his age; but different in many ways as well. We lost his twin early on, and didn't know we were still pregnant...he was a blessing in many ways. I don't believe in any gods, but there was some power of sorts on my side when I brought this little guy into the world. It almost killed me, but he is just beyond amazing.

I am not a happy person, though. I am moody, crazy, disorganized, blunt to the point of being rude sometimes. I feel like a horrible mom at times, even though my kids tell me I am not. I am married to my soul mate, but I believe I have found my twin soul as well, who is a good friend of mine that I have met online but not in person. He and I have worked together on drafting some legislation to change family law so that parents aren't financially burdened and that dads have a fair shot at creating a life with their children. Not much progress on that yet, but it's promising.

I dropped out of college, went back, got a liberal arts AA, then ran out of money two semesters shy of a BS. I stay at home with my kids...if you can call it that. I stay at home to be away from people and to live inside my head for precious hours of the day. I am too easily bombarded by noise, feelings, etc...I am weirdly introverted and extroverted at the same time. I think that the Violet and Indigo in me can be really confusing at times...one wants to stay home and hide while the other wants to make connections and socialize. I don't do well with stupid and I don't like people...but I am very social, very friendly, and generally well liked.

I think I understand my purpose, but I am not sure that I understand myself just yet. Or ever will.

#257
[QUOTE=Angie Davidson;1098852]I was born in 1975. I've always felt that I was "different"; just discovered the concept of the indigo in the last couple of years when a friend asked me if I was an Indigo. I have come to find that I am. I was also diagnosed ADHD at 37.

About three years ago I got involved with politics, and became a delegate for Ron Paul, who I believe to be someone with a powerful message of peace. I didn't stop after the election...I was ignored and ostracized then by many around me, and am now co-chair of my county party as of a couple of months ago. Many in what we call the "Liberty Movement" are very despondent...we have had a lot of setbacks. I am still moving forward...I think this is my purpose...to bring the world back to one that I recognize for my children.

Around that time I also started making homemade soap. It has started to become somewhat profitable, though sporadic. My husband is having health problems that no one can pin down (or listen to what I believe it is), so it has helped us a little financially.

I think my 12 year old is Indigo for sure; he has been diagnosed bipolar and ADHD. What's even more amazing is that I am almost 100% positive that my youngest is a Crystal. He will be six next month (shares my birthday, down to the day of the week and 4 minutes apart!) He is a rare little soul...very much like I was at his age; but different in many ways as well. We lost his twin early on, and didn't know we were still pregnant...he was a blessing in many ways. I don't believe in any gods, but there was some power of sorts on my side when I brought this little guy into the world. It almost killed me, but he is just beyond amazing.

I am not a happy person, though. I am moody, crazy, disorganized, blunt to the point of being rude sometimes. I feel like a horrible mom at times, even though my kids tell me I am not. I am married to my soul mate, but I believe I have found my twin soul as well, who is a good friend of mine that I have met online but not in person. He and I have worked together on drafting some legislation to change family law so that parents aren't financially burdened and that dads have a fair shot at creating a life with their children. Not much progress on that yet, but it's promising.

I dropped out of college, went back, got a liberal arts AA, then ran out of money two semesters shy of a BS. I stay at home with my kids...if you can call it that. I stay at home to be away from people and to live inside my head for precious hours of the day. I am too easily bombarded by noise, feelings, etc...I am weirdly introverted and extroverted at the same time. I think that the Violet and Indigo in me can be really confusing at times...one wants to stay home and hide while the other wants to make connections and socialize. I don't do well with stupid and I don't like people...but I am very social, very friendly, and generally well liked.

I think I understand my purpose, but I am not sure that I understand myself just yet. Or ever will.[/QUOTE]

Your story is similar to mine.

I'm a Ron Paul supporter too -- however, I have mentioned RP here on IS before and got a bunch of the pre-milled, anti-Paul propaganda.
Like many other supporters, I don't agree with everything he says, but he's one of the few that's not a puppet of the NWO.

I understand the "weirdly introverted and extroverted at the same time" thing. I also have to live in my head at times -- sometimes I feel that what I imagine is real somewhere.

#258
[FONT=century gothic]Hi Rae, [/FONT]
[FONT=century gothic]I was born in 1985... So I am old, for an indigo. Honestly, it has been difficult to live in the world as it is. I new very young that I was different from everyone in my family, and most people at school. I had some visions here and there, but the strongest thing was that I could feel energies everywhere. I still do, I have this massive sometimes engulfing empathy, and with it a healing power too. My parents divorced when I was 7, both of them of course had different stories and tried to brainwash me as such, which made me really angry, because I already that young, felt like the whole world was all about brainwashing, and I didn't want my parents to do it too. On top of that I am a Piscarian (pisces/aries cusp) and so I naturally have intuitive sensitivities, but also on the aries side, a strong sense of individuality, and almost an aggression when it comes to getting my point across ( I have learned to be more assertive now). After my parents divorced, my dad brought us to church...at 8 years old I was sneaking out of Sunday school to sit in the field and meditate (although I didnt call it meditating then) when I was caught I openly expressed my feelings that I din't buy what the church was selling, and that what they were preaching is simply not what I held as truth in my heart. I felt pushed into valuing something that I simply didn't value. My mother was always saying that i was different and had a 6th sense, and she honored it, but didn't really know how to nurture it. She tried to take me to counseling when I ran out of an indoor yard sale/tag sale sweating and choking when I was 9. The energy in that house was the worst I have ever felt in my life, I remember the feeling of having to get out of that house. I always had vivid and recurring dreams and I still do. In school I was rebellious in every sense of the word. I thought nothing of telling a teacher right where to go, and I ended up getting suspended a lot. One time my dad and mom had to go in for a conference at school because my teacher (who I had swore at and called out) thought that I was cheating because I didn't show my math work....in the meeting he showed my dad a paper of the kind of work we were doing, and i went over and did the problems upside down in minutes, and floored him and my dad. I II was exceptional in art, foreign language, and well thing that I wanted to learn. Although I got suspended a really lot I ended up graduating early. I learned how to use Reiki and went to nursing school, and got straights As, because I loved it, and college was less constricting. Through my career I had good jobs, patients loved me, and so did coworkers. My empathy and understanding of people without having to speak proved an excellent trait for me in nursing, especially in psyche, and hospice. I ended up in mental health dealing with combative and extremely assaultive patients, but I had a way with them. I put out trusting "I know you don';t want to hurt me" energy, and had better luck than others with these patients, and deep down I truly wasn't afraid of them...most of them the i could "see". I got more complements and praise from patients and family and it was great. I was known by bosses and management for innovative thinking and problem solving, having great rapport, and being a strong advocate. Until one day as a member of a council aimed at bettering unti practice and policies, I brought up some suggestions which apparently were threatening to the organizations public image. (They were just safety concerns, and ideas, but things seemed to be getting out of hand on the unit as a whole, and I though that we should do a survey of staff to see which areas they thought needed the most work) and I was fired. A single mother out of work and unable to do anything about it. (also during this time I had 8 family members die) I have been out work now since August!!!! I have never been unemployed, and I have always been a healer, and my purpose was to help people, and see people, and it was taken away. I lost my soul for a little while, and was very bitter(very bitter). If healthcare wasn't all wrong enough to begin with being 99% business and 1% caring, how could they do that to me? Anyways long story short, I fell into a deep hole of depression...one of the hardest parts of my indigo spirit is that I love being me, I love the way I am, but the way I am isn't meshing with the world. The world needs to change, but it hasn't yet, and it is going to take a lot of work to do it. I have almost constantly been shot down or made unattainable somehow. I was depressed for about three months pretty badly, and then, I went soul searching; I meditated every night, and delved into nature, and although I am still unemployed, I feel a stronger sense of power all together. I learned astrology, and have been developing my psychic intuition more and more, and I am beginning to feel more grounded. As for the future, I think the only path I can take and truly be happy, is something entrepreneurial. Hopefully it works out. I know it is hard, because there are not very many of us in this generation. That sense of just knowing more and "getting it more" is true, I always felt like a see a whole world beyond others and its hard to utilize that and not sound all Merlin. I felt like when I would admit that to people, they would look at me like some gypsy witch over a crystal ball. But the most liberating that has happened to me since my little ummm....employment break is not giving a crap. I know what I have to offer now, and I don't care what they think or say, because it is right with my soul, and I am being true to myself. best of luck. If you need to talk more, i can send you my e-mail!


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#259
[FONT=century gothic]Also, I have always been worried about time....I don't know if this is the Indigo, but I have always had a kind of urgency, and have always worried about time. Although a lot of times, I am kind of clumsy, in many situations, I have been noticed as having exceptional reflexes, and physical reaction times. Like catching a falling cup without spilling any before I could even see it was falling. This obviously doesn't happen all the time, but every time it does it is always witnessed by someone. More on a physical note- I have asthma, always have. When I was 25, I had a rare affliction. I had to be hospitalized at Mass General for a month with a hole in the back of my throat that got infected and went into me spinal fluid...(retropharyngeal abcess) The doctors said that they just don't see this, there had been 4 cases all in children under 5. It was kind of unexplained, and just a strange thing to have happened. I have bad vision, & I wear pretty strong contacts, but all my life people have commented on my eyes. How big and unique they are. One weird thing I wanted to look into, because I don't even know if this has happened before, is that when I first released my heart chakra, it actually broke the skin, even today I look like a have an old bullet wound over my heart because the skin broke and continued to peel in layers for like a month after. I have never heard of this kind of physical manifestation of energy, but it happened, and I have the scar to prove it. I am known for being very creative, stubborn or headstrong, and being able to just "get" things. Anyways, I just figured I'd add some physical aspects to my previous post, incase you share any of these. [/FONT]

#260
[FONT=century gothic]It is very hard as we get older and are more able to see the madness and truth of society, to maintain faith that people will change what needs changing in order to sustain our planet. Greed and ignorance plague the world, and its going to huge amounts of pushing to change it. People know what is happening to the planet, and what we need to do. But, people seem unwilling to change unless, placed in an imminent life or death scenario. Then people might be willing to give up their luxuries. How can they not comprehend that without the Earth to live on none of their indulgences will be available to them, and without life and the Earth to sustain it none of their money, or businesses, or other greed-induced selfish profits matter.[/FONT]

#261
I'm 1982. I don't feel like an adult at all. I thought i would be married and have kids by now, but i'm so messed up, i'm glad i don't. I had my childhood severed at the knees by the time i was 10, and it was downhill after that. I had wanted to be a paleontologist when I was about five, and held on to the dream until i applied for college. I almost dropped out of high school because I was exhausted and depressed, but then I managed to throw enough energy into the loop again to graduate from college with an art degree. I had that low energy exhaustion my senior year of college, too, and graduated, and moved back home, and that day i was quite sick.

I haven't been able to make anything really happen yet, I had a nervous breakdown, and I'm trying to put myself back together. I feel like i'm being forced to live in stasis to make up for those lack of years of childhood, but it's all wrong in a similar way that it was wrong before. Like what are we supposed to do at this age? All the foundations that our parents relied on for the societal program are crumbling. That go to college get a job get married have kids thing and work hard and you'll have enough doesn't WORK anymore.

I think the only thing that makes sense is to try to keep a focus and energy rolling on something that you know you want. Like don't do anything unless you're passionate about it, or you know WHY you're doing it. You gotta think about who you are as a person and what your values are. What do you need in life, what do you like? Because if you don't do that, there's no way to get to any positive energy at all.

I don't feel like i'm succeeding yet, but i've been dragging myself out of a very dark place based on that idea of passion and truth, with some result. it's like a bunch of stuff bouncing around on a spinning disc, that hasn't quite gotten into regular orbits yet. just gotta keep hopping on that carousel.... O_O

#262
I am in that dark place a lot, and I'm seven years older than you. I have a useless college degree and have had job after job that I have quit because it does nothing for me at all. Not that you asked for advice, but I suggest tapping into something about yourself that sparks creativity, and run with it. I decided to learn soapmaking, and have started making some money...not a ton, but enough to supplement my husband's income every once in a while...being able to buy an Xbox card for my kids, taking them out to dinner (on the cheap, of course), funding my endless trips to Goodwill in search of books. It will make you feel like it means something, at least for a short while. You will still drop back into that dark place...trust me, I do, all of the time....but there will be bright spots when you let all of that creativity and energy just have its head.

#264
[QUOTE=maurapisces;1114878]so is this thread for 1978-1984?

why is the starting limt 1978?

what if an indigo was born 1975?[/QUOTE]

My thoughts exactly, I was born in 73' and know of people much older than me that could easily be classed as indigo. So, I politely ignore the goldylocks era.

#265
This thread feels like home, 1981 is the year of my birth and all the childhood memories feel like everything happened a couple year ago. When I was 5 I was feeling 10 years old already or even older than that but when I hit 28, I somehow started feeling "younger". I'm still wondering how and why but I feel that the journey is more important in the end and everything will unfold when it's the right time. :)

#266
Hello, special people

I was Born in 1981 and was a fairly "normal" child although i could always sense things.. like there is something else in my room but never to the point where i could hear or talk to anything,
In my teens i was heavily into sports. Then around the age of 16, i started to have very strange dreams. One was a dove came down from the sky and landed inside of me.. which i can see now was my higher self. So at 16 i became different.. soon after everything changed and i was an outcast at school and was different.

For the past 14 years i spend my time around water as a lifeguard.. went thru many rocky times but did realize who i am. In 2008 i began to lose touch with most things around me and went through odd physical things and then i realized i was shifting (ascension) along with the planet and spend 2 years in what felt like another dimension other then the 3rd dimension.. it was mostly bliss. I had a child in 2012 which i now have sole custody of.. and currently i make movies, music and photography which i went back to college to get a certiciate in "photography/digital imaging.

I need a car to get a job in the field but i dislike cars so its quite a predicament.. i have the money, i just have to complete the driving stuff. I have two movies coming out.. one this year and one next year.. in the meantime i got into precious stones and meditating with them. I have also helped heal at least temporarily two seperate individuals back pain.. i have a massage table where i am willing to do healing massage with precious stones..

that's such a small part of my weird journey, lately i have just been reading about the shift.. it was supposed to happen earlier but it keeps being pushed back. I relate to very little left in this dimension but i do past the time with Netflix, Spotify.. creating art and my son.

Great to rediscover IS as i was on it before and now i am back.

#268
Hello, (my first post on this site!) I was born in 1994. I'm currently attending community college and hoping to get a degree in counseling. I always knew that my purpose in life wasn't related to school and so I am always seeking my purpose in life. The main problem is money. I need money to travel and follow my dreams. But I know I'm the type of a person that will scrape money and follow my dreams in under any circumstance and age! :) Nice to meet you.

Re: late 70s/early 80s indigos?

#269
Born in 80...just figured  out my indigo ness lol. I'm a hairstylist and avid pot smoker. Used to be an alcoholic....moved out of the city to Vancouver island to get away from all the ambient emotions there. I'm an empath with hardcore dreams. I haven't slept a full night in my life.  always new i was different. Still drifting aimlessly  and killing electronics in my wake lol...can never get anything electronic to last more than a year or even work properly....one day ill figure my life out lol... I'm also a healer and energy worker...

Re: late 70s/early 80s indigos?

#270
I'm an 80's indigo starseed born in '88. I knew since I was a child I'm supposed to integrate the sexually oppressed peoples of society, into collective society so there are no longer and social outliers, or outcasts and to bring cohesion to the entire structure of society, to aim society towards the collective goal of psycho-social evolution, coherence, and cohesion.

I am supposed to reveal the expanse of the human mind psycho-sexually so that sexuality no longer becomes taboo, or elitist and sexist; and the act of intimacy itself can be had with, and without that sexual contact, to show how to connect to another human being (regardless of sex/gender) on a more profound level altering for the better our social exchanges and the way we regard the emotions of others.

I believe that profundity and authenticity in our social/emotional exchanges should be our striving goal so that understanding can be achieved which will bring us towards our evolution and reveal the collective direction that all humankind, coherence will be achieved, all will be of one mind, and of their own mind as well.
When we stop letting things be what they are in their entirety we reduce them to our current scale of thought, and never learn what they can be, and we are exiled from the entirety of the universe by an act of our own will

Re: late 70s/early 80s indigos?

#271
I was born in 1979. ALways felt that I was a hero, somehow. But matter what, never lost that feeling of mission. Figuring a lot of stuff now, so, probabably, and I wander, why so late? I knew what I had to do early on, but just got a little lost. When you find your purpose, you know you have to go. Sometimes, when I hesitate, I feel that life throughs me in the necessary direction again. Nice to meet you.

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#272
2gogreen2 wrote:1971
I don’t know what to think about me. My mother had a miscarriage right before me. The doctors told my mother to abort me otherwise my mother for sure die losing me and her own life. My mother refused and for some reason and here I am. My mother had a very bad pregnancy, my childhood, adolescence and young adult life was not easy. I have suffered greatly, and for a moment I questioned why she just didn’t listen to the doctors, because my life felt so terrible. My life seemed to have no meaning, I did not understand humanity it was painful to watch, and it was painful to live. My mother had scarified so much to have me. I would never end my own life. My inter me cried endlessly for years, my heart was broken. I wanted badly to heal and help the world. Most of the time I tried to show kindness and people mistaken that with being stupid, I tried to stay pure at mind and hart, and show the light that was in me as a healer. I sometimes felt I was ahead of my time and that people were not ready for people like me. I was living so much for my age. I was able to see things most people didn’t.  As a child I could see and think outside the box. It’s strange but I attracted bad people? I felt and seen them and I could see right through them, I could see their thoughts and cruel intentions and was able to protect myself at a very young age. Now a woman I can say that all that has passed and in my intent to survive I have hidden most of my abilities, I can even say I am invisible, I only allow some to see who I am. I use what I have to help the people that really need it, it is not for all. For the people like me, I tell you, stop trying to save the world. The world doesn’t need saving. It is hard to understand, but the people in it need to grow at their own pace, there's some special individuals that might need you and you will know who they are and you will help them. My life has changed, it’s a lot better. I have learned to accept what we are here to do. I am at my last phase and have become strong. I have learned to control myself and to use what I know wisely. If you are like me you will understand my words to the T. I am a worrier healer of light and will come back when the time comes with many others like me.  I have seen us flying through the skies ready. It is our mission to live and learn to become strong body and mind, to learn to use the light. So to answer your question: Our mission is to live and to learn, our final test is to reach fulfillment, our purpose is to serve with tactic and use what you have wisely and with responsibility…(MY Opinion)
This is one of the wisest and best posts I have read. Thank you so much for sharing your light and inspiring others.

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